Saturday, October 14, 2017

Slowly slowly.....

Slowly slowly the weight is coming off...100g last week, 100g this week. I don't make it easy on myself, I tend to become a little piggy on weigh in day and the next day, then spend the rest of the week trying to rectify my binge. The tape measure and my clothes tell me lots of inches have gone!! And people are noticing. I see a difference in my pictures but not in the mirror. Disappointed in myself, I could have done heaps better if I stopped treating myself and stuck to my plan. But just the same, I am happy with the results that I have achieved, 12 plus kilo's gone since the 17th January. 

My troublesome one is settling in well. He's onely but is starting to believe that his family still loves him despite all that he has done. He is getting on real with his father again, and his brother and sister. He looks great. He was about 70 kilo's when he went into jail, he looked just skin and bone, very unhealthy. 

This is him now, a 100 kilo's, clear skin with a healthy appetite. A real pleasure to have around. I so enjoy his company once again. 

His sister is now 17 weeks pregnant...and all going well. She is slowly getting a nursery ready for our little bundle due March next year. Its going to be a "surprise" much to my frustration...I would love to know what she is having. Kylee was over 100 kilo when she had William so its hard to pick the difference between the 2 pregnancies. 


 The 2 pics above are Kylee, the first one she was nearly 7 months...but I think you could see thee difference in sizes. Kylee really feels this one is a girl...I am hoping girl too.


And this gorgeous wee man can't understand why Mummy is taking so long to grow his baby bruvver ....such a cutie. 



Now before I go...the countdown to our holiday/cruise is on. We fly to Sydney on the 26th to say with friends before sailing out to Fiji  on the 29th. We go to Lautoka, Suva, Lifou Island and Vanautu ... soooooo looking forward to it. 

Monday, October 02, 2017

Where's time go??

Well where has time gone...hullo October !!

Been so busy with shifts at work, babysitting William and in between I have attended a few court cases for Shawn.
He is out now....got out on Friday on a 2 year suspended sentence on his own surety.
A long road ahead of him....BUT he seems prepared to face it.
Being inside has changed him for the better. A lesson has been learnt I think.
He is living with us for the time being. We are not minding that, as I said he has changed and he is actually a pleasure to have around. Its been a long long time since I have been able to say that!!



He has put on a heap of weight back on,  the dark skin caused from use of drugs has gone, his eyes are clear....he looks great.  Kylee and him already have got close again and he is enjoying time with his little nephew. 
We are trying to arrange some time to spend with his own kids while they are on school holidays.

Now weight....yoyo'ing a little till last week then I dropped 1.4 kilos and I am now at the lowest I have been in a long time. THEN last night I had a small binge on bread which I haven't been eating very much of.....

On cruise countdown now..25 days and we fly to Sydney, 27 days and we will be sailing......


Tuesday, September 12, 2017

It's Facebook official !!






Kylee had her 12 week scan on Monday to check out baby spine etc and to make sure that twin 2 was being absorbed by her body. It is...all that is left now is the sac. Twin 1 is growing as it should...and quite a little wriggle pot!!


Nothing else of excitement happening.
Simon and Tracey begin mediation with their split. Simon had the boys on Fathers Day, the girls won't acknowledge him. 
Shawn still in jail, put on heaps of weight, totally clean of all drugs and alcohol and he says it will stay that way! Lets hope so. He has been in there 7 months now and apparently goes to court next Monday for sentencing. We wait to see what the verdict is. 
My weight...up and down like a yoyo still...but not drastically. Hoping to get it together, 48 days till my cruise...would love to lose a few kilo's. 



Monday, August 28, 2017

Its been an emotional rollercoaster...

The last few weeks have been a real emotional rollercoaster.
Kylee came back from her holiday and had her ultrasound which had been booked before she left.
We found the reason she was showing very quickly, she was carrying twins....but twin 2 was tucked up behind twin 1 and they discovered it was 10 days growth wise behind....and they couldn't detect a heartbeat.  So Kylee's Dr gave her a referral to have another scan done today, but unfortunately the same result, twin 2 has become a little angel.  A blessing is that twin 1 is ok, a very strong heartbeat and going ok. 
Kylee is sad of course, as are we. We understand its natures way and we'll be happy that we still have a gift growing.

