Weight…..I’m on 2nd week of watching what I eat instead of eating what I like when I feel like and I’m starting to feel better for it. Not following any program, just eating sensibly and not over indulging. Hopefully reflux will settle down more, I’m still getting some oesophageal spasms but I start a new medication tomorrow. I have rejoined new challenge on my online weight loss group which starts on the 1st of August…hope I don’t self sabotage myself.
I have heard from Centrelink that as of end of August I can retire. But as we don’t travel far in the summer I am going to keep working but only one day a week…or maybe 3 days a fortnight depending on how much I can earn before it affects our pensions payments.
Soooooooooo hopefully I can get my shit together and stop my binge eating that I’m doing atm and lose some weight. I went to my Dr and had a good long talk with her about my health, my weight and aches and pains. She sent me off to the “vampires” where I had a whole heap of blood taken and I now have a follow up appointment scheduled for next week. Hopefully Doc has some answers for me. She has helped out before with my diet and we did have some success. Maybe we can again…let’s see what my blood results show. Maybe I just need thyroid medication changed,,,who knows. I know my attitude does. I know I’m not going to lose weight if I don’t try. I can’t keep up with this “hit and miss” attitude I have and the yo-yoing weight can’t be good either.
I just can’t afford to be fat and uncomfortable, I want to enjoy my life after work. I want to be happy in my skin, I want to be able to climb, hike, and travel in comfort. But nothing will work unless I work at it.
Onwards……
Once upon a time, many years ago now I used to be happy with my weight. After I got to my goal weight in 2005 for 4 or 5 years I managed to keep it off once I settled 6 kilo’s above it…but gradually over the years it has yoyo’ed up and down. More up than down I must say. I’ve tried weight watchers, 5:2, intermittent fasting, keto, shakes …… you name it, I’ve tried it. Yep, they work, but I can’t work with them. I end up crashing and burning, bingeing and hating myself and starting the procedure all over again. It’s me, I sabotage myself. And it’s wearing me down so much as the weight is starting to affect my health. I don’t want that, retirement is close and I want to get out there and enjoy my life, travel with hubby and do things together. We had the best 2 weeks away and I want more of that, but not have to struggle with limitations due to my weight.
