Thursday, August 23, 2018

Update

Well this was me....up and down, typical yoyo...good one meal, bad the next...regroup and have a good day then fall in a heap the following day....what a sad state of affairs!! I was miserable and so darn angry at myself.

Anyways....a few days off, some rest with no kids and I sat myself down and planned my days. Even managed a couple of walks.

Yesterday I had a girlfriend down for the day. We went out morning tea where we shared a slice, had a small roast pork lunch and afternoon tea we shared a scone. I had a light meal for my tea....and this morning at weigh in I was rewarded with a 900g loss for the fortnight. Put a smile on the dial that did....so hopefully this will continue.

Alls good with the family....
Kylee, Garry, William have all got the flu and they hoping Summer doesn't get it!! 
Simon came down on the weekend with his boys, it was his youngest son's birthday so we had a small get together and cooked up a bbq. Things are not too crash hot with Simon, ongoing war with Tracey, his girls refuse to have anything to do with him. Tracey is poison and if she can cause trouble she will. Very opinionated and loves the sound of her own voice and doesn't care about what hurt she causes. Because Simon is my son the girls have had nothing to do with us since the breakup...sad but thats the way it is. Hopefully as they grow up (they are 15 and 16) they will get away from their mother and her nastiness and realise how important family is. The boys say they get quite embarrassed at how she acts and talks sometimes. 

Tanya is coping. It's nearly 3 years since we have lost Paul and she has coped thanks to the kids. They miss him of course as we all do but life has gone on and we go day by day with our memories. He would be so proud of them !! 
I myself had a meltdown the other day at work. I saw a guy who's profile was Paul's to a T, he was dressed like Paul used too...I thought for a few seconds it was him, even opened my mouth to call out to him....then remembered...

Anyways a work day tomorrow, so must away and get the washing in ( a fine day here but with a cool breeze) and air it out in front of the fire, especially my work uniform. 



Wednesday, August 15, 2018

Still struggling...

I seem to be fighting a loosing battle with myself and my weight...
I rejoined weight watchers for the 12 months knowing that paying out that money on a monthly contract that I would have to attend!! 
But I am struggling...a lot of emotional eating and I can't seem seem to get out of the pattern. Why do I do this to myself. I so want to get myself healthy again and feeling good about myself....BUT I seem to fall into that bikkie barrel time and time again....