Have had op

 

Have had op, all apparently went well. 

Only day surgery so I was home a few hours after op.

I’m recovering ok, not in much pain. 

Weigh in…

Weigh in day again…. It’s been 2 weeks since I’ve weighed. Life hasn’t been easy, pretty darn stressful actually, but I think I’m starting to come to terms with all that’s happening atm. Anyways I’m up a kilo from last weigh….

This week I’ve been really good, ate sensibly, walked daily….then today slowly but surely I’ve eaten every Easter egg in the house…….

Omg why why ?? 

All gone now, tomorrow back on track. I’ve a week before my finger op and I want a bit more weight off…

Son has another Drs appointment tomorrow for another medically unfit to work certificate. While he is living the lifestyle he is it will stay that way. He’s lucky his has the leave accumulated.  Anyway enough about him, thinking about what he is doing to himself makes me so angry. 

Kylee took her kids camping Saturday night and came home Sunday for an Easter egg hunt. The kids had a ball….actually so did I hiding them all. 

They were meant to go to their Dads this coming weekend but he’s going to be busy so she has just booked another camping trip away next weekend before school starts. 

Nothing much happening. Starting to get a bit nervous about the op, but I’ll be glad to have the finger fixed. 

It’s late, time for dishes to de done, kitchen put back to normal and ready for morning. I have a work tomorrow, an early morning start. 

I’ll post next week sometime. 

No weigh in.

 Well, so much for trying to lose weight for my surgery for my finger operation. I was hoping to lose 5k…pfffft not happening. Why do I stress eat? No willpower at all….  Once I start eating the “junk” I can’t seem to stop. 

I had a phone pre admission appointment today. My weight was mentioned that I had recorded when I saw surgeon but I had to change that today. Ughhhhh embarrassing much.  

I’m going to dig deep for the next 2 weeks and see what I can do. Op is the 29th 

I’ve hardly seen son. He finally did see a Dr and get his foot seen too and get medical certificate for time off work. Think he starts again Wednesday. I know he did cancel a follow up appointment and he’s not filled his prescription for antibiotics 😞😳🤷🏼‍♀️

His problem not mine. But I do worry none the less.

ANOTHER big worry is my sister. Last week her heart went out of rhythm again and she ended up being bought up from her hometown to the hospital here. Thankfully it wasn’t as bad as last time but they had to make her defibrillator more sensitive and do a cardioversion on her. Her hubby rang me distraught to say she was being bought up my ambulance. He is not a well man so couldn’t travel up. Anyways all got sorted during the week and I drove her home over the weekend. Fingers crossed all stays well now..,,.don’t think I could handle too much more stress.

No weigh this morning as I left here at 5 am to go watch my grandies, their mum started work 5.15am and we didn’t want to wake them too early. As it was I had to wake them so I could get to work on time. Anyways had a quick look at scales when I finished and wasn’t good 🙇‍♀️🤦‍♀️  This afternoon I’ve written out menus for the week, shopped and hopefully I can get myself sorted out again. 

Time to start dinner prep….catch you next week. 

 

This week

 Will start off with the kids sports day. Wednesday was jump day, Friday was faction sports. A fantastic few days, but Friday was so cold and windy. Kids did great despite the horrid weather. Kids just don’t seem to feel the cold 😳 I can tell you I did, I had a skivvie, T shirt, rain jacket and fleece jacket on and still shivered. The wind was bitterly cold. The kids faction won which topped off the day nicely. Their Dad came down and took them out for a late lunch before he left which was great. 

Things are not going well with son. This week he has attended work one day, and I don’t think he’s there again today. He’s split his foot open was his excuse but he could still go fishing. He needed a medical certificate for clearance to work, couldn’t get a face to face appointment so made a phone consultation. They didn’t ring him he said, he waited 20 minutes for the call then turned his phone off 😞😕

Saturday morning he was going to work but driving there he said he was dazzled by lightning and ran off the road….the vechile is a mess. How he survived I don’t know. No transport now, or bed as vehicle had a roof top tent on that he was sleeping in. Now he has nothing. Won’t have a job soon I’m thinking if he keeps not going. His daughter who lives with us works in the same area and could take him…actually was meant to have this morning. Well that was the plan…. Be next to no wages this week, there goes the loan payment. 😕🤷🏼‍♀️

 

Weigh in day

 And after a week of high emotions which included lots of chocolate the scales showed me a gain of “only” 400grams. I expected a hell of a lot more than that. Guess exercising 6 days of the week helped there. 

