Thyroid problems...

I know I have been missing for a bit..
I have been off track for awhile, had a raging appetite. Had headaches, night sweats agin (thought I was done with them!!, and was feeling so tired and fuzzy....
And I had a bout of diverticulitis as well...


A hormonal imbalance is a malfunction of one or more hormones in the body. Each hormone has a different effect on the body, and all hormonal imbalances are different. 
A hormonal imbalance may be asymptomatic, or inconsequential. However, it can also be the cause of many diseases, mild or severe, such as thyroid disorders, diabetes, acne, obesity, or infertility. Treatment includes restoring the normal order of these hormones.

So off to the Doctor I did go...
Blood tests I did have...my levels were haywire.
Meds were altered and I am slowly starting to feel ok again.
I rang ww and explained what was going on and requested my membership put on hold for a month. My weight had skyrocketed. 

Our friends in Geraldton rang us and told us they had bought a big block of land out bush and asked us up there for a campout weekend. I requested the time off work and work gave me extra time off, so hubby and I hit the road and decided to go the long way around to our friends place and checkout the countryside and the awesome display of wildflowers. It was magic...and just what I needed.

Been back at home a week now and am slowly starting to feel like me again. 
My diet has been a lot better. Night sweats have stopped, bowel problems have settled down, my head is not so fuzzy.

3 years

They say as time goes by it does get easier...phewwwww I don't know about that!!
Today is 3 years since you left us Paul, but it hurts as much today as the day you left us. 
You would be so proud of Tanya and the strength she has shown....but you would beam with pride at your kids. Caity has been the tower of strength to Tanya, Ashlee is a mini you, she walks just like you did and Matty has your grin and infectious laugh.   Luke is struggling so much still, he regrets so much that he wasn't around more.
So you do live on in your kids....and our memories but hell I wish you were here. 

CANCER SUX !!!

My roster at work of late has been horrible. Have two girls off sick/holidays so we all been doing extra shifts...money comes in handy though. Also throw in babysitting overnight grandkids 2 nights a week..
The roster change meant weight watchers meetings were few and far in-between. The one I could get too was closed down because of lack of attendance and my roster changes made the other 2 not viable.
So I put meetings on hold for a month. 
Don't know if that was good or bad as it threw all my good intentions out the window...and ate.
Been trying to get back on track since but its been hard. I went to Drs the other day to get thyroid tablet prescription done and told her about my troubles.I now have a big bruise on my arm from blood tests...Doc thinks my thyroid levels may have done a nose dive!!
Anyways...I aint no quitter so I'll keep on trying...I want this weight off!!! Its only me that can do it. 

I have Shawn's kids every 2nd weekend as respite for their foster mother. They are no problem...too addicted to their social media to get into much!!  They love their Dad, they love the change in him as we all do. 

Update

Well this was me....up and down, typical yoyo...good one meal, bad the next...regroup and have a good day then fall in a heap the following day....what a sad state of affairs!! I was miserable and so darn angry at myself.

Anyways....a few days off, some rest with no kids and I sat myself down and planned my days. Even managed a couple of walks.

Yesterday I had a girlfriend down for the day. We went out morning tea where we shared a slice, had a small roast pork lunch and afternoon tea we shared a scone. I had a light meal for my tea....and this morning at weigh in I was rewarded with a 900g loss for the fortnight. Put a smile on the dial that did....so hopefully this will continue.

Alls good with the family....
Kylee, Garry, William have all got the flu and they hoping Summer doesn't get it!! 
Simon came down on the weekend with his boys, it was his youngest son's birthday so we had a small get together and cooked up a bbq. Things are not too crash hot with Simon, ongoing war with Tracey, his girls refuse to have anything to do with him. Tracey is poison and if she can cause trouble she will. Very opinionated and loves the sound of her own voice and doesn't care about what hurt she causes. Because Simon is my son the girls have had nothing to do with us since the breakup...sad but thats the way it is. Hopefully as they grow up (they are 15 and 16) they will get away from their mother and her nastiness and realise how important family is. The boys say they get quite embarrassed at how she acts and talks sometimes. 

Tanya is coping. It's nearly 3 years since we have lost Paul and she has coped thanks to the kids. They miss him of course as we all do but life has gone on and we go day by day with our memories. He would be so proud of them !! 
I myself had a meltdown the other day at work. I saw a guy who's profile was Paul's to a T, he was dressed like Paul used too...I thought for a few seconds it was him, even opened my mouth to call out to him....then remembered...

Anyways a work day tomorrow, so must away and get the washing in ( a fine day here but with a cool breeze) and air it out in front of the fire, especially my work uniform. 

Still struggling...

I seem to be fighting a loosing battle with myself and my weight...
I rejoined weight watchers for the 12 months knowing that paying out that money on a monthly contract that I would have to attend!! 
But I am struggling...a lot of emotional eating and I can't seem seem to get out of the pattern. Why do I do this to myself. I so want to get myself healthy again and feeling good about myself....BUT I seem to fall into that bikkie barrel time and time again....

Struggling

 Need to set the reset button.......

