No weigh...

 This is my story this week…a few wrong choices, which turned into a few more…then a few more…till I woke up with a rip roaring headache 2 days later and realised what I was doing to myself.
I usually don't have a lot of sugar, none in my tea or coffees and I drink diet or sugar free drinks when I want a change from water. My treat is a mini snack chocolate some evenings so I do get to have a bit of a sugar fix and don't feel deprived. I got caught out at an outing on Saturday evening,  my food choices were limited, so I indulged, and those indulgences just didn't stop till Monday evening when I realised what I was doing to myself. Grrrrrrrr talk about sabotage, again I am my own worst enemy.
Tuesday morning, weigh in day…..BUT I used my NO WEIGH CARD and put the brakes on and got myself back on track. Hopefully by next week the scales will be kind to me. And hopefully I have learnt a lesson.

I know I am not a quitter, I don't give up, but I have to learn not to give in to myself, thats the lesson I am struggling to learn.

At Last.....

At last hubby has started receiving his age pension....not a full one as I work, but gee that little extra sure does help, I am on top of all our bills now.  I had to submit my earnings today to Centrelink so they could work out what hubby was entitled to this fortnight and I was disappointed to see that the extra shift I did yesterday resulted in hubby losing more $$'s.
From now on, unless I really have to, I won't be doing any extra shifts, its just not worth it.

Hubby has really brightened the yard up since he has been home. The lawns and gardens look really great, they have all been weeded and mulched...the man has a real green thumb. 

Weigh in day today...for the 1st time in a couple of weeks I had a loss. I have been so good too, but with all the yoyo'ing I have been doing the past few months I guess my body had to wait and make sure I wasn't going to start the yoyo'ing again.  I don't think so....I want to lose weight. Think its going to be a long hot summer this year and I want to be able to enjoy it.  

Kylee has 10 working days to go then she has finished work. She was going to work till she was 34 weeks, but her Dr advised her to stop at 32 weeks.  She wanted to drive up and spend a few weeks with her fiancee, but Dr has said no and so have I, not having her driving 12 hours on her own!! We have come to a compromise and are driving her to our good friends a 6 hour drive away and will stay overnight and have a catch up with them and Garry will drive down meet us there and pick up Kylee....and do it again at the end of November to pick her up. She will be here for her weekly Dr visits and the last month countdown to the lil man's birth.  

Alls well...

Not much is happening in the world of Jen...

Still waiting for Centerlink to organise all hubby's paperwork for his pension, so been living on my wages and our savings. mmmmm its not been easy, what with licenses and insurances all being due these past few months, but we are getting by. Surely it can't be too much longer...

Kylee is going along ok. Pregnancy suits her, I think she looks great. The lil man is growing as he should. Kylee has been plauged by coughs, colds and gastro...so hasn't had the best of times these past few months. She only has a few more weeks of work to go, then she is going up north to spend some time with her partner before she comes back for the birth. For awhile there I was one upset Mumma as they were thinking of staying up in Carnavon for the birth as Garry wasn't sure if he could get away from his bakery. Of course he doesn't want to miss the birth. But he is due for some tests on his hands and has appointments with a specialist in Perth which fortunately are all around bubba's due date. So with that, sick leave and paternity leave he will be down this way for the birth. ahhhh I won't miss out on my newborn bubba cuddles.
After the baby is born, Kylee's house will be rented out and they will all living up in Carnavon. Hubby and I will help organise the house ready for that, then it will be put in the hand of an agent.

 We went for a drive on Sunday out to one of the local water supply dams. It was built in 2002 and this year is the first year it has been full enough to overflow. 

It made for a change of scenery...

I am still going to weight watchers...though the past 2 weeks the scales haven't been moving at all...but I am still attending and working on getting rid of these kilo's. 

