Friday, August 11, 2017

Onwards....


To start...some progress shots.
My online weight loss group started a new challenge on the 1st of August. The last challenge went from beginning of May to end of July...I lost the grand total of 1.7  I was the typical yoyo that I am....BUT I must been doing something right as the inches are less....my clothes are fitting better and I am wearing clothes I couldn't fit into 3 months ago.
Anyways just had 1st weigh in for this round...and recorded a loss. I have a lot that I want to achieve this round....so I am motivating myself onwards. 
Hopefully none of the stresses will interfere with my emotions too much...stress usually means eat to me.
There is still anger/hurtswith Simon and Tracey....they will be ongoing...but I still think he has done the right thing. He looks like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders and he is smiling again. A girl friend that he has might have something to do with that. A lovely girl that understands where he is at the moment and is listening to him. 

And talking about progress....look at this....


Kylee is in the Gold Coast on holidays at the moment...they were there last 3 years ago....so this time they had an updated pic done....wow ehh??

Shawn is still in jail...I still have not visited. I cannot bear to see him in there dressed in the prison greens. I talk to him on the phone once or twice a week and he is ok. DCP took his girls in to see him last week and this week I believe he gets a visit from his boys. 
Court is in September for him....his lawyer is hopeful that he will get "time served" as his sentence. Lets hope so...then we can see if he can get his life sorted out. He says he is determined too....I live in hope.



Sunday, July 30, 2017

Stress....means eat...


Yep....thats the story....
I stress, I eat....and all good intentions go out the window....
Last weigh in I got to a weight I have not been too in a long long time....and then this week coz I have "stuff" going on what did I do....yep I bloody ate....
Wham bam thank you...and on goes 1.3kilo's
And did that stop me eating....nahhhhhh...
My online group starts new challenge on Tuesday and I will be sucking it all up, showing my weight and moving on. I am determined this round to get to my goal that I set last round. Its 3 months exactly to our cruise.....and I so want to board that ship looking better than I do now!! I have come a long way since I started 5.2 in January. It hasn't been easy with all the grief but I have persisted and 10 kilo's has gone. Yes, I am still eating my emotions, yes I am still yoyo'ing but yes I am still trying and NOT giving up. 
So thats where I am at...
A fast day today....and I am so gonna rock it and get back on track. 

Right onwards....

Dear son has chosen a new path.
Him and Tracey have split...one of my stresses. Its nasty...very nasty. The eldest of his children has turned against him, sending him a nasty message.....a message that her Mum had a lot to do with I think as it was nearly word for word to what Tracey is always saying. She is always right.....and everyone else is always wrong. 
Really for all the troubles Simon is going through I honestly think he is doing the right thing. I can only hope that one day those kids will see it that way too. 




Dear Daughter....6 weeks!!
Look at that bump!!
We take her and William and Garry to airport on Tuesday, they fly to Melbourne for 3 days, then onto the Gold Coast and then Brisbane...be away for 3 weeks. On her return she will book in for a scan..
Is it 1, is it 2? 

Those exciting plans I was talking about for next year are still being planned.
Ted and I will be heading off on a "dream come true" holiday in May.
Will keep you updated.....


Saturday, July 22, 2017

Just a quick one....


I need to sit down here and write more than I am today...but I haven't got the time.
Things are going on....Simon has walked out on Tracey and is not going back....after years of being put down he has finally had enough.  Pity it had to come to that as deep down Tracey has got a heart of gold, but she is very opinionated and its always HER way..so much so the kids are the same way as she is...        Anyways no time to express it all...no matter what happens I am there for him. 

Some good news.....




Shhhhhh she is keeping it very quiet for the moment....hard to do as she is very excited but there are reasons.


Weight 2.1 down in the last 2 weeks...its been a struggle, and this week hasn't got off to a good start. 

Sunday, July 09, 2017

Time to move it...


A gain for me this....this playing catch up every week HAS TO STOP!!!
I indulged last Friday and Saturday after weighing in....and I have done the same this week.....so WHY am I doing this to myself??
I really want to get down to my goal but I keep sabotaging myself. That HAS TO STOP too!! 
If I want to get anywhere I need to get my head in the right place again, get those joggers out and use them and just move it !! 

Right onwards....and lets hope I haven't set for myself up for another gain this week....

Sunday, July 02, 2017

Again....


It was Happy Birthday to my mum yesterday, the 2nd birthday we have had without her.
Was a horrid day for me....I really missed her. And yep....did my usual,  ate my emotions....
I could hear her saying "your ass won't fit in those jeans Jen" but all I wanted to do was drown my sorrows..
Talking about Mum this morning with hubby...and he made me realise even though we lost her when we didn't expect too we had her a lot longer than we thought we were going too. Mum survived bowel cancer in 1993 when she was in her 60's and then in 1994 she survived liver cancer....so we were lucky that we had her as long as we did.  And even if she had survived her stroke and her fall, she would have been in a lot of pain and she would have had to spend an awful lot of time in hospital and rehab and there is no way she would have liked that. Mum hated hospitals. 

Anyways....after a great week last week where I had a good loss on the scales....this week its going to catch up time again. 
I better get to it and stop the dilly dally'ing if I want to get on that ship in 4 months time weighing 10 kilo's less than I do now...

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Yoyo'ing

That's me....a yoyo....
I really have to get myself sorted out....and focus and commit to my plan. 
Its only 4 months to our cruise and I want to lose more weight before we go.....but I keep sabotaging myself....that will HAVE to stop if I want to meet my goals. 
Its easy to say...now I just HAVE to commit.
Only lost a 100g this week...due to me overeating on the Friday after weigh in, continuing the pattern on Saturday before pulling my head in on Sunday and realising what I was doing to myself.
Exercise has been next to nil other than what I do at work...been so tired of late, lazy too...no excuse, I have had the time. 

So lets see if I can break the cycle. 

Friday, June 09, 2017

Happy is...



And ain't that the truth.....I just hugged that lady, she made my day...

Not only are the scales showing me that....
so is the tape measure....
And so is my diary...just love watching those numbers go down again...

The last 2 years have been absolute hell...and its great to finally be able to concentrate properly on me.  The overwhelming grief has gone, though some days I a memory, a photo, a song or just a thought will have me in tears..
In a couple of days it will 2 years to the evening that Paul came and told us he had terminal cancer and had only a little time left with us. 
I know that is the reason our troublesome one is in jail....what with that diagnosis, his death, followed quickly by Mum's accidental death and then Ted mum's, his grief overwhelmed him and drugs and alcohol numbed it all. I know I completely forgot that when we lost Rosemary in 1996, he as an teenager found them to numb his feelings then.  The troublesome one has a long road ahead of him.... 

Got a quote today on our trip of a lifetime. A few more things to iron out yet....but it looks like late May we will be travelling.....