Sunday, February 03, 2013

I'm back...and trying

to find my mojo.




This is Cape Howe...an awesome view...and only accessible by 4x4, the views were so worth the visit.

Driving into Cape Arid, my most favourite part of my trip

Me and the extra 10 kilo's

Our holiday was fantastic, had the bestest time...only one phone call from the "troublesome" son to mar it. I diverted the call and his sister helped him out.
I weighed the morning I left and on the first morning back I weighed again, and I was so happy to record the same weight. 
Did try to keep up the effort but the "troublesome one" just had to ring, ring, and ring again and start his wanting. Trouble is when you say no he is liable to go and do something stupid and end up in more trouble. He has 4 kids he is a doting daddy to so I usually give in to him and provide him with his "wants" (which are usually smokes) so I can see my grandkids, I so look forward to the times he has his access visits here ....
I tried to say no this time, I really did....and the stress of wandering what he was going to do without the smokes sent the stress levels high...and I have eaten REAL bad all weekend. He is liable to do anything, he has psychotic tendencies and his moods swings are terrible, he can become moody and violent.
As soon as he rang and begged for me to meet him and buy him smokes I gave in and I stopped eating. I did meet him, damned if I do, damned if I don't. Strange how you can love someone so much yet hate them too...or hate that they continue abusing their bodies/mind by taking the drugs.

Anyways its back to work for me in the morning.....hopefully my week of work will bring a week of routine...a routine of me getting on track and staying there.



8 comments:

  1. Looks around quietly and slips Jen a vial that contains instant mojo and motions for Jen to quickly swallow the foul tasting substance that will soon ensure a long lasting effect of mojoiness

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  2. Love and hate are just different sides of the same coin. You do the best you can for as long as you can.
    You are a wonderful Mum and grandmother.
    Well done on maintaining while on holidays and with a few problems thrown in.
    That mojo will be back in no time. I think it might be out partying with mine...

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  3. I agree with Julie - well done on maintaining on holiday.

    Hope the problems sort out or at least ease with your son.



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  4. WOW - what lovely photos !!!! And WELL DONE on maintaining while on holiday - with friends as well !!! I didn't do very well with my weight when we went to NZ so HUGE kudos to you !
    Children - so hard - have to agree with Julie - love and hate - two sides to the same coin. We are battling with K at the moment - has dropped out of uni, wants to join the police but now says she thinks that the entrance exam is too hard .... what to do ????? Sometimes we can only stand on the sidelines and let them know we love them.
    Have the best weekend !
    Me

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  5. WOW - what lovely photos !!!! And WELL DONE on maintaining while on holiday - with friends as well !!! I didn't do very well with my weight when we went to NZ so HUGE kudos to you !
    Children - so hard - have to agree with Julie - love and hate - two sides to the same coin. We are battling with K at the moment - has dropped out of uni, wants to join the police but now says she thinks that the entrance exam is too hard .... what to do ????? Sometimes we can only stand on the sidelines and let them know we love them.
    Have the best weekend !
    Me

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  6. WOW - what lovely photos !!!! And WELL DONE on maintaining while on holiday - with friends as well !!! I didn't do very well with my weight when we went to NZ so HUGE kudos to you !
    Children - so hard - have to agree with Julie - love and hate - two sides to the same coin. We are battling with K at the moment - has dropped out of uni, wants to join the police but now says she thinks that the entrance exam is too hard .... what to do ????? Sometimes we can only stand on the sidelines and let them know we love them.
    Have the best weekend !
    Me

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  7. WOW - what lovely photos !!!! And WELL DONE on maintaining while on holiday - with friends as well !!! I didn't do very well with my weight when we went to NZ so HUGE kudos to you !
    Children - so hard - have to agree with Julie - love and hate - two sides to the same coin. We are battling with K at the moment - has dropped out of uni, wants to join the police but now says she thinks that the entrance exam is too hard .... what to do ????? Sometimes we can only stand on the sidelines and let them know we love them.
    Have the best weekend !
    Me

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  8. Sorry Jen - got a bit impatient there and now I can't delete the duplicates !!!!!

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