Today is day 11

Today is day 11 of my challenge to myself….and I am going well.
Tuesday was weigh in day, lost 600g and was happy with that. Would have loved more of course, a kilo would have been nice then I would have reached my 10% but that means this week I will be doing my best to get that dratted 10%. Heck knows for the last month I have been so close yet so far from it!!

I had my granddaughter over for the weekend, such a delight to have. Took her out with her Daddy on Saturday morning after I picked her up so as she could spend her money that her Daddy and I both gave her for her birthday which was the day before…..then when her choices were made we went out for lunch. 

The only thing that took the edge of the weekend was son losing the plot and getting a 72 hour restraining order against him from his partner. Sometimes I wonder will that son of mine ever grow up!!!  He has his moments thats for sure. 

Anyways Skye had the best time and really didn't want to go home. 
On the way home we called in and saw her great-nanna (hubby's mum) who was delighted to see her. Mum is now in hospital up in Perth, we took her up yesterday afternoon as this morning she had to have a stent put in her leg to help her circulation and hopefully which will help her ulcerated leg heal. It was a very challenging day food wise but I made some great choices but maybe the portion sizes could have been smaller. 

This is our Skye after a shower and in the onsie that I bought for her. I had it in her Christmas stocking…but thought she could be a bit more spoilt while she was here. She loved it…I thought it was pretty funky myself. 

Challenging myself

100g's to go to get my 10% and what do I I? 
I stuff it up…by stuffing myself, thats what.
Had a few real bad days, and then couldn't get myself back on track….found excuses not too.  Why?? I don't know..there is a little devil in my mind that wants to indulge my appetite. Have it, go on its says…I have realised that I am back in a lifestyle and self confidence rut and taking some kind of solace in food.    Frustration much !!
Then we went to my nieces engagement party on last night and saw a pic of myself…OMG!!!
What a wake up call!! I saw what I really looked like, and it wasn't what I see in a mirror. Strange isn't it, I could see the weight I had lost and thought I was looking ok? Even though I have lost nearly 10k and quite a few centimetres I realise I have a long way to go before I am anywhere near what I want to look like again. Can kick myself for letting myself get like this again.
So I have given myself a 100 day challenge, a challenge to myself to do the best I can everyday, to be honest with myself, and to eat only what I need to eat.  Today is Day 1.
Tuesday is weigh in day…and yes I was going to weigh in so I knew what damage I have done to myself, but I have Fire Warden training at work that morning so will miss it.

Anyways will leave you with a few pics of the engagement party. 

Andrew and Serena.

Jim, Serena and Ted. Jim and my hubby Ted have been friends for 45 plus years. Serena is Ted's late brother's daughter. Was great to catch up with Jim and his wife Izzy.

The engagement cake which was designed by Serena's sister Mandy. 

The photo…me with hubbys brother Ben.

Another busy week...

My girl and her precious little William….just love this pic. 


Well another week has flown by….4 days of work, grocery shopping, organising the last of holiday in March (flights to Sydney and accommodation organised and payed for…and excursions in New Zealand booked and paid for too)
Visits to mil in hospital, washing, mending, cooking and freezing meals for quick meals and housework…..plus preserving peaches off our overloaded peach tree. No wonder I am tired.

This week have my nieces engagement party to go to and another 5 days of shifts to get through. 

Weigh in today…100grams lost.  Think lack of exercise and a few extra treats this week didn't help.  Next week maybe….hope so, only need a 10% to reach my 10%

Onwards….

Just a bit to go…..

And I will reach my 10%….
Weigh in today and with a loss of 700g I was delighted to see I am 200g from my 10%…its an awesome feeling.

 So this week with some patience, some planning, 100% tracking and some exercise I will face those "demon" scales next Tuesday confident that I have lost the 200g and made that 10%

Now these 3 are Caitlyn, Ashlee and Matthew all ready to go trick and treating. These are Paul's 3 munchkins and aren't they are growing up so darn quickly.  They live just down the road about 3 k's away and I think I see more of William who lives 1700k's ago than I do of them, I had to pinch these pics of Facebook.  No major conflict with us…sometimes life just get to darn busy for us all I think. 

