Really…..

 

Now tell me please do these pics look as though he doesn’t love his girl???

The reason I ask this as on Saturday afternoon daughter dropped kids off with their Dad and went to Micheals. He then tells her “he cares deeply” for her but he has never loved her !!  Kylee said never, he said no never, I thought the love would grow. My heart broken girl bravely said to him what am I doing here then and walked out. She rang me sobbing her heart out out. OMG, my first thought was she’d been in an accident or Bozo had been with the kids as she was sobbing so hard, but this shocked me just as much.  For gods sake every time they were together he was touching her, kissing her, hugging her……then this. After 4 bloody years together he tells her he has never loved her. To string her along like that, what a fucking asshole….I’m so angry. And it’s not just her, what about the kids. William and Summer loved him. They called him their bonus Daddy. Why, why, why???? She hasn’t heard from him since which is good, but he could have checked to see if she got home ok.  She is not eating, looks like shit and so teary. Wish I could make her better.

Now it’s weigh in day. 400g loss this week. 

And just like that……

 …..another week has flown by. 

I’ve worked extra this week, a workmate couldn’t do her shifts and no one else could cover, so I covered them for her. 

I went shopping and found some boots I liked, they were my reward for losing 10k👢 

My mum’s birthday was on Saturday, July 1st, so decided to head down to tend her grave with my sister. We bought flowers for her. I ALWAYS bought flowers for her, she loved  them.  7 years she has been gone now, but heck some days it feels like yesterday. I miss her so much.  Bought some extra and visited Dad and my brother as well along with my maternal grandparents. And of course my sister and I caught up with all the family news as we wandered around the cemetery. We both love cemeteries and the history in them. 

Wet and miserable again here again today with a thunderstorm predicted this afternoon. A good day to sit in my chair in front of the fire and read.

Weigh in day, 300g down 😁

Another week done

 

Absolutely stoked to see the number on the scales this morning. 800 grams off saw me slip over the 10kg loss since I joined ww at the end of November last year. It’s been a slow journey BUT I have stayed committed to the plan and not given in. I’ve really surprised myself  😲 😮  Usually a hiccup along the way sees me giving in so heyyy while I’m in the zone I’ll keep on plodding away.  Matter of having too. I started off weighing in 10k higher than where I finished off with ww previously. I’m lucky too in that I have 3 close friends all cheering me on as they do their own diets. All 4 of us are following different plans. 

And I’ve had a few hiccups along the way, especially when my cousins died. But here I am, still plodding. 

Nothing much exciting in the world of Jen this week. Weather is still cold. My wood fire in the house has been going most days and nights. Nothing better than being able to curl up in my chair by the fire and read. Love my books 📚 

Weigh in day

 

First up…

I had to have a routine colonoscopy on Wednesday… ughhhh I hate them but with my family history it’s a necessary evil. Plus as I have diverticulitis it’s double necessary.

The prep is sux and I always feel so ill but this time around I was sooooooo sick 🤢 I think this time around was the sickest I had ever been. The fasting I can deal with (though not allowed to have a cup of coffee the morning of procedure was sux)

Anyways it’s all over for another 5 years.

The weather since being home has taken some getting used to. It’s so cold. After a month of pleasant warm weather the cold and the rain is taking some getting used too. And worse is on its way, they forecasting thunderstorms tomorrow. And of course tomorrow is the day I go back to work. I won’t be getting too much done outside if that’s the case. 

Right…it was back to normal weigh in day and I don’t know if it was the colonoscopy or being so sick with it but a kilo loss was recorded. Yep, I’ll take that 😊🤩😘

Now onto next week. 

Home Again

 

Home again.

Other than the 2 nights home after the desert trek we have been away for just on a month.

It’s been great.

Shark Bay was the best. I just chilled. 

I just in my chair and fished or read and just relaxed.

It was always early to bed, most nights we were in bed by 8pm and didn’t get up till sunrise. 