Ohhh why....did I...??
Today was just one of those days...
Tomorrow morning I press the reset button yet again....surely I will get my motivation back again.
I thought rejoining ww again I would be able to do it...paying out my hard earned money once a month for a year would help...but so far not!! 
I just have to do it...how do I get my mindset again. I am reading my old blogs, going back to when I did it last time, hoping something just "clicks" 

Weigh in day....

 Weigh in day today.....a 200g loss.
Hey, I'll take that even if its over 10 days as I mucked up big time on the weekend.

I am just wondering if I will ever learn to NOT eat my emotions...its damn hard not too sometimes. This time I managed to pull myself together, I just reminded myself that this journey is NEVER easy and hey I have a ww contract for 12 months so I can't give in.

Life does get in the way sometimes....gee I have learnt that over the years, especially over the last 3 years. Grief still rears its ugly head every now and then and I succumb to it. My brother I lost in 1979, 40 years next year we have lived without him....I still cry for him.

This week my promise to myself is to track and plan. I have a few challenges to face. This weekend is one of them. Since Shawn's 2 girls have gone into care this last time they have been giving their foster carer a real hard time. We have agreed to be respite carers every 2nd weekend and this weekend we have them all weekend.  I know they are going to try it on with me....they have a rude awakening coming....they are going to abide by some rules and they are not going to like it. Their carer loves the girls, she really does, but of course all they want to do is go home to their Mum. Their mum is not a fit mum, but of course the kids don't think that.....and they think the poor they act up and make life difficult for everyone the quicker they will be sent home to her. 

So this weekend.....its track, plan and keep myself focused. 

Weather hopefully this weekend will be fine. Of late all it has done is rain, rain and rain some more.  It has been so cold and our fire has been going constantly. 

Bring on Spring. 

A down mood day

Woke up this morning in a real down mood.....sooooo what do I do...I eat.
And then I eat more...and to see if my mood improves I eat more still....

Now its after midnight and what am I doing. I am writing this as I can't stop myself from farting....my stomach hurts, I feel sick....all coz I have eaten CRAP!!

Why do I do this to myself?? I should know by now that food is not going to make me feel better...espesially the crap food like I have eaten today. 

I really want to lose this excess weight, I really want to enjoy the weight loss journey, weight watchers is so easy now, its easy to follow so why does one "feeling down" day make me lose the plot? 

Guess tomorrow (or should I say today as it is after midnight) is another day....

Girls day out...

 A lovely day out with our little Miss Summer Bug

 Me and my besties, and me showing my holiday belly. Think this will be my before pic. I look like a little round beach ball.

 Our precious little girl.

Robyn loves her too....

Girls day out tomorrow.

Have my family on weight watchers duty....no junk is to be stored in my kitchen fridge. There are fridges out on the patio...if they want to have treats they are stored out there. Shawn is the sweet tooth in the family, Ted not so much. I still keep biscuits, muesli bars and other treats in the pantry mainly for the grandies, and I keep a few options for myself in there as well...not denying myself at all, this time slow and steady, I'm in for the long haul. 
Last night was weigh in....800 grams gone.
No exercise other than what I do at work. Must bring more into my day asap as I know I need it for weight loss...and for me, I been missing my walks. Sunday morning I have one planned with my jabber buddy. 

Girls day out tomorrow....looking forward to that. Kylee and I are driving to Mandurah to meet up with my besties. One is coming down from Perth..the other lives near Mandurah. Not sure who they looking forward to seeing more, me or little Miss Summer... lol 

First weigh in

Last night was my first weigh in.....a gain of 400grams BUT I did expect it.  (My scales before I left for work that morning showed a loss) Weigh in was between 5 and 5.30pm and I worked from 10am to 5 pm so had to rush from work as soon as I finished to make it in time. After a day of being on my feet all day I knew my weight would be up. It always is. This meeting is the only one that fits in with my work roster at the moment. I have 2 other meetings, 1 x evening and 1 x day one to choose from as well so I will go to which ever one suits my roster. Anyways the first week is done and dusted. 

I had a busy weekend.

Babysat these two on Friday night.....My first time with Summer overnight....and guess what I was up and out of bed before they woke up!!  Miss Summer was a good little girl and slept through for me.....

Saturday Simon came down with his two boys....they stayed overnight....so the house was full. 
Kylee and Garry stayed to catch up with them and have dinner so we ended up having a bbq dinner...a great catch up. Its great to get the kids together like that. 

Anyways time to go start dinner....its been a busy day at work so it will be a quick and easy one....

Back to Weight Watchers...

 Tonight was my first night back at Weight Watchers.....5pm is the only time I can fit in with my work hours....but so be it!! 
I have gained just over 8 kilo's since my last weigh in.....when I go on holidays I holiday!!
I drink which I don't very often do at home.....and the true reason for the gain methinks was the drinking...AND all the carbs I ate. Leading up to the holiday I cut out 95% of all carbs, allowed myself very very little. Not always a good thing to do especially when you reintroduce them in mega portions like I did...BUT so be it, I did expect it.
Now I am back into it. I have joined up for 12 months....hopefully with all the ups and downs in any ww journey I will get my act together and achieve my goal...its been a long time since I was there.  I was happy on my holiday...my weight held me back only a few times and I knew sooner rather than later I needed to do something. 