Not much happening...

nom nom, I like yogourt

banana and watermelon

Mummy…I don't think I like watermelon

I am 10 months old now


Not much is happening in the world of Jen. Its work, work and more work….relief shifts are happening again while someone else goes on leave. But I need the $'s so its all good.
Tuesday was weigh in day….lost 400g so lost half of what I gained last week. Why is that its so easy to gain and yet so hard to lose? Think if I remember how hard it to lose weight I would remember not to do anything to gain???

Anyways…on to my most favourite subject at the moment….my sweet William. he turned 10 months old the other day. Pics are all I will have of him till Christmas and thats when he turns 1 year old. 

A few bad days...

I saw this today and just had to take a deep breath and soldier on .
The weather has just been so miserable, its gone from beautiful cheery sunny days to cold, wet and miserable. The colder days have seen me go from yummy filling salads with fresh fish to slow cooked curries and lamb shanks with potato's…and bread. I just have had a couple of "bad" days where I have had binges…looking for food just for warmth and comfort. I was even thinking of not going to my weigh in on Tuesday knowing I haven't had a good week and could get a gain. BUT I will go and take it on the chin…because I HAVE NOT given up!!

And to keep me from going down the road to a 3rd bad day is this pic of my happy little man. Mummy moved the couch to clean and look Mummy I found a blue m & m ….thanks mummy it was yummy …...

I faced some challenges….

My dad.

 But I sucked them up and moved on. One of them challenges was not to eat my emotions. Last Friday Kylee, Garry, twins and William came down and spent the night. Kylee, Garry and William had a marvellous holiday and weren't looking forward to the long drive back home on Saturday. They made the most of their last few days by spending time with the twins and us. 
I am not a fan of cooking, but entertaining people, even family, I enjoy. Making weight watcher friendly meals and desserts for others I enjoy especially when the plates are emptied and complimented on. 
Saturday was hard saying bye to them all as they headed off. It was also the anniversary of my Dads death, always a hard day for me. 
I found the strength to occupy myself and keep right out the way of food. 

And the scales rewarded me today for challenging myself. weigh in today showed a 900 gram loss. I feel as though I am getting somewhere now. Hopefully with another good week next week Icould reach my 10% …. but I will see what this week brings.

And to finish up…here's my cute lil man….roll on Christmas when I hope to see him again. I am lucky Kylee keeps me updated very frequently with new pics of him and his achievements. 

A little gain...

Tuesday again…and that means weigh in day.

Was hoping for a loss…but it was not to be…a 300gram gain.

I had prop-points left over for the week, did over my 12,000 steps everyday bar one day so guess it means I will have to work a little harder. I made Boston Beans with chorizo sausages for dinner for us last night…very very yummy, very high in pro points too…..mmmmm maybe I can blame that for my little gain..

Definitely going to make Boston Beans again, but think will make it with bacon instead, be a heap lower in points. 

Kylee, Garry and William are having the best time at the Gold Coast. Above are a few pics of them and my little man over there.  They have had a blast of a time at the the theme parks. And today they went to the Australian Zoo. Tomorrow is their last day there, they fly home Thursday. So looking forward to seeing them again before they have to head home.

Was hoping at Christmas time to go see them and of course celebrate Williams 1st birthday..but I was too late in requesting time off. I can get 4 days off…but its a days drive there and back so it will be too much. Kylee and Garry have requested time off, so lets hope they can get it and they can come down, Fingers crossed.

Early start in the morning so its off to bed for me..

Moving on...

This little fella was 9 months old a few days ago. On Sunday  they overnighted here and I got the pleasure of watching all his new achievements since I saw him last. He crawls and climbs and just loves checking himself out into every shiny little thing….like my stainless steel bin to my glass sliding door. I have lots of drool and dribble to clean up.
Mummy and Daddy have taken the little man on a holiday to the Gold Coast for 9 days….so I'll see him on their return before they head off back to their home and work….