Family get together

On Saturday afternoon we hosted a family get together. My mother, my brother, sister, 3 of 4 of my kids & most of my grandies (one son had gastro) my nieces, nephew and their kids all turned up. It was a fantastic get together....lots of fun was had by all. 
I hope to do the same again in early December...a early christmas get together, hopefully those that didn't make it to this one can.

Back on track....

View of the show from a ride above the show ground.

I am back on track. I rejoined ww the day after I arrived home from my long weekend in Melbourne. Sad to say the scales were higher by just a little to what they were when I rejoined last time....sheeez all that hard work I did too.  But hey that was then, this is now and I am doing it for the "I don't know how many'th time!!"  I had my 2nd weigh in today and I am happy to report I had my second loss....yep them scales are going down again.

Yesterday hubby and I went up to the Royal Show in Perth, we haven't been there since Shawn was 11 months old...he turns 31 in 2 weeks.   We had a lovely day, just wandering around and browsing. No time limits, in no hurry ... just enjoying our day.
We met Kylee & Garry at the train station in Perth and we were introduced to Garry's twins Jasmine and Alexander, what little cuties they are. Kylee is absolutely besotted with them and the twins seem to think she is pretty special too. 

Kylee drove back from Perth today after spending the evening with Garry before he headed back to Carnavon. She was meant to go to work, but after a day in the sun Kylee woke up during the night with a fever and sunstroke. 28 weeks pregnant and sunstroke = a sick mumma to be.  She did have suncream on and was wearing a hat, but I think she put the hat on too late in the day.

Hubby is enjoying his retirement. Still waiting for Centrelink to get back to him re: his pension. Living on 5 days a fortnight wages is hard work, thankfully we realised payments could take awhile so had some savings put aside for all the bills.

This Saturday we have a big family gathering happening.....been a long time since we have all been together in the one place at the same time. My brother is bringing his fiancee and our Mum up. Sister and her hubby and hopefully her sons, all my kids and their kids, my neices and nephew and their kids all all coming....so lots of catching up to be had.  My camera will be happy...lots of happy snaps happening methinks.

See you next week.....

Home again....

First person on my list to see was the delightful Mia. Mia and I have been ww buddies since the beginning of my journey. We have become very good friends. 

Melbourne at night....on our way back to the hotel where we stayed which was on Victoria St right in Melbourne City...not far from the Victoria Markets....and Smith Street where a few DFO stores were. I managed to get a good pair of walking/work shoes marked down from $200 to $70 !!

The same street in daylight...love this city...but never could I live there permanently. Love Western Australia and my countryside living.

And finally DD with a few of her friends. In the collage the girl in the top left decided after that meet up that Kylee hadn't missed her enough and wasn't happy enough to see her and has pressed the delete button on their friendship.  Go figure....but as Kylee said...her loss.

Was a lovely few days away, time went very quick, but we achieved all that we wanted to do...except see the one person Kylee wanted to see...her ex husbands Gran. Unfortunately she had flown to South Australia and though she was due home on the Friday she ended extending her stay there due to a death in her extended family. Very tired when we arrived home last night...and still weary tonight after a busy day at work.

I rejoined ww this morning and attended the meeting....all the weight I had lost, regained plus some since I stopped attending in July.  But that was then....today is another day and another journey.

Melbourne...

 Tomorrow afternoon after work, it will be home, shower and off up to Perth where Kylee and I will have dinner with her man....then we will climb on a plane and head to Melbourne. 
When Kylee left there after her marriage breakdown and the sale of their home, she just up and left and didn't get to see goodbye to a lot of her friends. So these few days will be spent catching up and seeing those people and showing off the "bump" of her little man.

 I had foils, colour and cut yesterday all ready for the trip....it was getting long, all the greys were showing and was in a bad need of a cut. I can tell you it was was very much needed....and made me feel a lot better.

Chris, Dietcoke Rocks.....this is my camera, or one very similar to mine. Mine is a Sony dsl 380 and I have had it a few years now. I love it, its very simple to use and heaps of settings to choose from. It suits me.
It is a 55-200 mm lens, 18-55mm lens which was part of the package...and I also bought a macro lens which the closeup pics of the flowers are taken with.

