Struggling....

I went to the Dr's on Thursday evening after work and got results from my bloodtests. The results show my thyroid medication needs to be lowered again, I am taking too much oroxine and taking too much of course doesn't help with weight loss just as taking not enough!! Dr said we'll get it right soon, it is a matter of trial and error .... and then I'll be be able to carry on losing weight. At the moment I am battling,,,,I feel as though I have gained at least a couple of kilo's,,,,I can feel it in my clothes. Dr said I will struggle with the 'hungry's" and feeling blahhh until the oroxine levels out.....and of course menopause doesn't help either. Nor does the stress of having my son and little family live with us. Son is still ok at moment but it's like walking on "eggshells" around him at times. He is using still and at times moody and unpredictable. It just breaks my heart to see him go this way again after all the effort he went through at detox and rehab. The last 18 months I truly did have my son back,,,,now I am losing him again. Anyways am really trying to keep it together, some days are better than others. Monday evening I will weigh in.....if you hear a SCREEEEEEEECHHHH off in the distance, don't worry it will only be me!! Till then I will keep on walking everyday, trampoling when I can and try to make wise choices.....but mostly try not too stress.

No weigh in.....

No weigh in tonight as I had a meeting after work and couldn't make it in time.....
Was going to use my own scales and see what they said, but because I have had them hidden I don't know how they compare to ww's ones. So with the "bad" week I have had this week decided not to. And believe me it has been a "bad" week....I have had the hungries something terrible and feeling really down, ....and just couldn't summon up the energy to fight it. I had a blood test on Saturday morning and have a Dr appointment on Thursday evening so maybe they can find a reason as I just don't feel right. Maybe it's the change of medication I had a few weeks ago, maybe it's stress over my son, I don't know but I want it gone....I so over it, I hate feeling like this.....

Weighed in ...

Weighed in this evening....and after a brilliant week starting at the beginning again on Week 1 .... I GAINED 100 grams !! Was really peeved off when the scales told me a gain...but I should be used to it now....coz how much hope have I got when I have those damn dwarfs giving me a helping hand !!!
Anyways another week starts tomorrow so I'll be at it again, excersise, water and more water, tracker and food scales...and trusty week 1 book again....
Bugger it....I WILL do it eventually...won't I? Of course I will !!

All's calm on the home front at moment, son and family move in tomorrow so we'll see how all goes. Have had a few grey hairs added this last week with the stress of it all, but I HAVEN'T not once gone for food for comfort.....
Thank you to everyone for your support and friendship during this difficult time with my son...much appreciated espesially you Carol and Berrie...

Someone give me strength....

Forgive me if I ramble on a moment....but have to write it down before I go bonkers....as the cat in the pic is how I feel at present, gritted teeth and ready to pull hair out, it's going grey anyways!! AND SCREAM !!!!! My youngest son, my problem child, has become a big problem again....and it's really got to me badly today. Won't go into too many details coz if I start I won't stop...but 18 months ago he went into rehab for a cannabis problem which with his ADHD was very addictive. He came out clean but this week he had a big conflict at his work and got the sack/ walked out and now he has started using again. I don't know if I have the strength to cope again, without me going off the rails. He was here a little while ago, and was stressed out to the max, and had been using, but he did eventually calm down again and we were able to talk to him. Don't know how much he took in but I am hoping something sunk in....I really don't know if I will cope if he heads down that road again. Hubby won't have him here if he uses and has told son that as he won't put me throu all what we went throu again. Son has a partner 7 months pregnant and a 3 year old girl who he loves so I am hoping and praying he can see the damage before he go's that road again. Pleazzzzzzzzzzzzzzze let him be okay again, find another job and house and move on with a stable life.

Nephews 21st

After the big game yesterday we drove down to Manjimup to my sister's for her eldest son Rikki's 21st. It was a great night where I caught up with most of my family and my best friend from my high school days.

EAGLES ARE WINNERS

What a game....phewwwwwwwww, talk about nerve wracking but we WON!!!! 1 point win.....but ohhhhhhhhhh they did so deserve it.

WE ARE THE EAGLES
THE WEST COAST EAGLES
WE ARE HERE TO SHOW YOU WHY
WE'RE THE BIG BIRDS
KINGS OF THE BIG GAME
WE'RE THE EAGLES
WE'RE FLYING HIGH

Feeling....

