Didn't go to ....

.....the weight watchers meeting tonight like I said I would. Just couldn't !! I am so far over my goal and no-one to blame but myself.....and BLOODY menopause!! For the last month I have tried to find my motivation and get my act together but just can't string more than 2 or 3 good days together. The rest of the time I just lose ther plot....I have just been a eating machine, eat because I crave it, not want it, eating just because I can even thou I know I am going to have to work my butt off to get it back off!! I have just been so weak-willed.

I have a Dr's appointment tomorrow night...hopefully he will have a solution/answers to help me with these darn hot flushes....lack of sleep is not helping me thats for sure!

I fly to Melbourne on Wednesday evening.....suitcase full of clothes that fit...just!!! And my camera...sure there will be a pic or two to take.

I have told myself when I come back that I AM going to get my act together. On July 5th hubby and I are off on holidays for 6 weeks. 6 weeks of sitting in a 4x4 as we tour the NT and WA coastline.....and NO way am I going to be sitting in that there vechile feeling darn uncomfy. I want to be back where I should be, feeling like I used to be.....

So it will be back to ww again, going to the weekly meetings and weigh ins till I go on our trip......

I will finish up with a pic of Kaleb....hasn't he grown.Shawn had his access visit as per usual on Saturday. He was very moody leading up to the visit....but those 4 kids bring out the best in him. Unfortunately they didn't get to have Shayden for his 1st birthday so we had a little party for him with cakes and drinks. Despite all his faults one thing they cannot say about him is that he doesn't care for those kids.....he loves them so!