Son, well he still using, still drinking, still living out of his car. Wants to throw his job in and head up north. Says he can get another job 😳 Where or how I don’t know. He has loan repayments for next 4 years as well. He has no qualifications or trade, has a criminal history so wouldn’t get police clearance. All I can see is disaster ahead and him losing everything that he has worked so hard for. Hubby really not impressed with his “stupidity” as he calls it. No, nor am I. He doesn’t want anything to do with him. I think it’s stupidly too, but I want everything to go back to what it was. But that’s not going to happen because he doesn’t want it too. I know he spiralling down hill and not a thing I can do. My heart breaks 💔

The family we were…..

Sister hasn’t seen him, I don’t know if brother knows what’s happening, the little ones are missing him. 

Damn….

 

 Weigh in day….a sts today. Don’t know why as I walked everyday, tracked everything and I believe ate well. But it what it is. 

Went to the pool this morning and water walked. I so enjoyed that. My walking buddy is away for a week and this week is going to HOT 🥵 so early pool days for me all this week. 

Son messaged me today. Could I help him out with food till payday he asked? Yeah I suppose was my response. He called around this afternoon and I said what happened to your money this week? Wellllllllllll that went down like a lead balloon, he raised his voice to me and stormed out ranting.  I don’t know how to handle the situation this time. I don’t want to see him go down the same path he did last time. He spent his weeks wages in two days again…and asked for money for fuel. We can’t do that, in the long run it’s not helping him and he’ll come to rely on us and expect us to help him, even though we’ve told him we can’t. 

Hubby doesn’t want to help him at all, he so angry and disappointed that he has gone and done this to himself. I’m so upset and stressed out and in total shock….and want to help him but know he’s only going to take advantage of it. He decided to do this to himself. He decided to keep using and move out. 

It’s all breaking my heart. 💔

Tonight I want food, I want chocolate. And I’ve given in to it. 

 

Weigh in day

 Good news for me, I did not stress eat whilst all the ‘dramas’ with son was/is going on. Weigh in this morning showed a 800g loss ☺️

And on son he came home for a bit yesterday. He sounded and acted normal….but when you on a ‘downer’ on amphetamines apparently you do. Anyways he grabbed some clothes and said he wasn’t staying. He said  he felt too ‘closed in’ here and he needed to be gone, somewhere where he didn’t feel closed in and lonely. Gave him a bit of food, told him he was welcome here anytime as long as he was drug free as we refuse to go through what we went through with him last time. He said he understood that but this time was a ‘one off’   Do I believe that…no way 🙅🏼‍♀️

His friend living in his camper has been told to move on too. She has started packing up and carting her stuff away. Omg looking in there she had settled herself right in… 😳

Also had to tell him that his manager at work wanted to see him due to him not attending work, (he was having at least a day off a week) calling in sick or some excuse or other…. Anyhow got a message this morning today he was at work so guess that’s something.

 

Yes, it’s his choice doing what he is doing. He believes because he’s ADHD that this drug will not affect him. Really son!!!   

He has forgotten how much this decision to ‘use’ has on us and his extended family. We’ve been on this road before. It’s hard. I don’t want to watch him to lose all that he worked so hard for to be lost. It’s devastating to watch someone lose themselves in drugs. They cannot see the hurt that it causes the immediate  family. 😞 

So we’ll sit back and hope that he can pull himself back. All we can do. 

It’s going to be an uphill battle for him, that’s if he wants too. 

I’m devastated

 My stomach is churning, I’m not sleeping and my brain just won’t shut down. My son has relapsed. Not only is it alcohol but he is doing drugs too. 

We told son he had to tell his friend camping in the camper she had to go, she’d been here weeks too long already, we had agreed to 2 or 3 weeks till she was on her feet. Well that went down like a lead balloon. He started on at us…and out came the truth. It wasn’t at all pleasant, damn heartbreaking 💔 

His life is falling apart before our eyes. Once again his wages have gone in 2 days. He got paid Wednesday afternoon and when he left here yesterday afternoon he had next to nothing.  He’s been taking a lot of time off work and he has to go see his manager on Monday and who knows if he will keep his job. This has always been a drug free home and it’s going to stay that way so if drugs are the life he wants to live again he won’t be doing it here. 