This is how I feel at the moment .....so "WHATEVER" !! I am not sleeping properly, work is sooooooo busy, and I am tired, moody and downright bitchy!! And so hungry...I am eating too much these last few days, I don't think I have gone to much overboard...I hope!! I am drinking gallons of water daily, and excercising everyday. Emailing Berrie tonight and other than menopause and hormone troubles we think it could be lack of protein thats causing the hungery's. So think it's back to basics for me...weighing food, checking portion sizes etc and stop being so casual about all this and start getting serious again. RIGHT !!! I can do it!!!
Am hoping this new medication for hormones/menopause and thyroid I am on will start kicking in soon and I can get serious about losing this last little bit of weight....I do feel better than what I did other than the very restless/sleepless nights. Can't really tell as work is so full on and tiring anyways. Got 3 days off being a long weekend so hopefully I can have a bit of r&r. Some fishing hopefully if the weather stays fine...ohhhhhh and my nephews 21st Saturday night in Manjimup, and catching up with my dear mum, brother and sister and friends who will all be there.
But I am not going to put a time frame on it.....I will just keep at it and one day soon I will get there....I know I will.
No weigh in this Monday evening, so have time to get myself into gear and do something to get this body of mine back to norm and me feeling real good again!!

All good

Just a post to wish me HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY!!!
Yeaaaa this week I celebrated my 1st year with weight watchers and after my 100g loss last night I have lost a total of 24.9 kilo's!! Did my measurements again this morning even thou they aren't due to next week and in the year I have lost 126cm....wowwwww!!!

We WON AGAIN .....

WOOOOHOOOOOOO

What a game.....

WE WON!! WEST COAST EAGLES beat Adelaide...yeaaaaaaa

I am so excited still.....I could hardly watch the game, my tummy had a herd of elephants in it instead of butterfly's, but I earned heaps of bonus points bouncing around in the last quarter willing the Eagles on to a win!! Gee, wish I could go see the EAGLES kick Sydneys butt at the Grand Final!! Ohhh I hope so anyways, its gotta be our turn this year!!!

Had a loss

After a topsy turvy week, I weighed in on Monday evening and lost 600g.......

Having another "topsy turvy" week this week...menopause and thyroid meds have been changed....and having some sleepless/restless nights and having cravings but I will be doing the best I can....

WE WON!!

WE ARE THE EAGLES

THE WEST COAST EAGLES

WE ARE FLYING HIGH






My footy team played tonight, phewwwwwwwww we won!! I wonder how many bonus points I earned myself jumping up and down barracking!!?? Being the semi finals, and having lost to Sydney last week, it was nerve racking to watch.

It's been a tough week for me this week...I had a phone call from my daughter who lives in Victoria, she needed me as she had few problems and was suffering from a huge bout of homesickness!! I felt hopeless and feeling completely drained and tired and missing my girl heaps I headed for the "sugar" and began emotional eating!! Work has been so "full on " and physically hard so all the tiredness I had been feeling I put down to that. It could have been worse, I think I would have gone on a real binge but my dear friend Berrie realised how bad I was feeling and picked me up and helped me try sort out my feelings and moods and tell me all I was feeling was normal... THANKS darl. And Carol too, your advice has been taken on board too, and I agree with you ....MENOPAUSE SUX!!!!
Anyways went to my Dr this morning and my hormone levels are nearly rock bottom, I am allergic to some ingredient in my hrt patches, and my thyroid levels are too high .... so hopefully a change in my meds will get me up and back to feeling alive again.


ANYWAYS ADELAIDE >>>LOOK OUT >>>HERE COME THE EAGLES

Hanging in there!!!

It's been one of those weeks....!!

Had a great week, did everything right, or so I thought, go to weigh in Monday evening.....AND GAIN 200 grams...!!!

What can I say...but I am hanging in there, and I WILL get there eventually...I am too stubborn to give in, I want to get to goal.

Saturday walk

This morning was lovely and sunny so I donned my joggers, grabbed my water bottle and walkman, picked up my digital camera and went walking. Along the way took these pics, plus many more, so my good friends Berrie and Vegemite could enjoy the walk with me. The walk takes over an hour and I love it, what with the scenic water views, wildlife and fauna it goes all so quickly.

Small loss

I weighed in on Monday evening....I lost 100grams. Was disappointed in that as I expected better, and got very frustrated with myself. But over the "dummy spit" now and upped the excersise, changed the food around a bit...and moving onwards and downwards...with a bit of luck this week....

