Wandering down memory lane....

Above is me 2005 to 2011...when I felt great, loved myself... and was happy in my skin. 

Above is a pic that hubby snapped of me in England without me knowing when on holiday in 2018. I had lost weight before I left..but looking at that ^^^^ you wouldn't think so.

My lovely Dr gave me this below.....
 You’re careful for a while, lose some weight, and improve your fitness… then gradually revert back to your old ways.

You know exactly what to do, but can’t seem to do it. You feel like you could write a diet book with everything you know about weight loss. But you don’t act on it.

The truth is, there’s a huge difference between knowing what to do and actually doing it. It’s easy to hop from one diet to the next without ever sticking with anything. Success (or lack thereof) comes down to our mindset, psychology, and habits.

And my problem is I think....

My lack of success is the fear of succeeding ....even though I have succeeded before and kept the weight off for 5 years ..... 2005/6 to 2011 then the yo-yoing began again.

So where do I go to from here...Im not sure yet.

Ive been trying to do low calories/low carb. That has been working but I keep caving in and looking for carbs.....mainly pastry!!

Thinking of going back to lazy keto....tried it yesterday but failed after dinner....but I'm not giving in YET. Trying it again today.

My son said to me this morning, as he sat here drinking his coffee with me while I was writing this, "why do you persist in dieting, you are nearly 65, don't you think its time to just stop and live your life and eat what and when you like"

Wish I could son....but I know I would end up fatter than ever!!