I return from Melbourne late Monday afternoon....and on the Tuesday it is back to work for me and also also back to ww meetings for me. 
I have been floundering....since I stopped ww when my husband retired. I had to figure out how our finances were going to go, but regardless of whether or not he gets his pension or not...I am going back to meetings...I will go without something else if need me. 
Since I stopped after getting back into the 70's I have now regained it all plus more.
But...I will get back there again....

Right its back to housework....things to be done before tomorrow. 

cya on my return.

Fathers Day

My man, the father of my children.

Shera along with her mummy came for a visit too. Mummy was feeling a little down, she is finding it hard coping with being alone, pregnant with her man being so far away. Hope his business sells soon..or he can arrange more time here with her. 

Paul, Tanya and his kids came out too....they have been so busy with school and after school activities I haven't seen much of them. They are growing up all too quickly.

After Paul, Tanya and the kids went home I grabbed my camera and Kylee, Shera  and I went walking around the garden and block. Spring has sprung....garden is starting to come to life and so is the bush and the native orchids. 

Its a.....

BOY !!!

I thought it was a GIRL but for the first time I guessed wrong, I got right all the other grandee's.
The way Kylee is carrying....and with my gut feeling I was thinking girl....but its going to be a very much loved little boy.
She is over half way now, all going well.....

Getting there.....

Well another week is over....and after giving myself licence to eat after I stopped my weight watchers I have managed to slowly drag myself back to eating more sensibly.  I do very well when I am working, I pack lunch and snacks and I stick to what I pack.
Exercise of late has been hit and miss....because hubby is not leaving home at 6am I am not getting out of bed early anymore. My jabberwalk buddy is on holidays so I need to motivate myself more when I am not working. On a busy day at work I do 20,000 steps or more....so on those days I don't bother walking.
No weigh in this week, and I am not weighing myself till the 11th of September....which will be just before Kylee and I fly to Melbourne for a long weekend away where she is going to catch up with some friends and her ex's grandma who she is very close too.
So my goal is to do just do my best..and lets see what happens in the next month.

Excitement plus on Friday, daughter is having an ultrasound to find out what she is having. Her fiancee is coming down and they are booked in at 3pm. I will be hanging on to my phone awaiting the news. My gut feeling is girl. 

Not much else is happening....hubby is enjoying his retirement, the sleep ins. Just have to finish all the pesky paperwork and then he can go claim his old age pension. 

Mojo went missing....

......but I think I have found it again.

Hubby has retired, and I have had to change a few things finance wise....and one of the things to go was my weight watchers unlimited. I know its all in the head, but once I stopped that I began to eat "wrong" again...as though now I don't do weight watchers I can eat whenever, whatever I like....duhhh
The scales have crept up again. All that hard work the past few weeks where I really felt happy about my progress...and had started to see numbers I was liking I have to do all over again. Why do I do this to myself??? 
But one thing I have learnt about myself, is although I do do these stoopid  things...I never give up completely...I never QUIT !!  
Today is a new day...so was yesterday....and tomorrow will be too. 

Not the best week...

It really hasn't been the best of weeks, quite emotional at times actually.   It all started last Wednesday when I run into a ex workmate, the husband of a young girl Vietnamese girl I worked with quite a lot when I was on the farm. The last time I saw her was a month ago, she had a touch of the flu, no fever, just a cough and her being 34 weeks pregnant I told her to look after herself, and to look after her little bubba, gave her a cuddle and told her I would see her next week. I text her the following week and heard nothing, and also dropped by her house the following week but no-one was home. Anyways when I saw her hubby the other day I asked how all was, had Doa had the baby...and with tears in his eyes he said he had just come back from Perth after the baby's funeral.   Well as you can imagine I was totally shocked, words failed me, so I gave Dow a hug and said I would visit them tomorrow.
The next day I went with some flowers to see Doa and all she could tell me is that her cough would not disappear and the more she coughed, the quieter her baby become, till he become just about still. She was put in hospital and monitored for a night and day. His heart beat was fine, and small movements only were made, but they slowly became less so they did a caesar. Baby was born with no cry, alive but very unresponsive...and lived only 5 days. They are still waiting for cause of his death, they have no answers yet as to why he died.
They are of course heart broken.