#3 son Shawn with his daughter Skye

Happy Fathers day son...

#2 son Simon with his daughter Zoe when she was little....

Happy Fathers day son....

#1 son Paul with Caitlin, his eldest daughter.

Happy Father's day....

Daddy's Girl

Being Fathers Day today, we had the 3 boys come for a bbq lunch and all the grandies of course...but missing was "Daddy's girl" who lives in Melbourne.

Fathers Day

Dad....4/6/1930 to 11/10/2001


I miss you Dad...

You won the battle but lost the war.

Love ya..........

Hard Yakka

This is me on the potato harvester which I have been working on for the last week or so....real hard yakka!!! But it has helped me this week to lose the 700g I put on after celebrating little Thomas's birth.

"Jenna" cuddles

Today little Thomas turns a week old....
I took his big sisters (Jessica & Zoe) out today for a Subway lunch then to the hairdressers for a "pretty up". We had a great "girlie" afternoon. Of course when I took them home I had to have a cuddle of my 2 litle boys..18 month old Sheymus and Thomas.

Can BRAG at last!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO Blogger pic uploads is working.
Now I can show off my granson....the latest addition to my family.
Please meet THOMAS SHANE 7lb 40z 51cm

As expected

Too much celebrating Thomas's birth and ttom combined gave me a gain of 700g. Less than I expected coz I did celebrate lots....hehehe

So this week, its WALK>TRACK>DRINK WATER!!! And with all that work and luck I will lose it...don't want it or need it!!

Blogger still not posting pics....darn, I wanted to show of my newest addition.

Rae "tagged" me

Yep, Rae the super model "tagged' me and I have to post 5 wierd things/habits about me that people don't know about me! mmmmmmmm no where do I start??

Wierdness/Habit #1 I HATE, LOATHE snakes and even when one slithers across the road in front of the car I lift my feet up off the pedals and scream and have to stop myself from looking where I am going!! I can't look at them on tv or in books....I shudder to think of them!

Weirdness/Habit #2 I am claustrophobic....I don't like being closed up in confined spaces

Weirdness/Habit #3 Geeeeeeeee this is getting hardish!! Does biting my fingernails come into this...mmmm yea its a habit, a bad one too.

Weirdness/Habit #4 I very very rarely wear dresses. I like trousers, jeans and pants. Am a bit of a "tomboy" and like to race speedway cars, climb trees and don't mind getting dirty!!

Weirdness/Habit #5 I am allergic to pine trees in bloom..the flowers and sap give me a hive like rash.

There you are Rae...being "tagged" certainly got me thinking....
Good luck tomorrow on your ww super modeling, smileeeeee and have fun, you and Donna both deserve it.

Blogger still won't let me post pics, darn! I wanted to show off my newest little grandie. oooooooppppsssss been celebrating, weigh in tomorrow night.......eeeeeeekkkkk demon scales!!!!

Yes, it's happened!

Yes, it has happened....my granson was born this evening and I was there to witness the birth. Absolutely magic!! The little boy is as yet un-named but it should be Thomas Shane.....ohhhhhhhh I am so happy. He was 7lb 40z and 51cm long...and just so beautiful.
I was hoping to post a pic but for some reason I can't get pics to post...darn!


On Monday I weighed in and lost 200g.
2.8 kilo's to go....

Tornado Update

Was going to post a few pics but "blogger" won't do it for some reason! But ohhh well when it gets sorted out I will.

The tornado that went through this estate I live in was devastating and very destructive leaving many people homeless, some houses were completely demolished and others damaged, some more will have to be demolished, others can be repaired. They are saying over $10 million of damages. The premier has been and declared the area a natural disaster zone.
Over the past week a lot of time has been donated by people and businesses and a massive clean up has been going on. It has been marvellous the way people have come together and supported the community.
It is going to take a long time though before insurances etc can be sorted out and the rebuilding process can begin.
Today I have been down the local bush brigade helping with the morning teas and lunches for all the volunteers. All the food has been donated by businesses and cakes etc have been donated by families like mine who were not suffering damage. Being Sunday I didn't think there would be too many but there were over 30 of all ages. Marvellous the way this community has pulled together to help each other, isn't it?

The tornado was very frightening and I think everytime we have a storm I will be scared of a reoccurrence...I hope not as it is a noise I NEVER want to hear again!!!
I want to THANK all those people who were concerned about me and sms'ed, rang or emailed wondering how I was. All I can say is mwahhhhhhh THANK YOU

Just letting you ...

