Menopause is REALLY sux!!!! I am so over these hot flushes, they are driving me nuts!! Needless to say I lost the plot the other night in one of my nightly wanders trying to cool down and make myself tired again so I could sleep and once again raided the darn pantry!! I know I shouldn't have any goodies hidden in there but I do have a hubby with a sweet tooth and who has no weight problems and lots of grandies who know where to look for their treats....and any other time I am usually fine, having them in there doesn't bother me. Anyways I am now trying to get myself back on the darn wagon AGAIN. It seems to be a never ending circle of late but I guess I can say at least I am persistent. Matter of having to be coz I do have an awful fear of putting on all the weight on again and looking and feeling darn horrible! Anyways there will be NO weigh in tomorrow night, don't want to see the scales at all. Just want to see if I can sorta stabilise myself and get me on an even keel again...if this menopause shit will give me a break!
This weekend has been pretty full on with looking after grandies....first of all had Shawn out on Saturday arvo for his access visit. Since he and Hannah have been seeing one and another again he seems to have calmed down and actually even seems to have eased off on the drugs/alchohol and has stayed out of trouble. The avo against Shawn is being heard again this Tuesday, the magristrate agreed with Hannah but to keep DCP happy suggested she see her lawyer and get it changed to a variable order. Don't know how it is going to work, but anything is better than the way it is, espesially with Hannah due to have bubs #4 soon.
Then Saturday arvo Tanya bought Caitlin, Ashlee and mathew for an overnight stay so she and Paul could have a night out....ohhhhh it was great. Its been the first time they have stayed over as they live just a few k's down the road ... we all had a fantastic time.