All going ok…

 

This has been my goal the past week or so….just slowly does it.

I was rewarded on Saturday at my weigh in with a 300 gram loss.

Stayed on track till last night when I over indulged with crumbed chicken….not keto crumbed, and twice the amount I should have eaten. Little piggy I was. 

BUT this morning, I got up and carried on and put last night behind me. This is a major thing for me as usually after a indulge I get up, weigh and if scales tell me I have gained I go “blown it, may as well forget this week”.  

I know I’m not going to stay 100% perfect and keep on track but if I can climb straight back on the wagon after a lapse then I reckon I’m winning 🤩

This is Australia atm….COVID is definitely not going away. 

I am located in the south west corner of WA and fortunately not in lockdown, and hopefully we don’t. 

School holidays start after school Friday. It’s the little grandies weekend with their Dad, but if more COVID cases show up then I can lockdown see continuing and no visitation as Dad is in Perth.

Our new Mum Jaydene has got herself in strife and seriously jeopardised her chance of keeping her baby. Silly girl saw the baby’s father breaking the vro that is in place. They argued and he became violent (which is why the vro is in place) then when Mum tried to break the argument up Jaydene hit her which was seen by the police as Jaydene’s brother had rang them when the arguments started ….. and they turned up as she was hitting mum. Silly, silly girl. I was so hoping that the baby would change her. 

My last day of working in Bunbury tomorrow, no more travel into town for work. It’s back to the shopping centre just 3 k’s from home. I could have transferred over to the new company that has the cleaning contract but my boss asked me to stay with them.

Right….new book to read, catch you later. 

A better week.

After my post last Saturday I indulged a little bit more in self pity, eating more junk food but also thinking of a way to get myself out the “funk” I was in. By the end of the weekend I decided that I was going to go back to doing Lazy Keto. I enjoyed it last time I did it, the only reason I stopped was I was getting real bad reflux. My meds have been changed since then so fingers crossed that all will go well this time.  

So far all has been good. I started Monday morning and at weigh in this morning I’m already a kilo down 😊👏                                                                       I enjoy eating this way, I love the food I can eat and don’t seem to miss what I can’t have. Anyways it’s onwards and fingers crossed I can keep it up and keep the losses happening. 

Today being weigh in day I usually have a cheat day. More so when I have the 2 little grandies like I did this morning. But this morning I weighed in, had my coffee,  fed the kids and carried on. Maybe it was because Miss Summer was feeling poorly and running a bit of a temp I didn’t have time…but I think it’s more because I’ve settled into the keto way. Long may that last too. 

What else….

Jaydene’s baby is getting cuter by the day. Her time with Bub has been cut back by DCP as there excuse was “ she needed to grow up and sort out her life”   Wrong thing to say to her…a big “shit fight” is happening now between them all now. It’s so wrong 😑  Jaydene deserves to have that baby despite her past. She deserves at least that chance to prove she can be a mother.  

My work company has lost the contract in the shopping centre where I work.  My boss rang to let me know his small company cannot compete with the companies that have tendered BUT he has asked that I stay with him and work at the small shopping village just 3 k’s from where I live. Ironically that’s where I started working for him over 10 years ago. Anyways the Centre Manager in where I am working atm has said that the new company will keep them on….but under what conditions and hours no one knows yet. 

My boss has given 15 hours a week which is what I am doing now so I am very happy.  I’m happy that he thought enough of me to make the offer. Don’t know where he is going to fit me in on the roster, guess I will find out come July 1st when I start. I get on well with them all but still I’m not sure how that will go down with them.  

I know two are on the pension and just working to supplement their pension. Anyways, will wait and see.

UPDATE…. Miss Summer …. who was taken by Mummy up to Mandurah for Daddy pick up for his weekend access at lunchtime after she finished work …. has just been taken to hospital as she has got worse. Fingers crossed it’s nothing too serious.

Will leave you with little Miss Smudge….did I tell you about her? She was bought home by my son and granddaughter a few months ago, but somehow or other she has attached herself to me and Hubby.  She is growing up but still too full of kitten mischief.  Has wrecked a few of my good dining chairs by using them as scratching posts…even though she has one of her own. 

Hating me.

Last week I had it all together..well nearly anyways. Then I lost the plot, heck knows why?

Weigh in this morning resulted in a 1.5 gain. Really go figure 😨 

Totally all me. No one to blame but myself. I knew what I was doing to myself. A little voice inside said it will be alright, next week you’ll lose it. So I ate some more. Felt sick, clothes were getting tighter. Little voice says it’s alright Jen you know what to do to lose it, you’ve done it before, next week will see it gone.

Really, I must be sick in the head 😱. 

Why do I do this to myself? 

It’s a nasty vicious circle in my head and somehow I just have to stop it. 

I just have too. My weight is going up, and up and I don’t like it.

Actually I hate myself. 

I just have to regroup and stop myself before it goes any further.

It’s starting to effect me, everything seems to be an effort. I ache. I am bloated. 

I need to find the mindset to get myself out of this funk. This yo-yo’ing just has to stop. 

I have to find me again.

Saturday

Jaydene’s visits with Jahzara seem to be going well . Baby is growing every time I see a pic of her. She appears to be very alert.  I’m hoping to get to see her on one of the daily visits Jaydene has but I will have to go through all the rigmarole with DCP for that to happen. 

Hours have been lowered at work. And if rumours are to be believed I may even be out of work soon. The shopping centre has called for tenders for the cleaning contract as the one we have ends this month. I’m not sure our company will get it again. The centre manager is new taking over from Russell who has had us contracted there for the last 10 years. Brett has taken over, he’s young, he’s brash and he is not a fan of our bosses. So if we don’t get the contract I will unemployed unless the new contractors take me on. I was hoping to keep the job till next year when I can officially retire.

Weigh in day today. A loss. It’s been a not too bad week and was happy to see that reflected on the scales.