The twins...as you can see pic is upside down...and twin 2 is slowly being absorbed. 


Twin 1...good strong heartbeat and growing well. 

Kylee at 10 weeks. 


Friday, August 11, 2017

Onwards....


To start...some progress shots.
My online weight loss group started a new challenge on the 1st of August. The last challenge went from beginning of May to end of July...I lost the grand total of 1.7  I was the typical yoyo that I am....BUT I must been doing something right as the inches are less....my clothes are fitting better and I am wearing clothes I couldn't fit into 3 months ago.
Anyways just had 1st weigh in for this round...and recorded a loss. I have a lot that I want to achieve this round....so I am motivating myself onwards. 
Hopefully none of the stresses will interfere with my emotions too much...stress usually means eat to me.
There is still anger/hurtswith Simon and Tracey....they will be ongoing...but I still think he has done the right thing. He looks like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders and he is smiling again. A girl friend that he has might have something to do with that. A lovely girl that understands where he is at the moment and is listening to him. 

And talking about progress....look at this....


Kylee is in the Gold Coast on holidays at the moment...they were there last 3 years ago....so this time they had an updated pic done....wow ehh??

Shawn is still in jail...I still have not visited. I cannot bear to see him in there dressed in the prison greens. I talk to him on the phone once or twice a week and he is ok. DCP took his girls in to see him last week and this week I believe he gets a visit from his boys. 
Court is in September for him....his lawyer is hopeful that he will get "time served" as his sentence. Lets hope so...then we can see if he can get his life sorted out. He says he is determined too....I live in hope.



Sunday, July 30, 2017

Stress....means eat...


Yep....thats the story....
I stress, I eat....and all good intentions go out the window....
Last weigh in I got to a weight I have not been too in a long long time....and then this week coz I have "stuff" going on what did I do....yep I bloody ate....
Wham bam thank you...and on goes 1.3kilo's
And did that stop me eating....nahhhhhh...
My online group starts new challenge on Tuesday and I will be sucking it all up, showing my weight and moving on. I am determined this round to get to my goal that I set last round. Its 3 months exactly to our cruise.....and I so want to board that ship looking better than I do now!! I have come a long way since I started 5.2 in January. It hasn't been easy with all the grief but I have persisted and 10 kilo's has gone. Yes, I am still eating my emotions, yes I am still yoyo'ing but yes I am still trying and NOT giving up. 
So thats where I am at...
A fast day today....and I am so gonna rock it and get back on track. 

Right onwards....

Dear son has chosen a new path.
Him and Tracey have split...one of my stresses. Its nasty...very nasty. The eldest of his children has turned against him, sending him a nasty message.....a message that her Mum had a lot to do with I think as it was nearly word for word to what Tracey is always saying. She is always right.....and everyone else is always wrong. 
Really for all the troubles Simon is going through I honestly think he is doing the right thing. I can only hope that one day those kids will see it that way too. 




Dear Daughter....6 weeks!!
Look at that bump!!
We take her and William and Garry to airport on Tuesday, they fly to Melbourne for 3 days, then onto the Gold Coast and then Brisbane...be away for 3 weeks. On her return she will book in for a scan..
Is it 1, is it 2? 

Those exciting plans I was talking about for next year are still being planned.
Ted and I will be heading off on a "dream come true" holiday in May.
Will keep you updated.....


Saturday, July 22, 2017

Just a quick one....


I need to sit down here and write more than I am today...but I haven't got the time.
Things are going on....Simon has walked out on Tracey and is not going back....after years of being put down he has finally had enough.  Pity it had to come to that as deep down Tracey has got a heart of gold, but she is very opinionated and its always HER way..so much so the kids are the same way as she is...        Anyways no time to express it all...no matter what happens I am there for him. 

Some good news.....




Shhhhhh she is keeping it very quiet for the moment....hard to do as she is very excited but there are reasons.


Weight 2.1 down in the last 2 weeks...its been a struggle, and this week hasn't got off to a good start.