Thursday, February 27, 2020

I'm back...

And fatter than I have been in a long time.....I feel yuk!!! 
Just looking at myself makes me want to cry.
Looking at the scales does.
I have gained 14 kilo's since January 11th to now....
A doctor visit today....then its time to get rid of this fat again!!! 

 I loved the cruise...had the best time with my sister...met some fantastic people...6 nights just wasn't long enough!!!  


Thursday, February 06, 2020

Getting there...

On February the 1st the online weigh in group started another new 3 month round. The last round was my all time worst round ever!! I went from my lowest weight in a long time to my highest weight in a long time. Some of it I will admit to cheap shonky scales...but the rest there is no one to blame but me. Lost focus, self sabotage, whichever way you like it all boils down to me losing the lot plot! 
Food is my go to when I am down, I'm an emotional eater and you would think I would have THAT learnt my lesson by now, heck I am nearly 64. I have been battling my weight for most of my life. I wasn't overweight as a child, but once I left school, married and started having children the weight slowly started going on. More so when I was diagnosed with an inactive thyroid...and that was after my daughter was born in 1985. So from then to now I have played the yoyo game....lowest being 64 kilo's to highest 114kilo's. I have lost weight with Jenny Craig...kept that off for 3 years, done Easy Slim and lost weight but the group folded and the weight went back on.  Weight Watchers was my biggest success. I started that in late 2004 got to goal weight of 68 kilo's in March 2006. I kept that off for over 5 years though I settled on around 74/5 kilo's. But then life got in the way and I ate my through them. I have managed not to get up into the 3 numbers again...and hope I never do again. 
I tried ww again last year, but what with work and looking after grandies I couldn't get them to gel...even online. I haven't been able to get into ww since I became a lifer. 
I am doing lazy kept now....and I love it. 
Yes, I do fall off the wagon and eat what I shouldn't but I am back to it again..and hope to get my starting weight down before I go cruising on the 19th. (First weigh in since starting this round is tomorrow morning so I will do a edit in the morning)

EDIT :- I lost 1.4 

I know I am not going to be able to resist while on the boat but I am hoping on my return to slide back into kept mode.