What a week!!

What a week it has been.....
Since my Uncle passed away I have fallen big time off the wagon...I have eaten everything and anything, so much so I have been sick to the stomach and still stuffed more in. 
( Losing Uncle meant it was the end of an era...my mum's family is no more, Uncle was the last one.  I feel my cousin's pain, even though its 21 months since we lost mum its never ever far from my mind...and my cousins will be feeling the same for their much loved Dad. ) 
Was so upset with myself, and really worried about my health, so much so I went to a Dr. Told him how upset I was about my weight, how I binge eat whenever "life" gets the better of me. He sent me off to the pathologist and a whole heap of bloods were taken just to make sure there was no underlying problem. I asked him about a appetite suppressant, namely Duromine....but that was a big fat NO! 

Anyways after a few more days of wallowing today is the first day I haven't gone out and deliberately sabotaged myself with my eating. I have not been 100% but hey its been heaps better than what I was!!  Maybe it was my weigh in...2.4 up....all that in 6 days!!
And here I am trying to lose weight. 4 months is all I  have got to lose a few kilo's, I want to be able to travel to Canada/Alaska and London in comfort in May/June. Our trip is coming around so quickly....we'll be flying out before I know it !

Have another few hurdles to jump yet. My Uncles funeral is on Monday....well actually its a service as he will be later cremated and his ashes spread across the farm where he grew up on farmed along with his family. 
Then Tuesday I am admitted to hospital for surgery, a prolapse is to be repaired....again. This is the 3rd time, so hopefully this time it will be done properly. 
So hopefully that will be one problem that I won't have to live with anymore.