Will I ever learn....

grrrrrrrr I am so over myself, will I ever learn !!!

Food is there to eat when you need fuel and or hungry...NOT to eat and try to make me feel better. WHY do I do it!!!!!

And WHY is it always the wrong food, the sweet, fatty, sugary ones????

ahhhh wellllll here we go again....

Had a good week

It has been a long wet week....but I have managed to excersise 5 days out of the week, and managed a loss of 500 grams. Am happy that I have managed to stay on track, it hasn't been easy, this colder weather makes a person want to eat.

Had my brother drop mum off here for the weekend as he travelled throu on up to the city. So had a good couple of days with her. She still as active as ever but is slowly starting to show her age and tires a heck of a lot quicker than she used too. Took her in to see Shawn and Hannah, they were as broke as so went shopping for them and stocked up their pantry. Things are the same with them, still no progress with getting the kids back and as yet I still haven't heard when/if me and hubby can have an access visit with them. Shawn is still as moody as ever and mum noticed too on Saturday that he is very nervous/stressed and we think he is heading for a breakdown. Sunday had a phone call from him, he and Hannah were bickering again.....so think that breakdown is coming sooner rather than later. That scares me....

Day 1.....again.....

These pics are from our holiday...this is the Kings Canyons and would have to be my favourite part of the trip. Me and Tina did the 3 hour walk up, over, throu and down the canyon.....and loved every minute of it. Wowwwwww we just climbed that!!

But heyyyyyy it was so worth it....lookk at that !!

And this !!

Just look at these rocks....

Tina and I up on the highest point of the Canyon, quite proud of our efforts to get this far.

This picture shows where we got to climb over and throu...but if the sights we see are what we have already seen it will be well worth it.

Loved this cliff face...just look at the colours, they were fantastic, sometimes a camera just doesn't do justice.

Clamber up and over these rocks, around the corner and its the down hill run....only a few more k's to go.

The path on the way down....and boy we were glad we did the 3 hour walk....it was fantastic, worth every minute of it.

Today was the day I finally got my head around this menopause crap again. I woke up this morning after having one of the best nights sleep I have had in a while, so decided there and then it was the day to get my backside into gear AGAIN and start trying to get myself back on track. With that I dressed, put on my joggers and went for an hours walk, came back and had a filling breakfast...and yayyyy I have managed to stay on track all day.

Stay away hot flushes....I feel good about myself again and ready to deal with the ongoing battle I have been having with these extra kilo's I have gained.

Maybe if these hot flushes persist I might go back to my Dr and see if I can go back on HRT again. Was on them for over 2 years but went off them as they just weren't giving me any relief from the flushes, the itches and the persistent bleeding.

mmmm here we go again....

Me with little Mathew on Father's day.......

Well here I am again....computer has been fixed, it did need a new hard drive so yep I have lost everything. I asked for the broken one but was told it had been tossed....NOT happy about that and yes I did let them know!!!

Having a terrible time with hot flushes, aches and pains and emotional eating. It seems to be a never ending cycle with me of late, go well for a couple of weeks, lose a couple of kilo's and start to feel good about myself again and then WHAMMO.....will I ever get to feel good about me again?

Have had some visitors staying with us, Kaye has been throu menopause so knew what I was going throu thankfully as I am afraid I wasn't 100% for their stay. But we did have a great time. Sadly they had to leave early and make their way quickly back to home (in QLD) as Kay's mum health is declining...and of course Kay needs to be with her.

Hopefully I can get myself back on track as soon as possible and get these few kilo's off again....coz it is really getting me down.

Am here....

Just.....
My new p/c which is just 6 months old has died....apparently the hard drive has gone in it. I am NOT happy.....all my photo's have gone !! All my babies pics....gone. Have some of them on disc, but not many.....I hadn't learnt how to do any back ups.....ohhhhhhhhhhhh why didn't I learn?
Anyways maybe when I get the p/c back it might not be as bad as I was told.

Received a letter from Shawn, and a phone call too....he seems okay, very worried about his eldest child...apparently she was told her Daddy is not going to be her daddy anymore. Shawn has of course filed a complaint....but sheeeeeeeeez how cruel is this department??

Weigh in was MOnday, lost another kilo....going down but still a long way to go.