All know I am fine. A shocking disaster here with a tornadeo going through the area I live in at 1.10am this morning. The noise was so loud and frightening, and the thunder, lightning and hailstones made it deafening!! It past our house about a 100 meters or so away leaving debris everywhere BUT so many other houses were totally destroyed or severely damaged. Huge trees were just twisted down a foot from the ground or totally stripped bare...its terrible to see. Over 25 houses have been destroyed and over 30 damaged...those poor families and a lot of them live just a few hundred meters from me.

Went to weigh in tonite....lost 600g..

Temptation....

I went to a birthday party last night and YES I resisted TEMPTATION again. There was a lovely big black forest birthday cake, and my very favourite pavalova, and fruit cheesecake. And I had NONE! No not even a taste.
The dinner was a pig on the spit, which I didn't taste either. I would not have been able to resist the crackling. So yes, I am proud of me and I hope those demon scales will be nice to me tomorrow night and thank me for resisting those yummies!

Just letting...

Just letting you know that I weighed in last night and lost 900g !!

Wooohoooooo!!

Was beginning to think that this last little bit wasn't everrrrrr going to move


Onwards and downwards I go again.....hopefully!

Only 3.6 to go.....

Happy Birthday Ashlee

Today we had a family gathering for my grandaughter Ashlee's 2nd birthday. Ashlee is a real little cutie and Jenna made sure she got a few extra cuddles today. Jenna behaved herself and did not eat ANY party food, nooooooooo not even a taste of the icecream birthday cake!!! Have to face those dreaded demon scales tomorrow evening !!
Got a few pics, it was great as I have 5 grandaughters (as well as the 2 gransons) and today I got the whole 5 girls in a pic with me.

From left to right we go Jessica 4 1/2 snuggling in to Jenna, Ashlee in my arms, Zoe 3 1/2 gone all shy, Caitlin 4 1/2 grinning from ear to ear and Skye 2 3/4 between my legs. What is it they say about girls....Sugar and Spice and all things nice ?? Just little sweeties I recon !!

Weighed in

Weighed in tonight and I stayed the same .... which is good I guess. I had a couple of bad days so despite all the excersise I have done I suppose I deserved not to lose. Just need a good week to get myself back FULLY on track.

Tomorrow I am home again, work is still slow...so 1st challenge will be to track and stay on track, no visiting the fridge and pantry for ANYTHING UNLESS it is written in my tracker.

Happy Birthday Wayne

Was my nephew Wayne's 21st birthday party last night and I am so proud of myself because I did not over indulge at all. I have sabotaged myself twice this week (not badly, but enough to get cross with myself)and I was hoping that I could control that habit last night and I DID!!! I did not drink...AND I DID NOT EAT PAVLOVA (which is my all time favourite sweet) or double chocolate cream cake, cheesecake or any birthday cake at all!! I mixed with all the rellies and friends and had a good time....and yeaaaaaaaa lapped up all the compliments on my weight loss! Think getting all the compliments helped me not to sabotage myself. The party was at my brother in laws place out in the shed and boy was it cold last night!! They had fires outside the shed for those brave ones who didn't mind the night air and heaters inside but that air last night got so chilly, brrrrrrrrr
This morning stayed in bed a bit and had a lay in, then got up and went for an hours walk. Going to do my "Pilates for Dummies" dvd this arvo and hopefully tomorrow night when I go to my ww meeting those dreaded demon scales will be nice to me.....

Work is quiet

An absolutely gorgeous day here today, though there was ice on the ground this morning after a heavy frost. Made for a very brisk 35 minute walk this morning before work.
Work is quiet, and after being out in the paddock this morning working on the harvester digging a load of potato's I was allowed to come home. So 4 hours work for me today, tomorrow off (but babysitting 2 grandies) and off on Friday too!!! I was home early yesterday, and was soooooooo hungry after working quite hard in the paddock in the sunshine....I binged!! Phewwwwwwww thanks heavens for Rach....a message from her and I pulled myself back into gear, slapped my hands and prepared myself just a light dinner. Being home takes me out of my controlled zone, what with me going to work I have packed lunches, everything is organised and tracked. Today I am ready....I WILL not sabotage myself again !! Heavens, I weighed in Monday evening and I lost 400 grams, I have 4.4 kilos to go to goal....I am not going to make myself work any harder than I am already by sabotaging myself....nahhhhhhh I am under control!
Plans for this afternoon...after lunch I have to book to finish so I will be flat out in one of the garden chairs out on the lawn in the sunshine finishing that....then if I have time might even have a little "nanna nap"....mmmm sounds good to me!!
And if the sun is still shining when I wake up and I have time, I will go for a walk.....