He worked so hard to turn his life around and we were so darn proud of what he has achieved. It can’t have been easy. And then a so called “friend” comes back into his life and somehow manipulated him and turned our son into an addict again….just like he did when they were school friends.

Now what the future for him is….who knows. 

Ours will be full of stress, that I do know. 

Wow, my scales really liked me

 I just don’t get it sometimes. I haven’t changed much on my food and tracking from last week to this week and yet last week I know I gained though I didn’t weigh, the week before a small loss this week a big loss.   Just gotta keep plodding away at it I guess. 

Trying not to let the stress of son being a “bloody idiot” affect me. He is still drinking, try’s to hide the fact but it’s visible. He has a man bag, that’s constantly on him. I know he is hiding things in it and taking them to his car when his mate messages him. He’s got real sneaky. Hides away in his room, and shuts his bedroom door which he NEVER used to, constantly receiving and sending messages and going out till all ours of the night. Having to get up and leave to go to work at 4.15am this is something he very rarely did. He has changed so much. Everyday I worry. Hubby gave him a lecture the other day but it doesn’t seem to have affected him. Just gotta stand back and watch him. We have decided we are not going to lend him money, buy him smokes or enable him in any way like that. 

All this is for my record, so anyways thats enough. 

Daughter had a lovely birthday week. Her birthday was the 6th. The kids Dad agreed to have the kids on the weekend, so I took the kids up to train station between mine and his location so K had the weekend free. It was a long weekend so even better.

She had a party with her bestie and some other friends that they had organised on the weekend before her birthday.

The day before her birthday (she was working on her birthday) I took her out for lunch at a seafood restaurant….mmmmm delicious 😋  Also got her to choose a pair of top brand sneakers for herself as she really needed a pair. She is on her feet all day at her work and good shoes are necessary. She wouldn’t spend that on herself, her kids she puts before her. 

On her birthday I got her to come out after work. I fed her kids and we had a special cake and candles to celebrate 🥳 

Time to get off here. Dinner to organise. Quick and easy tonight methinks. I got called into work today and I’m tired. Plus hubby having dental work so it’s all “soft” and easy to eat food here atm. 

I’m here

 Well “dieting” as such has gone out of the window for now. My birthday was quiet, no real celebration but it was a pleasant relaxing day. Even my son remembered and left me a little note on the kitchen bench when he left for work.  Mmmmm not sure what’s going on with him. If he is drinking he is doing it in secret now. He spends a lot of time in his room, he’s not very communicative and at times moody.  His eyes are clear, not bloodshot or halfclosed like they used to be way back when he was using drugs. His wages are still gone in 2 days. His excuse, fuel, vape and cigarettes….😳😳😳😳….things he buys every week normally 🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️ 

There is a girl involved. Actually she is camping here, she’s escaping a violent relationship. Somehow she is a friend of son’s mate too. She keeps to herself but I don’t like her, just something about her. Son is obsessed with her, she not so much in him apparently but she seems to use him. He has not been fishing for weeks, used to an every weekend occurrence. He has borrowed dollars off me, quite a bit actually in the last 2 months.  Just going to have to ride this one out methinks. 

Anyways on to this….

William all robed up and ready to graduate Children’s University. 

Dad, William and Mum. Glad Dad showed some interest. Actually he was so proud.

So so proud of this young man. Outstanding results. 

William and his teacher. She is the best.

William was the graduate speaker, his speech made us so so proud. 

I have a video, but I just can’t get it to upload. 

Anyways as I said, dieting gone. 

I haven’t weighed, not going too either. I’m still exercising, love my walking in water and early morning jabbers. 

Reset day Monday. 

Time to move. 

 

Another post.

 Along with the stress from the last few weeks with my sister I have had stress from my youngest son. If you are a long time reader you’ll know he was my “troublesome” one. After a lot of years of drug abuse, the death of his brother and 2 grandmothers in the space of 8 months sent him well and truly off the rails. He ended up going to goal for 7 months ( in a remand centre) where he managed to get off drugs. It’s been 7 years since he recovered and he managed to turn his life around, get a full time job, buy a 4 wheel drive and live drug free. Well this last month or so he has caught up with a friend from school who has come back to town. This friend is a big drinker and my son has followed suit. He is spending sooooo much money. The last 4 weeks, his pays have just disappeared and he’s been borrowing on his savings so much so that he has only $100 left out of over a $1000. I’m pretty sure he is not doing drugs again, I’m not religious but I’m praying not. He is hardly home, he’s tired and very moody and if we say anything he shrugs his shoulders and ignores us telling us he knows what he’s doing. I’m scared, really scared. I can’t live with a addict again…I just can’t. I know he’s over 40 and should know what’s he’s doing but he doesn’t. 