Hopped on the scales this morning and I lost the weight I gained on the trek PLUS another 100g 😉😙😌

I have a colonoscopy next week so hopefully I can get the numbers down a bit more before then, I’m under the weight I gave the hospital. Must have been all the good healthy fish we were catching and eating. 🥰😘

The trek was awesome…

 Okay….we are back from the trek.

It was rough in places, very rough. Others just great. BUT it was fantastic, we loved it. We “shook, rattled and rolled” for the 10 days and nearly 1300 kilometres. Around every corner was something different. 

The rest of the group we traveled with was great…except one, but couldn’t let her over shadow the great company of the others. 

A few repairs had to be done along the way, but our trusty 4x4 had nary a problem. 

Would I do it again…..without a doubt YES !!

We all unpacked and reloaded with our fishing gear. We are going to head to the North and chill out by the sea and do some fishing and exploring. 

Catch ya later.

Ohh p.s. I gained 600g while away. 

Tomorrow…..

 

Tomorrow morning we are off. Meeting our travel buddies up the road at 6am. Excited much. 

The vehicle is loaded. We are ready to drive out the gate. 

Weigh in Monday morning, lost 400g.

Aim of this holiday is to enjoy it. I know I’m going to indulge BUT everything will be in moderation. There is not much onboard that I “shouldn’t” be indulging in. 

10 Days to go…..

 

This is the track we will be travelling on….it’s out in the Desert. If you’re interested just google The Anne Beadell Highway. A very popular track here in Australia. 10 days and we will be on the road heading to Laverton and ready to start the trek. 

In the mail today I received the last of the permits needed to travel the trek. A lot of the country is indigenous land so permission is required. I am starting to get excited. Most of the vehicle is ready. Most of the food has been bought, some meals have been pre-prepared but I still have a bit more to get, though not much. 

First aide kit has been stocked, spare batteries and cords have been bought and packed. I’m going to check this week and see if I can get the dsl camera in to be serviced and cleaned, doesn’t matter if I can’t but it does need it. 

What else. I’ve dragged the clothes bags out and started packing clothes. Packed a couple of books too. Hoping to get a new release from one of my favourite authors too. 

Got another visit with my dentist tomorrow. I’ve got top dentures and finally after 7 years of wearing ones that I have never been happy with I’m getting a new ones made. This lovely lady dentist is a perfectionist and I couldn’t be happier with her and what she has been doing for me.  The care that she has shown is superior to where I went last time. I hope to go away with new teeth and be confident with my smile and my speech. Yes, this set is so ill made that I have trouble getting my tongue and teeth around some words. It was quite embarrassing sometimes. 

This week I have had a lot of running around to do finalising bits and pieces. Haircuts was one of them. The same will be on this week too as I have appointments to get too…..plus William has his Interschool sports day happening as well. 

Right….to finish off I had a weight loss of 600g. I’ve worked for it too, I’ve tracked and planned everything. I had a few days with a nasty flu. The sore throat and the coughing was the pits but thankfully it didn’t linger all week. Still a bit lethargic though.  Learning that to get results I have to work for them. Listen to my body, fuel my body and hopefully I’ll see the results on the scale. And with new teeth maybe more confidence in myself (no covering my mouth with my hand) and liking the look of myself I will love me more. I’ll let you know after my holiday. 

It’s that day again…

 Yep, that’s it…weigh in day. 

A whopping 1.9 off…..ecstatic about that. But I worked hard for it. 

It’s been bloody hard, but I have to put myself first and push away the sadness. 

Karma will get whoever is responsible for Rays horrific death and be made to pay for it. Won’t bring him back but we’ll push till we know the truth.  Rays wife has seen a lawyer so the progress has started. 

Not much else is happening. Been busy preparing for our trek. Permits have all been applied for, received two back so we getting there. Vehicle has been serviced and all tools and apparatus has been loaded up. 

I’ve done some food prep, bought food and so not much will need to be done before we go. Getting closer

now….can’t wait. 