Family is on the move

On Monday Simon and Tracey went in and signed a lease agreement on a rental 10 minutes from here. They move out tomorrow or the next day.....geeee gonna miss them all but heyyyyy it's sure going to be nice and quiet again. Helped Tracey take a load of gear out there today, and Simon will take another load out after work today.

Ohhhhhh I had a surprise phone call today,( a friend of my daughters who saw me at our birthday parties), telling me she joined ww and has now lost 11 kilo's and it was all thanks to me!! I was so happy for her and so glad that by me changing my lifestyle and trying to get healthy and fit I was able to help someone else.

I have not been to work since last Wednesday and really am enjoying the rest. But I am finding it hard to keep myself occuppied and out of the fridge and pantry, but I have!! Once the family move out it will be better as I will be able to bring out all my scrapbooking and have a catch up there, can't eat and do that! I am walking nearly an hour every morning, but haven't managed any situps or much else the last few days as I have the flu...was feeling really out and down yesterday but had a good sleep last night and feeling better today.

Ohh nearly forgot, lost 300 grams on Saturday, next weigh in Monday evening on the 17th.

Hey........

Well not gonna brag or anything BUT guess who is in size 10 jeans ???

I bought them as I was told my size 12 jeans were "baggy bummed" but heyyyyyyy never expected them to fit!!

I will admit they are tight, they aren't real comfy as I don't like tight clothes but they fit without me having to lay on the bed and do them up....hehe !

Anyways have hung them up in sight in my robe as an incentive to get to goal, I am hoping by goal they will fit me very comfortably by then. Plus it gives me extra time to work on that tum !!

Anyways am home again today, work has gone from frantically busy to nothing in a matter of days. Going to get a few days off in the next week or so apparently, so a big challenge for me to stay out of the pantry. At work I have everything packed, know when and what time I have to eat....so am out of my comfort zone. But I am up to the challenge!!
Weigh in tomorrow.....wonder what those demon scales will say, will keep you informed.

If ya can't fix it.....

If you can't fix it, CHANGE IT!!! Got sick of my blog not being right so decided to change pages, a bit of fiddling to do, but heyyyyyy I did it. Have to get my stats back up but as yet can't remember how I did it so will leave them for the moment.

Thanks Belinda for those changes you emailed me...made no difference but thanks so much for the kindness in thinking of me.

Anyways I found my "diet devil" out and we are working together this week to get even with those demon scales....we are gonna make that dial go down this week. I have a day off work tomorrow......yeaaaaaa......so be able to get some extra walking in. Determined is me this week.

Back again!!

Welllllll I am back online again, bigpond had problems over here in this part of good ole WA and somehow or other my pc developed a "data flaw issue". Anyways all sorted out now and here I am.

So far this week I am going well, doing my excersise and so far eating right, tracking and watching portion sizes so hopefully those demon scales will move downwards for me. This will be my last Saturday morning weigh in...my ww meeting is closing as we are not getting enough people there, so going to go into recession till September sometime and people come out of winter hibernation!! Drat!! Now I have to go back to a evening meet as I work. I don't enjoy the evening meets as I just don't get a chance to unwind after work before having to go out.

Anyone come up with any ideas as to how to get my blog profile up where it should be again?? Emailed blogger about 4 or 5 times now and still so far no response. Also tried a few ideas that others have given me but still no go!!!

Happy Birthday Mum

TAPESTRY OF MEMORIES....

Precious are memories
we keep through the years.
The fabric of life, stiched with laughter and tears.
Woven from good times and dreams that came through.
The loved ones and places our hearts belong to.
A patchwork of stories, traditions and smiles.
Thought that can travel
through time and by miles.
Precious are memories that wrap us in love
and speak to the heart
everytime they are thought of.

A poem for my mum and loved ones as we celebrate my mum's 77th birthday...loves ya Mum....and loves ya Rod, my big bro.
It's been a great arvo with family today...really enjoyed sitting and enjoying the sunshine and company.

P.S. Weighed in today, stayed the same. Gotta pull my socks up and get this butt of mine into gear and rid me of these kilo's. A determined effort needed.