I’d hate to see him throw his life away again, especially as he has worked so hard to regain it. 

Now on a happier note. On Saturday night my sister in law threw a surprise party for my brother for his 75th birthday. 

What a lovely night it was. Lorraine was so happy that she managed to keep it a surprise. He was so shocked and surprised to see us all. Only about 40 people were invited which was deliberate as with his dementia too many people would have been overwhelming. It is his birthday today and on speaking to him earlier he still in a bit of a shock with the surprise. Glad he was able to remember it. I bet he doesn’t remember my birthday on Thursday though. 

Anyways, despite all, I managed to lose 500g this week. Still trying to get back down, slow and steady I guess. 

I’m back…

 I’m back….just here to update for myself. Not many people follow blogs anymore do they? Actually I have considered not blogging anymore as not many visit here but I do like to keep a record of a few things and this place is great for that. 

Anyways, weight has been up and down, just like a yo-yo, up some grams, down some grams just not getting anywhere. I was getting disheartened but I hadn’t given in. 

Then on the 17th January, I had just finished packing up my car as I intended to leave early next morning for a weekend away at my sisters, when the phone rang and my brother in law told me my sister had had a cardiac arrest and would be transported by ambulance to my local hospital. My sister has had a little trouble with her heart going out of rhythm previously but on Friday evening her heart just would not go back into rhythm and she actually died for a few minutes, twice!!  

Anyways my brother in law asked me to go into the hospital Saturday morning and sit with her till he and their younger son got there. 

 

This is what I saw when I first walked in. It scared the be-jesus out of me. They had her in an induced coma and there were tubes and machines blipping everywhere. I just sat down and held her hand and I’m sure she knew I was there as her eyes blinked and her hand squeezed mine. I just couldn’t stop my eyes from tearing up. 

Anyways I stopped with her till her hubby and son arrived later in the afternoon.

They took her out of the coma the next day and with physio she was soon up and walking around with her heart monitor. She was then transferred to a heart specialist in Perth where she had a ICD ( implantable cardioverter defibrillator) fitted. It will monitor her heart’s electrical activity and send electrical impulses to correct abnormal rhythms. Had that fitted one day and home the next.

Sis is still coming to terms with all that happened. Fortunately she can’t remember what happened, though she knows how hard the Drs at her local hospital worked on her as she has a fractured sternum and few broken ribs from the CPR.  For a few days after she came out of the coma she had a very poor memory but thankfully now that has too improved.

Below is on Saturday night. I drove down and spent the weekend with her. It was so good to see her looking so good. At night out at the speedway was good therapy for us pair of rev heads. 

This morning weigh in I lost over a kilo, the best loss I’ve had in weeks. But still it’s a long way down to where I was. A Dr visit tomorrow, I’m asking for bloods to be checked for a few things too. 

Till I visit again…..

A good week..

 

No New Year resolutions this year, every time I try I end up trying too hard and end up failing. Then I tend to throw my hands in the air and say F@rk it !! WW has a new program, one very similar to another one that I did well on. This last week I have found it so easy and I’m quite enjoying it. Scales this morning showed me a kilo off so I’m doing something right. Now to carry on carrying on WITHOUT too many over indulgences. My surgeon doing my Dupuytren’s Contracture has said he’d like to see me 5 kilos lighter at the end of April for my surgery. That’s over 3 months away so I think it’s totally doable. I’ll be trying my best and hopefully I can do it. 

Nothing exciting this last week in the world of Jen. At the moment sitting inside under the air conditioning as it’s a bit hot outside.  Counting down for my eye appointment in 2 weeks, hopefully will get date for cataract surgery. 

I’ve rung my sister today to wish her Happy Birthday 🎂🥳🎉. She is 4 years younger than me. I can remember the day  my mother came home with her. My 2 brothers were besotted and I hated that, i was so jealous. I was used to being the only girl and being doted on. Up to she reached the age of 12/13 years there was a lot of squabbles and sibling rivalry then it just changed. I matured as did she and we became close and still are. 

Going down to hers in 2 weeks to spend a couple of nights with her and just have some sister time. 

