It’s that day again…

 Yep, that’s it…weigh in day. 

A whopping 1.9 off…..ecstatic about that. But I worked hard for it. 

It’s been bloody hard, but I have to put myself first and push away the sadness. 

Karma will get whoever is responsible for Rays horrific death and be made to pay for it. Won’t bring him back but we’ll push till we know the truth.  Rays wife has seen a lawyer so the progress has started. 

Not much else is happening. Been busy preparing for our trek. Permits have all been applied for, received two back so we getting there. Vehicle has been serviced and all tools and apparatus has been loaded up. 

I’ve done some food prep, bought food and so not much will need to be done before we go. Getting closer

now….can’t wait. 

Self Sabotage

 

Yep, done it again. Did a real good job of it too….a 1.8 gain 😳

Why?

My late cousin (Ray) was killed back in January whilst out helping to contain a fire. He was caught in the path of the fire whilst grading a fire break and was burnt to death. 

It should not have ever happened. He should not have been out there on his own. If the person who took him out there had stayed with him as he should have he would have been saved. He was very nearly safe, just a few more meters and would have been if he had had the help. My heart is just broken. Not just for me but his wife should still have her husband, their kids their Dad and Grandad. 

When I was told this, I went looking for chocolate, it helped. But it didn’t take the ache away, took 2 days to realise that food wasn’t going to help.

I’m back, but so broken. 

Easter

 

Today is the 44th anniversary of my younger brothers death. He was 27 years old and the father of 2 children and twins on the way. He was nearly 5 years older than me, but we were close, I think because we were the middle 2 of 4 kids. 44 years is a long time, but heck I still miss him.

Little Missy here throughly enjoyed Easter and all the chocolate. She was in chocolate heaven and at the end of the day was on a real high sugar high. More so as we limit the amount of sugar she is allowed. Being overweight for her age the Doctors have advised us to keep her sugars as low as we can…don’t want her being diabetic.

Master William here loves his chocolates too….and was devouring his too. 

He is the opposite to his sister, he’s underweight and we struggle to put weight on him….

See these things….freckle chocolates??

I bought a bag of them for the kids, before bed they are allowed to chose 1 little chocolate to eat as I read them their bedtime story. 

Well…..I wished I never bought them as I devoured them. I’ve been so good with chocolates….but these ughhhh 🫤😳

I think it’s because they weren’t wrapped. Any how’s I had to throw what I hadn’t eaten (and that wasn’t many) into the bin!!!

Then for the rest of the week I had to plan and track and stick 100% to my ww points.

It worked. I lost 600g 

HAPPY EASTER 🐣 

Sports Day

 Wednesday ad Friday were sports days at my grandson Williams school. William loves his sports days. This year him being in Year 4 he was able to participate more in the jumps and long distance running. Last year he was only allowed to do the 200 meters and long jump. This year he was allowed to long jump, triple jump, high jump and the 300 metres. Well on Wednesday my little champ did all those except the 200 meters as well as the vortex throw and aced them, all first places. 

Friday saw him place 2nd in the 200 meters and the 80 meters then participate in all the faction races namely the relays, passpall, leader ball and tunnel ball. 

And look below…he ended up being Year 4 champion boy. Now if they had done overall champion William would have won that too has he collected the post points on the day.

To say I was proud is an understatement. Me, and his Mum, cheered till we were hoarse. 

This pic above is a very excited and proud boy who was waiting for his Dad on Friday after school to FaceTime him. I’m so angry as that bastard didn’t FaceTime. His excuse was I got stuck in traffic. No phone call or mesage to his mum to let her know. But, hey he had time to get on Facebook and post some silly meme. And he calls himself a Dad. He knew William had the best day Wednesday and was beyond excited about Friday. William was hoping for Championship boy after being runner up the past 2 years. 

I’m beyond devastated for William. 

He already has abandonment issues due to this man not seeing him for months on end whist he sorts out “girlfriend /relationship issues. Now they have returned worse than before. 

Washing to hang out, but before I close a 200g loss recorded yesterday morning. Most probably a gain coming this week as I really overdid the points yesterday, put myself into the minus category…..