I have a lot of aches and pains....80% I am sure are related to my weight...time is up, I am going to do this....I have to give it a damn good go this time around. 

I have this little cutie above to run round after soon.....and the big 4 year old below to keep up with...I struggle to do that some days. I want to fit on the slides with him, climb onto the trampoline and jump....and push him on his bike, go for rides with him...

I'm back.....

I'm back....jet-lagged, but back....
What can I say...the trip was bloody fantastic!!! The long flights not so much, hubby really struggled with those, economy seats are not all that comfy but who can afford to travel any other class....certainly not us!! 
Alaska was out of this world...loved it and I would go back tomorrow if I could. So much more to see and do there.  The cruise was great, wasn't a fan of the ship. The crew on board were great, as was the food, the people....but the layout of the ship was terrible, we weren't fans of it at all. 

Vancouver was great too, we really enjoyed our stay there. Saw heaps and even managed to catch up with a long time MSN messenger friend who travelled way out of his way to catch up with us, that was awesome of him. 

I thought the cold would really bother me but it didn't, my scarves and jackets saved me from freezing.

England was beautiful...it was picture perfect in Surrey where we were. 

It was like looking at a postcard/picture then stepping into it. 

We didn't get to see as much as I would have liked due to our host being ill and us not wanting to leave him on his own. Maybe one day we will go back and see a bit more.

Hubby says he never wants to fly that far again....but I will. 

 I wish I had a camera on me when William saw us come out through customs on our arrival at home....we heard him before we saw him. It was a big "Jenna" "Poppy"  I looked up and he was standing there shaking with excitement from head to toe with a huge grin on his face. I just knelt down and held out my arms and he flew into them. From then on he never stopped talking....bless his little heart.
And our Miss Summer.....just look at her, how she has grown.
Thankfully she remembered us....we got lots of lovely little grins from her even though she is sick with the flu. 

What a holiday, one I will NEVER EVER forget.
But geeeeeee its nice to be home. 

Holiday

This is the last post for 5 weeks....tomorrow evening we leave for our holiday of a lifetime.
Perth to New York via Dubai and Milan, we overnight only in New York.  New York to Dayton in Ohio where we stay 5 days. Dayton to Los Angeles where we stay 2 days. Los Angeles to Anchorage in Alaska where we do a 3 day land tour around Denali National Park before boarding a cruise ship and sailing for 7 nights down the past glaciers and through the inside passage to Vancouver where we will spend 6 days. Then we fly to London for 10 days before heading home. 

So its goodbye from me till our return.  

Alls well...

Kylee had some professional pics done of our little "Snugglebug" taken. What a beautiful job she did...how cute is this little girl.  She is her mummy all over at that age...certainly takes me back.

An absolutely gorgeous day today, the weather was perfect. Shawn had his girls, I had William so after lunch we took off down the beach, a 10 minute drive away to enjoy it while we can....rain and wind forecasted for tomorrow.

William had an absolute ball...he just ran and ran the whole 3 hours we were there. He should sleep well tonight thats for sure. He talked too...heck this kid can talk, its constant yak yak yak...drives ya batty after awhile. 

Now isn't time flying...little Miss is now just a few days off 6 weeks. She smiles, she gurgles and talks to you now, just an absolute delight. 

William is as besotted as ever...hope that bond stays.

Weigh in was Saturday, weight was down again...now reached a number I haven't been at in a long long time. Hope I can keep this up, would be nice to see a bit more gone before we board the plane for our trip of a lifetime in 2 weeks time. 

Its been crazy...

Its been crazy here of late. 
Ted's 70th birthday is this weekend so been doing a lot of shopping and prep for that.
Been babysitting Master William and Miss Summer a little too. Kylee has had a few appointments, house has been sprayed for nasties and the list goes on. Also had Shawn's girls some too...school holidays and their foster mum works so they have had extra Daddy time.  William loves spending time with them too....I don't mind either as they wear him out and he has a arvo nap!!
Diet....well thats been up and down. Had 2 weeks of gains, anniversaries of loved ones passed really got to me.   But back to it and I recorded a good loss last week, hoping for another this weigh in. 

Will leave you with a few pics of the little ones...

4 weeks already, time has flown. She is a good baby, sleeps well most nights...Kylee usually gets a good 4 hours, sometimes 5. 

William is still besotted with his little "Sum Sum" as he calls her. Talks to her telling her how gorgeous she is,  always touching her and loves to help Mummy with her. 

This was taken today. Absolutely gorgeous day. Little Miss was not interested in a sleep after her bottle so I stripped her off and let her kick her little legs and play in the warmth for 3o minutes. She loved it. 

Update

Little Miss Summer is now heading towards 3 weeks old and coming along fine. She is feeding well and gaining weight as she should. Has a small hernia in her belly button that we will hope will go away...clinic nurse is keeping an eye on that.
William is absolutely besotted with his cute little "SumSum" as he calls her.