Right, I’m out of here. Down a worker tonight so muggins me is doing the shift. 

Bring on 2025

 Well the New Year is nearly here and it’s time for me to pull up my big girl panties and lose some weight. It’s now 25 months since I bit the bullet and rejoined WW. 

This pic in the dress was one of the ones from when I started, the other is about where I am now. All up with WW this time I’ve lost 17 kilos’s but since June of this holiday (when we went on holidays) I have done nothing but yo-yo to the extent that as of this mornings weigh in I have regained 7 kilos. Christmas and chocolates and overeating all the yummies didn’t help. 

My biggest problem was I STOPPED TRACKING. I had a journal BUT I was not tracking the points of my food. I need to do that, I have always needed too. I enjoyed the break from the tracking but today I started again. Already I’ve realised how I managed to regain. I’ve consumed all my points already and I still have dinner to add 😏🤨🤪 That will be a 0 point meal 😘

So today is day 1. (Wonder how many day 1’s I’ve had over the years of ww’ing?). I’ve walked 45 minutes. That I do most days and it’s just as well I kept that up otherwise I think the gain could have been a lot more. 

Big year coming up. Eye operations. Hand operations. Hopefully a holiday too. Won’t be a big one but do have something we want to do if we can fit it in between the operations. Will get a date for the cataract in middle January then we can possibly plan it. 

Had the best Christmas Day. We had open house. First up Kylee arrived with the kids…that’s the best part as they believe in Santa. Then niece and nephew and their families arrived for a visit. Then Simon and Tammy arrived, followed by Kylee’s girlfriend Jess and her kids. Then to top off the day our late son’s 3 kids arrived for a visit. It was wonderful. Lots of happy moments and memories. 

Bring on the new year, I am hoping it’s a good one. 🤞🏻🤞🏻

Monday again.

 Monday again…..but no weigh in. You know what that means ehhh 😘.      Yep, I have been indulging. Not counting points or calories, just been eating. Yep, the scales will be up…..BUT at this point in time I just don’t care. I will deal with the consequences after Christmas. 

Kids are back from their Dads and we are counting down to Christmas Day, the kids especially Summer are getting excited.  

I’m ready, gifts are all wrapped, most are under the tree. Most of the food has been bought. Just fruit and some veg, whipping cream and a few bits and pieces to buy and I’m done. I’m working in the morning so I will get them then. I’ve got the kids after work while Kylee does a shift and planning to take them to the movies to see Moana 2. 

Anyways till next time…..

Weigh in day

Right….first up my grandies and why you mostly only see the little ones. 

I have a blended family. Both hubby and I had been married before, and been together now nearly 44 years. He had a son Paul and a daughter Rosemary, and I had Simon ( they were 10, 7 and 6 when we got together) and then we had Shawn and Kylee. They all grew up together and were very close.

Anyhow Paul’s kids, after he passed away we don’t see a lot of them at all. Busy with their mother’s side of the family, work and friends. They have grown so much since Paul died. Caitlin is 22, Ashlee 20 and Matthew 16. His eldest Luke is 28 and lives in Perth. 

Simons kids since the very nasty breakdown of his marriage we don’t see much of at all either.  The eldest 2 girls sided with their mother after their breakup and they don’t have anything to do with their Dad, but the 2 boys do. They stay in touch with us too and visit occasionally. Boys are 18 and 19. Girls 21 and 22. 

Shawn lives with us as does his eldest daughter Skye. I see the others except the youngest who still lives with his foster mother. Jaydene, Shawn’s 2nd born has just graduated high school and is the mother of my only great grandchild Jahzara. Shayden (3rd child) is still at school and lives with his mum. 

And Kylee as you know has the 2 little ones. 

Yeah…..the Waltons we are not!! 

Families can be complicated. 

Saw my surgeon re my hands and the Dupuyten’s Contracture. He’s going to my left hand which is the worst on April 29th next year, the earliest I can be done. It’s a day surgery. 

Weigh in day. 400g loss.

I’m happy with that after the horror week I had a fortnight ago. This last week I’ve stuck to plan and I feel better for it. 

Below is William after they came runner up in the soccer grand final. It was a hard fought battle but unfortunately there can only be 1 winning team. 

Sunday today…

 Tomorrow SHOULD be my weigh in day but I’ve had a horror week and I think…no I know that if I weigh in the number would do my head in. So…tomorrow is a no weigh.

