I am still here...

Yes, so true.
I had got myself into such a sad state with my weight...it was just going up and up. The more upset I got about the gain of course the more I ate. 
When I could only fit into "my fat clothes" I said to myself enough is enough....I need help before I start getting myself into a state of depression. 
A good talk to my doctor, a change in my reflux medication...and I have been on a roll since. I am following a plan given to me by my Dr and I visit her once a month for a weigh in and check up.

A lot has been going on in the background here that wasn't helping. Kylee has ongoing stuff going on with her lawyer trying to sort out stuff with Bozo and the kids. He fought tooth and nail to get unsupervised access to them, the court agreed and worked out times and dates. Kylee had 1 condition and that was to have carseats fitted to his car properly and a compliance certificate. Huh...you know what...he has missed 3 visits as he hasn't supplied a compliance certificate to Kylee's lawyer yet. What does that tell you? 
William is having a real hard time of it, he misses his Dad. We are having a lot of behaviour problems with him, and they are at school too. Kylee saw her doctor and demanded that the referral to counselling be bought forward, he needs it now more than ever. I also asked Kylee to get a referral to a paediatrician as I think he may have some form of Autism. 
Anyways stamping her foot got attention and William is booked in for the 3rd of August for a counselling session.

Also have had eldest son move back home. His relationship went kaput in a big way. He was very heartbroken and drowning his sorrows in drinking. Simon has always enjoyed a few beers, too many to my way of thinking but until it effects this household I will keep my mouth shut. 
Thankfully since moving here he has found a job. We’ve been keeping him but come payday he can pay for his upkeep, I can’t afford too. Love him dearly but.....
I am though worried that Shawn may start drinking more too. Him and Simon enjoy a drink of an evening together. Shawn with his troublesome past doesn’t need that. It’s something I am keeping a close eye on and this mum will not hesitate to tell Simon to go drink elsewhere. 

I also have Shawn’s eldest living with us. Her foster mother and her had a falling out, and I was asked to respite care. Of course we did, we love Skye dearly. A few weeks ago she asked if she could stay here forever as she didn’t want to move in with strangers again. 
She has settled in well. She loves the little ones and even babysat one night for me. She is well be 17 in November, but is a very immature young lady. Hopefully with time we can help her to grow up to be more mature. She has come along in leaps and bounds since she moved in. Just have to get her to help out more....she is a lazybones. Typical teenager!!

Anyways  think I have caught up with everything.
Time to prepare dinner....