Yep....thats the story....
I stress, I eat....and all good intentions go out the window....
Last weigh in I got to a weight I have not been too in a long long time....and then this week coz I have "stuff" going on what did I do....yep I bloody ate....
Wham bam thank you...and on goes 1.3kilo's
And did that stop me eating....nahhhhhh...
My online group starts new challenge on Tuesday and I will be sucking it all up, showing my weight and moving on. I am determined this round to get to my goal that I set last round. Its 3 months exactly to our cruise.....and I so want to board that ship looking better than I do now!! I have come a long way since I started 5.2 in January. It hasn't been easy with all the grief but I have persisted and 10 kilo's has gone. Yes, I am still eating my emotions, yes I am still yoyo'ing but yes I am still trying and NOT giving up.
So thats where I am at...
A fast day today....and I am so gonna rock it and get back on track.
Right onwards....
Dear son has chosen a new path.
Him and Tracey have split...one of my stresses. Its nasty...very nasty. The eldest of his children has turned against him, sending him a nasty message.....a message that her Mum had a lot to do with I think as it was nearly word for word to what Tracey is always saying. She is always right.....and everyone else is always wrong.
Really for all the troubles Simon is going through I honestly think he is doing the right thing. I can only hope that one day those kids will see it that way too.
Dear Daughter....6 weeks!!
Look at that bump!!
We take her and William and Garry to airport on Tuesday, they fly to Melbourne for 3 days, then onto the Gold Coast and then Brisbane...be away for 3 weeks. On her return she will book in for a scan..
Is it 1, is it 2?
Those exciting plans I was talking about for next year are still being planned.
Ted and I will be heading off on a "dream come true" holiday in May.
Will keep you updated.....
I need to sit down here and write more than I am today...but I haven't got the time.
Things are going on....Simon has walked out on Tracey and is not going back....after years of being put down he has finally had enough. Pity it had to come to that as deep down Tracey has got a heart of gold, but she is very opinionated and its always HER way..so much so the kids are the same way as she is... Anyways no time to express it all...no matter what happens I am there for him.
Some good news.....
Shhhhhh she is keeping it very quiet for the moment....hard to do as she is very excited but there are reasons.
Weight 2.1 down in the last 2 weeks...its been a struggle, and this week hasn't got off to a good start.
A gain for me this....this playing catch up every week HAS TO STOP!!!
I indulged last Friday and Saturday after weighing in....and I have done the same this week.....so WHY am I doing this to myself??
I really want to get down to my goal but I keep sabotaging myself. That HAS TO STOP too!!
If I want to get anywhere I need to get my head in the right place again, get those joggers out and use them and just move it !!
Right onwards....and lets hope I haven't set for myself up for another gain this week....
It was Happy Birthday to my mum yesterday, the 2nd birthday we have had without her.
Was a horrid day for me....I really missed her. And yep....did my usual, ate my emotions....
I could hear her saying "your ass won't fit in those jeans Jen" but all I wanted to do was drown my sorrows..
Talking about Mum this morning with hubby...and he made me realise even though we lost her when we didn't expect too we had her a lot longer than we thought we were going too. Mum survived bowel cancer in 1993 when she was in her 60's and then in 1994 she survived liver cancer....so we were lucky that we had her as long as we did. And even if she had survived her stroke and her fall, she would have been in a lot of pain and she would have had to spend an awful lot of time in hospital and rehab and there is no way she would have liked that. Mum hated hospitals.
Anyways....after a great week last week where I had a good loss on the scales....this week its going to catch up time again.
I better get to it and stop the dilly dally'ing if I want to get on that ship in 4 months time weighing 10 kilo's less than I do now...
