Soooo tired

I am so tired. 
Fallen into a hole and really struggling to dig myself out....but I will.
I need to. I don't want to go back to where I was.
Keto/low carb is working for me, makes me feel good.
But things are happening here...and I am emotionally eating.
Remember the granddaughter we were looking after, the one that kept getting suspended at school, the one that wanted to go live with her mum....well she is the problem. Won't go into details but she is well out of control, the situation has gone from bad to worse!!  
Miss Summer is the reason I am so tired...(and that doesn't help with the emotional eating either).
She has struggled for months now with sinusitis and it isn't improving at all despite courses of antibiotics. The last few weeks she has struggled with sleeping (when Miss doesn't sleep, no one sleeps!!) because of her breathing so an appointment is being made to see a ENT specialist. The Dr told us it may come to this as her nasal passages are narrow. Thankfully Kylee does have private cover so hopefully she will get in sooner rather than later. 

My scales have been going down up to Friday....
BUT I am worried that my scales are wrong.
My ww ones died a while back and I bought some cheap K Mart ones. The battery has already been replaced 3 times since my buying them as it just kept reading Lo or the numbers would jump all over the place. It was doing my head in PLUS making me wonder how true my readings were!!! 
So bought ww ones again...but too scared to unpack them yet...but I will. 

A week of ups and downs

 William and Summer both saw there Dad last Sunday. William was stoked....and I must admit his behaviour has been a little better since. Since the separation his self esteem has hit rock bottom....he thinks it was because he was naughty that Daddy told lies and got kicked out!!  Anyways we can only hope that the issues he has will in time stop!! Waiting to get into to see a counsellor now for months. Even the school is trying to get him into see someone. Till then, praise, love and lots of attention.

Court was on Tuesday....he lost!! The magistrate gave him grief.
So what does he do...he goes home, writes a letter to Kylee's lawyer stating a revised list of what he wants out of Kylee's house. Would you believe that this "loving Dad" wants to take Summer's cot and change table because it was given to them from his brother!! 
And out of spite...he wants Kylee to sell her house to pay for their debts!!  Now this ever so "loving Dad" wants to take the roof from over their heads!!!
He has no hope of that I believe...Kylee bought the house before he came on the scene....and he has never in the 6 years they were together made a payment on it or tried to increase its value in any way. 

 Look at these two gorgeous lil ones....breakfast time and my house is already trashed. Mornings that I have to get myself ready for work, William for school and Summer for daycare are madness.

Yesterday was very very hot. Hubby turned the sprinklers on and little Miss was scared for awhile then...clothes and all she discovered how fun they were...love these pics I caught of her. 

Well that was my week, the high and lows. Through it all I managed to stay on track most days.  

Weigh in yesterday and I recorded a 500g loss.  Went off track yesterday...but today will pull my head in and behave, tummy not the best...too much ice-cream does that!! 

New round...

The online weight loss group I am has rounds of 3 months. Friday the 1st of November was the last weigh in for the round (I lost 300g)and the 1st weigh in for the next 3 months. I lost 3.5 for the 3 months, could have been better if I hadn't "lost the plot" a few times....but slow and steady wins the race. 

Tomorrow Kylee's kids see their Dad for the 1st time since the beginning of March. The visit will be for 2 hours and at Anglicare fully supervised. 
Hoping it helps William as he really has missed his Dad. Was hoping by now his counselling would have started....the wait list is so long. 

Court for the vro is on Tuesday. Kylee is requesting the vro stays in place for her because sure as eggs he will start harassing her again. She is requesting it stays in place for the kids too (other than the supervised visits). He is not to be trusted.  
For a loving father that he says he is, he has done so much damage to William especially. 

Anyways, I off to bed....a very early morning work start for me tomorrow. Hope its not raining...nothing worse than having to get up in the dark and drive to work in the rain!!