Self Sabotage

 

Yep, done it again. Did a real good job of it too….a 1.8 gain 😳

Why?

My late cousin (Ray) was killed back in January whilst out helping to contain a fire. He was caught in the path of the fire whilst grading a fire break and was burnt to death. 

It should not have ever happened. He should not have been out there on his own. If the person who took him out there had stayed with him as he should have he would have been saved. He was very nearly safe, just a few more meters and would have been if he had had the help. My heart is just broken. Not just for me but his wife should still have her husband, their kids their Dad and Grandad. 

When I was told this, I went looking for chocolate, it helped. But it didn’t take the ache away, took 2 days to realise that food wasn’t going to help.

I’m back, but so broken. 

Easter

 

Today is the 44th anniversary of my younger brothers death. He was 27 years old and the father of 2 children and twins on the way. He was nearly 5 years older than me, but we were close, I think because we were the middle 2 of 4 kids. 44 years is a long time, but heck I still miss him.

Little Missy here throughly enjoyed Easter and all the chocolate. She was in chocolate heaven and at the end of the day was on a real high sugar high. More so as we limit the amount of sugar she is allowed. Being overweight for her age the Doctors have advised us to keep her sugars as low as we can…don’t want her being diabetic.

Master William here loves his chocolates too….and was devouring his too. 

He is the opposite to his sister, he’s underweight and we struggle to put weight on him….

See these things….freckle chocolates??

I bought a bag of them for the kids, before bed they are allowed to chose 1 little chocolate to eat as I read them their bedtime story. 

Well…..I wished I never bought them as I devoured them. I’ve been so good with chocolates….but these ughhhh 🫤😳

I think it’s because they weren’t wrapped. Any how’s I had to throw what I hadn’t eaten (and that wasn’t many) into the bin!!!

Then for the rest of the week I had to plan and track and stick 100% to my ww points.

It worked. I lost 600g 

HAPPY EASTER 🐣 

Sports Day

 Wednesday ad Friday were sports days at my grandson Williams school. William loves his sports days. This year him being in Year 4 he was able to participate more in the jumps and long distance running. Last year he was only allowed to do the 200 meters and long jump. This year he was allowed to long jump, triple jump, high jump and the 300 metres. Well on Wednesday my little champ did all those except the 200 meters as well as the vortex throw and aced them, all first places. 

Friday saw him place 2nd in the 200 meters and the 80 meters then participate in all the faction races namely the relays, passpall, leader ball and tunnel ball. 

And look below…he ended up being Year 4 champion boy. Now if they had done overall champion William would have won that too has he collected the post points on the day.

To say I was proud is an understatement. Me, and his Mum, cheered till we were hoarse. 

This pic above is a very excited and proud boy who was waiting for his Dad on Friday after school to FaceTime him. I’m so angry as that bastard didn’t FaceTime. His excuse was I got stuck in traffic. No phone call or mesage to his mum to let her know. But, hey he had time to get on Facebook and post some silly meme. And he calls himself a Dad. He knew William had the best day Wednesday and was beyond excited about Friday. William was hoping for Championship boy after being runner up the past 2 years. 

I’m beyond devastated for William. 

He already has abandonment issues due to this man not seeing him for months on end whist he sorts out “girlfriend /relationship issues. Now they have returned worse than before. 

Washing to hang out, but before I close a 200g loss recorded yesterday morning. Most probably a gain coming this week as I really overdid the points yesterday, put myself into the minus category…..

Birthday Girl

Little Summer had been sooooo looking forward to this day, her 5th birthday party. All her pre-schools friends were invited and 14 of the 18 invited came along with their parents. Her Dad and his partner came, Micheal (her mum’s partner) and his 2 daughters came, and of course I was there. Hubby bowed out, too noisy for him!!!

Little Miss was so excited but a little overwhelmed with all the attention being focused on her. 

It was held at the Beach Volleyball centre which is also home to lots of Inflatables, about 10 bouncies to play on. Ohhh my the kids had the best time. Boys and girls running and playing in every direction.

