I am back....
Life has been sooooooo busy, sooooooo stressful of late that yep I lost my way.
Sooooo much happening.
My diet went out the window.
But things are slowly settling down and I have slowly gotten back on the wagon and putting myself and my health first.
I can't look after kids properly when I am not looking after myself.
Anyways Kylee has been to court.
Bozo can NOT take the kids away from her.
He can have visitations SUPERVISED by Anglicare 2 hours once a fortnight...which will be reviewed again after 8 visits. He protested this BUT the magistrate told him due to his behaviour it was this or nothing!! He also gets 2 x 15 minutes FaceTime a week.
I am so hoping this helps William as he has been missing his Dad. Councelling has been organised for him (as he needs more understanding of the situation than we can give him)by a Dr and the Safe Police but there is such a long wait list.
I also have a 12 year old going on 20 granddaughter in our temporary care due to a foster care breakdown. Attitude plus she has!!
Talking of her...best get her organised for school.
Back again....and slowly getting myself on track again.
Kylee has taken 2 weeks leave to spend the school holidays with William....he is so excited. So much so he woke Mummy up at 5.30 this morning wanting to know what their first adventure was going to be !!
So...I don't have the kids for 2 weeks (other than a night this week and 1 night next week while Mummy has nights out with friends)
Shawn has left for 2 weeks up north with his Uncle camping and fishing.....so that leaves me and my man here in the house alone!!!
First night...we celebrated and had take away...not good but hell I enjoyed it. Back on the wagon I hopped today.
Leading up to this I have slowly gotten myself 95% on track. Weigh in Saturday morning showed a 400g gain...but I was happy with that as they were a lot higher the last sneak peek I had during the week.
Looks like a early court date for Kylee. She has received word that she will be served family court papers on Tuesday. Looks like the ex is applying to have pro for the kids dropped again. The way he still carrying on...I hope not. The man is not right in the head!!
BUT I will not let it get to me......we will wait and see what happens.
Till later...
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| Mum and my cousin Ray |
Mum would have been 90 on July 1st. I fully expected her to make it too. This the 4th birthday without her.
The shock of her passing unexpectedly is still unbelievable. Hubby and I were on a cruise, a day out of Noumea when I received that phone call.
This birthday I have truly missed her.
Often when I am down, need a mum chat, or just have something I want to say to her I will usually find a feather. Mum loved birds. The day we buried her, I looked up and 2 birds were circling above. Every time I visit her, birds are at the cemetery.
Her birthday came and went....and NO FEATHER.
I needed it.
Worst day in a long time.
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| Mum and my brother Rod |
I am really struggling atm.....
Last weigh in I had a gain of 900g...this week I am having a no weigh. I've lost my way a bit and I need to regroup. I can't keep going on like this....BUT i do need to let myself deal with my emotions too. Im on a day off....so going to have a rest day then I have shifts for the next 3 days before having the weekend off. No little ones tonight or tomorrow night so I can regroup before they back for a couple more nights. School holidays start at the end of this week and yay yay yay Kylee is taking holidays too and spending them with the kids....so looking forward to that.
I'm led to believe though that she is having a girls night out with some of her friends so I MAY have to babysit.....