Also tomorrow morning I’m off to see specialist about my Dupuytren Contracture in my hands. The last few weeks they have got worse. Be very interesting to see what he is going to say and do. I’ll keep you informed. 

School finishes for the year on Thursday. The kids had their last assembly and awards presentation on Friday. Speaking to Williams teacher after the awards and she said he was so close to getting the academic award for his year but his writing let him down,  he knows that too….  He knows he has done well over the year, he has had his work acknowledged with merit certificates plus all his Children’s University acknowledgements. 

For the past 8 or 9 weeks William has been playing evening soccer. After a try out he was selected from a bunch of Under 11 girls and boys from various teams in the league he plays for.  His team has done really well considering all but 2 of them had never played together before. Last week I went and watched and I’ll be going this week too as his team is in the Grand Final. It’s an awesome achievement by the boys and girls. Well done to the coaches too who have all donated their time to the kids who just want to play soccer all year round.

The local news station heard about it and took some footage. William is in the footage, yellow and blue shirt, #17 

Let’s hope this works, 😊😊

Dragging my feet ….

 Dragging my feet this week with my weigh in result. 

Another 400g gain…why I don’t know as looking through my diary I was on track. But it is what it is…. 😘

BUT it did my head in and this Monday, Tuesday and today I am floundering. Heck with all the years I have been “dieting” you’d think I would be able to deal with the scale results. All it does is cause me overindulge for half the week and pull my head in the rest of the week and eat a calorie controlled diet…and hopefully no damage caused on the scale come the next weigh in 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

One thing I have done consistently is write in my diary. It’s day 38 today…and I have done a jabberwalk. Didn’t want to as my feet were sooooooo sore but I did. Worked yesterday morning, even did overtime….then worked again last night setting up the Christmas trees for the centre. 15,200 steps…ughhhh no wonder my tootsies ached. 

Ohhhh my grandies had their Santa pics done on Saturday. Wonder how much longer Master nearly 11year old will want to keep this tradition up?? 

Anyways will leave you with their cuteness 😘

Back again…

 Gee sometimes the weeks go by so quick, before I know it I’m standing on those demon scales of mine for my weekly weigh in. Had a heck of a week, what with sabotaging myself, Skye’s 21st, and a babysitting gig among that as well.  Anyways, weigh in wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be, just a 400g gain….I expected a lot more. 

Today I’ve been babysitting so a few treats have passed those lips of mine….but I’ve not been too bad. One thing that has saved me is that I do not eat after 7pm. I started doing it in my personal challenge, I set it as a goal….and that’s one goal I have mostly achieved. Only times I haven’t has been Skye’s 21st dinner and when I overnighted with my sister.

I am counting down to my specialist appointments. First one thankfully is in a couple of weeks and that’s for my Dupuytrens Contracture in my fingers. I can’t tell you how many times I have dropped things because my fingers aren’t gripping. Or I can’t grip to open jars or bottles. I’ve also had to taken my wedding rings off that finger is starting to contract too 😕😕

I can tell you I’m not liking it at all. But not long now as we will see what’s to be done. 

Eyes, meaning cataracts, will be next after the fingers. Hopefully all my ducks will line up in a row 🪿🦆🪿🦆🪿🦆 and appointments will go smoothly and I can both hands and eyes done and recover before we hit the road come winter. 

One little treat….

 One little treat won’t hurt I said to myself…..but it did 😏😏

That one little treat led to another, then another …… and then onto the next day 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

It didn’t help that I forgot my thyroid medication for those 2 days…..but I’m not blaming that. ONLY MYSELF to blame. 

Now it’s Wednesday, and yes I’m back on track but I feel like shit and so disappointed in myself. It’s Skye’s 21st birthday tomorrow and she had asked if we could all go out for Chinese on her birthday so I’d booked us in to a restaurant. I WAS going to treat myself then….but ohhh Lordy…😮😮 Why do I do this to myself??

Anyways what’s done is done and moving on now. I’ll keep on writing in my diary, I’ll keep on tracking and enjoy tomorrow night and move on and see what the rest of the week brings. 

Weigh in was a 200g loss. It could have been more off but I had a couple of higher calorie meals during the week. BUT I was happy with the loss. 

I’ll keep on plodding away. My kids have said to me many times not to worry about my weight so much, just go and enjoy life. But my knee and my feet won’t let me, my weight effects them so the more weight I get off the less pressure I put on them ehhh….