I was devastated for them both, and after the visit to Doa and Dow I drove straight up to see Kylee  at her work and gave her the biggest hug. I pray daily that all continues to go well with her pregnancy and she delivers a healthy wee bubba.

Friday saw me, with Kylee and two little granddaughters travel down to Manjimup to see Mum.  

My sister and Jaydene and Skye

Skye, my mum and Jaydene

Mum was delighted to see us....it was a spur of the moment visit, as I needed to see Mum and give her a hug too. She of course was stoked...and delighted in spoiling Kylee and rubbing her little baby tum and cuddling her great-grandchildren.

Then to send my world into a spin again....a very dear friends father has just been diagnosed with lung cancer. Deb, is my jabberwalk buddy and one of my closest friends. Her parents are just delightful, especially her dad.

So....this week hopefully will be better. I have had a few days of emotional eating, and because I  am working different hours in a different shopping centre I was unable to attend my official ww weigh in....so gave my myself a no weigh too...thought it might be best !!

This time next week my hubby will be officially retired...our life is going to change.

It was a long week....

Me and Jaydene



Last week was super busy, work for a full 3 days, meetings, paper work to do and sort out for financial advisor, and then Shawn had his access visit all day on the Friday here, and I kept the kids Friday night.  All was fine on the day,  Shawn had a fantastic day with his kids, the older of the 2 boys was a little contrary but okay...but boy on Saturday after a restless night did I and his Pop know about it!! He turned into a fair little bugga!!  He answered back, he swore, he threw tantrums, disobedient....neither of us or his siblings could placate him...so home they all went. His mother just said, ohh he has been like that for awhile, told him he was a naughty boy and sent him to his room.  This boy is 5 years old and knew he was getting away with his naughtiness....so I called him back and told him till his attitude changes he wasn't having anymore sleepovers at my house. I left there exhausted. The other 3 kids were great and no trouble at all.  I am picking up the girls again on Thursday evening and bringing them home again as I am going down to Mum's on Friday so the girls will be able to see their great nanny. Can't remember the last time mum saw them.

Today was weigh in....400 grams gone  :-)

 

Phewwwwww

Out on a nature walk 

Kaleb & Shayden enjoying trampoline time

A visit to see Shera...and Aunty Kylee

My neices little girl Nicola doing her little brothers Adam's hair

Play time at the park.


It has been a full on week...what with work, then picking up my  two youngest grandsons for a two nights sleepovers. Boy are they loud, I had forgotten how loud they can be. Only 11 months between them and they compete with each other all the time.
Their mother is not as bad as she used to be, but boy she is still not clean and the boys had to be taught a few manners. I was always saying to them, "go wash your hands" or "what do you say" as I gave them something. Its not nice either when they compare the houses they visit...I live in the big clean house, Daddy lives in the small house, and they live in a dirty house. So not fair at times.
I have them again next week along with their sisters...and their Daddy is coming out for his access visit with them as well.

It was goodbye to the boys on Friday...and hullo to my nieces children Saturday morning for an overnighter. They have both stayed before but due to coughs and colds they were a little unsettled during the night. I am not used to getting up during the night to tend to kids so come Sunday morning I was tired.  Ended up getting overtired and Sunday at midnight after tossing and turning for an hour or so I was sitting up by the fire with book in hand trying to un-wind.

Anyways...today being Tuesday it was weigh in....bye bye to 300g. Not a lot but after a uppsy downsy week I will accept any loss.

Busy week coming up.....

