Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Its back to work...

Not only has a huge part part of our lives gone, a  big big part of Tanya's life has gone too. 17 years of togetherness was nowhere near long enough for her. 
And 35years with the son of my heart was not long enough…and my dear husband has lost another child, his precious eldest child, his mate…45 years was nowhere long enough.
 This is Paul and his sister Rosemary, taken  a few months before she was killed in an accident in May 1996.
As we were preparing to leave to go to the crematorium on Friday two doves came and landed on the fence at Tanya's. The male just sat there and looked around at us all, and the female preened her feathers. We think this was an omen that Paul was with her as they sat there just preening and watching us for about 5 minutes, even as the kids ran around making noise. It helped sooth our broken hearts a little. 
This pic was taken on their last holiday together as a family…treasured memories for them all.
Our lives, everyone of us,  has a huge hole in it now…
Our only thing that does console us all is that he did not linger, the cancer is not causing him any more pain.  He fought…but lost the battle.

I go back to work heavy hearted tomorrow.

Thank you all for the lovely messages of sympathy. 


  1. Oh Jen, I cannot even begin to imagine what you have been through and how you are feeling. Sending heaps of huge hugs across the country xox

  2. I wish I had some words - I cannot even imagine what you must be going through. Life is a bitch at times, losing 1 child is hard, losing 2 is just cruel...... lots of hugs xx

  3. Jen & family, how heart breaking for you all. I can't find enough words to express my sympathy - thinking of you - and hugs xxx

  4. Hugs, no words but here supporting you..


  5. Having lost both my brothers to accidents, I can relate to the pain losing a precious family member brings. My heart breaks for you all. {{{HUGS}}}