They bought these gorgeous little ones down for the overnight visit too. Jaz and Alex turned 5 on the 22nd September. What cuties they are….and they love their little brother, spoil him rotten they do.

We went and picked up hubby's 89 year old mum and bought her out for dinner that night so she could see Kylee, Garry, Jaz, Alex and William. William just loved his great-nanna…and Mum thought he was just adorable. William seemed to realise that mum was frail and just sat on her and didn't jump up and down. It was just beautiful to watch.

Anyways…after my downer of a week last week, I managed to regroup and get myself on track. Weigh in today showed a 100g loss. My leader showed me a graph on her computer today when I told her how I was exasperated with how slow the weight was coming off. Its 5 months exactly since I rejoined weight watchers and in that time I have lost 8 kilo's. That roughly works out at 300grams loss a week. 
So, its just over 5 months to our cruise so if I can loose another 8 kilo's in that time I will sitting on my goal weight. How could is my leader? She sure bought a smile to my face…..soooooo its onwards and downwards...

A Down Day

Its been one of those days today. It started okay…up and off to work early, cleaning before 6am this morning. Bad weather was predicted, and that came rolling in by 9am keeping me busy keeping floors clean and dry.

Home at 12 lunchtime…a coffee and a chat with hubby. Had some lunch….and then it started. I just couldn't stop eating….cravings big time. I have eaten everything and everything, just couldn't seem to satisfy my hunger.

So today has been wiped…going to pull myself together, and have a good nights sleep and remember tomorrow is another day.

There will be no way in on Tuesday…going to have a no weigh. 

Growing…..

Look who is growing like a weed…
William has just turned 8 months and already he is climbing up on everything and standing up and pushing everything and anything around the house…
Thankfully Kylee sends pics/video's of every little achievement so I don't miss out on anything. Can't wait to see them all again. Hopefully at the end of this month, they are heading down and spending a few days with the twins before flying to the Gold Coast for a weeks holiday. If we don't see them then, will see them on their return.
Then it will be Christmas before we see them..and Christmas means William turns 1 year old. Unfortunately not knowing what we were doing for Christmas this year, I didn't ask for any time off. Few other people have so I now can't get time off other than the days I don't work. And it may mean I will have to do a few extra shifts. Luckily Kylee thinks she and Garry will be able to come down here…..fingers crossed they can.

Been having some beautiful weather here, some gorgeous spring days. All the wildflowers are coming out on our block

Heaps of orchids this year, even have found a few new ones, ones I have not seen before, can't wait for them to open up so I can take some pics.

Off to go start some dinner now, just finished a couple of loads of washing so my day off tomorrow can be exactly that…a day off.

Weigh in on Tuesday, a very pleasing 1 kilo loss…onwards and hopefully this week I can have another good loss. 

Another stay the same….

I upped the exercise, I counted pro points honestly…was totally on track for 6 of 7 days and hopped on the scales at my meeting this morning….and darn it saw another stay the same.
I know I shouldn't be disappointed BUT I am!! Was ready to go buy a block of chocolate, or a big serve of fish and chips but what is that going to achieve but more disappointment next week. And I am not a quitter…I have to keep going. I didn't put this weight on overnight..so I guess I not going to lose it overnight either. Just feeling mighty frustrated that its its not coming off just a little quicker than what it is.
Patience Jen….just have to remember last weeks post and all those little bits add up to a lot.
So….onwards to next week. 

This little man always brings a smile to my face.
So happy Kylee keeps these pics coming, it feels as though we not missing out. He is 8 months old now…geeeee where has time gone. Little imp is pulling himself up on everything and standing on his feet….won't be long and he'll be up and running. 

Little by little

Ashlee, Caitlin, Matthew with William.

 Our eldest Paul, his partner Tanya and their kids have been on holidays for the last 7 weeks, They left here and headed off to Central Australia, stopping at Ayres Rock, Alice Springs, katherine, Darwin and every other little place in between. They met up with Tanya's mum and her partner at Kununnura and travelled the Gibb River Road stopping and exploring the sights. It is a trip we did a few years back so know how much they have enjoyed it. The kids have had a blast.
The other day they stopped off for a few hours and spent time with Kylee and their little nephew/cousin.