 And she nearly cried when it came to the cake, look how overwhelmed she was. She so loved it. Didn’t mummy do an awesome job, she made it and decorated it herself.

Today she wore her crown and Birthday Girl badge to school and took cupcakes for everyone including her teachers. 

This is my brother and I taken at Rays funeral. 

I’m still coming to terms with the news he gave me on his 73rd birthday back in February. Rod has been diagnosed with dementia. I believe it is early onset but I’m not sure. So not only was reeling from Ron, then Ray then now this with Rod. 

And then the other day one of our close radio friends passed away. Tex and hubby have been talking many years on the radio. We stayed with him at his house on our travels over on the East Coast and caught up with him at a Hamfest in Ohio when we travelled to America and Canada. 

Getting old is sux 🫤

I’ll say goodnight with a report of a 800g loss on the demon scales this morning. 

Emotions

 Emotions play a huge part of my weight gains and of course my losses. Since I’ve started back on ww I have noticed a pattern. One week I have a good loss and the following week I have a gain or just a small loss. This week I had a 300g gain. I’ve done nothing much different to usual…except Friday after 7 long weeks we were able to say a final goodbye to my cousin Ray. It was a tough day and my eating was a little off. Anyways, I still managed to stay within my points. This week I’m trying to cut out snacks, sweet and salty popcorn has been my friend ALL this week with me eating 2 snack bags a day, sometimes 3 😳😳

My favourite pick of Ray. It was taken at my Mum’s 80th birthday. These 2 had the same wicked sense of humour. I think the pic above shows that. 

I know I’m going the miss the old bugga…we had a great bond. I’m going to miss the unexpected visits, the phone calls and him. Life is just not fair sometimes. He got sent to do his job and never came back. I just hope that his family get compensated for the loss his life, it should have NEVER happened. 

Anyways on to another week. Hope I get a loss next week…only 2 months before we pack up and head off on our trek. 

Back Pain

 Another week gone. 

Been a slow week exercise wise, last Monday was the last day I walked. Have had a lot of back spasms, very painful at times.

I was in a car accident when I was a teenager and received quite a severe back injury. Every now and then it flares up and causes me grief….this is the worst it has been in a long time.

I’ve also got a jaw ache, don’t know if they are related at all, but if pain persists I will be getting it checked out. 

Went up and saw our friends the other day, we are joining them for the trek. Now to work out the permits to travel through indigenous land and start the planning. It’s quite exciting, been a long time since we’ve done this type of trek. 

Kylee has managed to get kids into before school care so they have been sorted. She is also going to take personal leave from her bakers job while we away. William is having a lot of anxiety issues with her working nights, so she needs to be around whilst we gone. He has already asked me if we coming back… poor lil lad. 

Right, weigh in day. A loss of 800g.

Another week gone

 

Another week has just flown by…I can’t believe how quickly it has gone. They do say the older you get the quicker the time goes by and gee I’m finding that to be true.

Had friends out over the weekend. We asked them out as our fig trees are overloaded and we know how much they enjoy fresh fruit. We’ve already made jam and dried so many of them. While they were here they said they were off exploring in May and asked us to join them on the trek. It’s a trek we’ve wanted to do so we’ve been trying to figure out if we can go. Our daughter relies on us so much with the grandies so she is now trying to sort out alternatives for them. Hate doing it to her, and feel a little guilty doing so but it is our time now and if we don’t do it this time we may not have the chance again. Other friends asked us in 2018 to do this trek but it was 3 weeks after we returned from our America/Canada/London trip and I couldn’t get the time off work. 

Anyways, I’m hoping that we can manage to do it. A lot of planning to be done and travel permits to be sought out and got.

And hopefully I can lose a bit more weight and be more comfortable travelling. 

No weight lost on last weigh in, actually I had a 300g gain. Don’t know why, I planned and tracked but still it happened. Moving on and hopefully this week it will turn itself around. 

Time to move, a work day for me and a few things have to be done before I head out the door.