Dear Mum had a lovely day yesterday so she said when I rang her to see if she had received her birthday bouquet we sent her......as the florist I used rang me asking where mum lived as the florist where mum lives couldn't find her address. Hullooooooo please !!! The florist is local, is owned by locals and the block of flats mum live in have been there for a damn long time !!!  Anyways all good, she received them.

Today its work. I am soooo tired though, had one of those nights where I just couldn't sleep,  and hubby snoring didn't help much either.  Have a few things I am trying to sort out....and until I figure out what to do I guess those thoughts are going to go round and round in my head.

I am picking up my troublesome ones youngest two for a sleep over on Wednesday evening after work seeing as they have finished school (and kindy) for the year....as I did promise them when I had their sisters stay over last time that I would.  Shayden and Kaleb are so looking forward to it....and so am I. Will take them back Thursday evening...or maybe Friday morning as Friday I have a Drs appointment then we have a meeting with our financial planner to sort out Ted's superannuation.  Last meeting we had with him Ted was going to salary sacrifice for 2 years to help build up the $'s but we now have to scrap that and see where we stand. Scary much...yep, cos I know we don't have a real lot.

Then I get a break for a evening and my niece is dropping off her two for a sleepover on Saturday whilst her and her hubby attend a birthday party. Love these kids to bits....just like having extra grandkids :-)

Right now weigh in this morning......600g gone.

Happy Birthday Mum

My cheeky Mum is 84 years old today...Happy Birthday Mum.
Unfortunately I am not going to be able to share it with her, even though I have the day off work I have other things to do...like go to the Drs and get my sore itchy ear looked at.  A big bunch of flowers will be delivered to her from us today though....and I will catch up with her during the next few weeks.
She has completely settled into her new little flat...and most of the things that required fixing have been done...just a couple more to be done, but they have been looked at.
My sisters son, my nephew, lives just a few hundred meters away in  another block of flats and he pops in regularly and cooks her a meal, or chops the wood for her and puts it on the verandah....you know those little chores that aren't much, but are so helpful.  Thanks Rik.

Tuesday is here again...

Warriors x 4

Above are my little warriors....thats the game they were playing outside some time over the weekend. They are actually some of my darling grandkids. Been a while since they have stayed over....their lives are so busy,  what with both parents working, after school activities, and sports. All 4 are great little athletes and do gymnastics and little athletics as well as football and netball...mum and dad are forever ferrying them to and fro....
Over the weekend they also cooked some meals, all 4 enjoy cooking and it was delightful to see them all work together. All I had to do was work the oven for them. And yes...they even washed up after themselves.
Hopefully they will be down and staying again soon.

Weigh in day today....a sts 

A lot been happening

It has been a very busy week. 
Kylee had been up in Carnarvon with her man....who I am happy to say is now her fiancee...he proposed the evening before she left to come home. Her smile says it all.

On Friday I drove down to Manjimup and helped mum finish  unpacking....her little flat looks great with everything in its new home.  Just waiting for the real estate agent to fix a few things. Her fire smokes, her shower needs re-tiling and safety handles to be attached to safety requirements...and to mum the most important her tv antenna needs to fixed so she can watch her  tv. 
I arrived home late and was just starting dinner when Kylee rang...and was in pain, could I please take her to the hospital. The pains were on her right and nearly crippling her. After 7 hours at the hospital, the pain had gone and we were sent home with a ultrasound request form for the next day if the pain came back...or Monday to investigate as to why, the Dr was thinking cysts as Kylee has a history of them in the ovaries. 
Saturday both Kylee and I were dead on our feet...both of us had early morning work starts. (K did go to work as the pain hadn't returned).
Anyways yesterday we did go for the ultrasound.....what a wonderful sight it was to see the baby heartbeat and the lil bubba. Unfortunately it was investigative ultrasound and not a baby one so we didn't get to see bub in 3D. 
K's ovaries are fine, kidneys are fine.....so lets hope there is no more scares like that and whatever caused it has disappeared.

Weigh in day....900g gone...