Yesterday was weigh in day….and another loss for me. Only 200grams off but I'll take it. Was of course hoping for more,  but all those little bits add up to a lot. 
I think its just over 25 weeks before we head off on our cruise and if I lose 200g every week till then I will be very close to where I want to be.  
Onwards onto another week….

This week...

I am going to put 100% effort into having a healthier week. Even though I lost 100g this week I ate too much again, going over my allotted pro points every day…and my exercise was just what I did at work. I can and will do better. My excuse was all the extra hours I have been doing, yes it has made me tired, yes it has made my feet sore…but this week my hours are less and I have time to plan my menu a little more and add some extra exercise…a walk down to the estuary maybe, or even a walking dvd :-)

Its 6 months to our cruise and I so want to be at goal….won't get there if I keep on playing at losing weight. I know I have to live and enjoy a few "added extra's" occasionally but not every day. So its onwards to the next weigh in…and hopefully another loss.  Nearly 7 kilo's down now…

Had the best weekend…..

I had the best weekend. Had my niece drop around her little boy, then Garry's ex dropped around his twins so Garry and Kylee got to spend more time with them and have some one on one time with their baby brother.  
The kids all had a ball together and of course I got lots of time with William.
All I can say is roll on September when Kylee, Garry and William travel down again. 

Weigh in, 200 grams gone this week…and I must admit I am happy with that as it was a very hit and miss week as far as food and exercise went. 

Counting down to the weekend…...

 All the days are running into one another, its been shift after shift and I am tired. Tomorrow is a day off but I have housework to do, a specialist (gynaecologist) to go see, bills to pay for the mother in law…and fit in a visit to see her in hospital. She has been put in again for the ulcer on her leg. Its not healing, actually it has spread and mum is in so much pain and she in to see if we can get that sorted.  Its been test after test for her and we are getting nowhere with the system as it is. Mum is 89, lives on her own, but this ulcer has stopped her mobility so looking after herself has become hard. Unfortunately none of us daughters in laws can look after her full-time…so we are going to have organise full-time home care or respite when she gets the pain control sorted out for her.
I have a ton of housework to catch up on as well, poor house has been very neglected. My bathroom is a disgrace, dusting needs doing….and the list goes on. Hubby has been great, he keeps the kitchen clean, does the vacuuming and even some of the washing when needed.  I have visitors coming this weekend. I am babysitting my niece's little boy and girl on Saturday night, and that night I also have Kylee, Garry and William due down for a few nights as Garry as a visit to a specialist too. Garry has Guillain-Barre Syndrome and needs for treatment.
So looking forward to cuddling my wee little man, and spending time with my girl. A whole weekend home sounds wonderful.

Weigh in day today….very happy to report at long last a loss…700grams gone.  My leader has asked me to change my goal weight. Goal weight is 68 which I got to last time I got to goal 10 years ago, but she feels at my age I don't need to that thin, after chatting we have decided on a goal of 75. As she said I can always go down more from there and see where I am happy at. Even when I got to goal last time I sat around the 71 to 74k mark so I am happy with that. So I also have to see my GP next week to get a letter from him if my gyneo won't do it. Though thats not the reason I am seeing him for…a ongoing bladder problem needs to be sorted.  

These drinks have been my saviour, I have cut back on quick fix snacks, including chocolate…and these drinks for 1pp have helped. Made with water they are still very creamy and chocolately.  Anyways roll on next week…and hopefully another loss. 

Girls sleepover

I cut my finger Jenna…..that grass was sharp.  

 ohhh really Jenna, that is sooooo not funny!!

 Just reflecting….watching their images in the water….and hoping a lot that they see a dolphin, unfortunately there were none.

I had these two on Friday and Saturday night, the Miss Skye and Miss Jaydene .
I had been promising them a sleepover for ages and I finally had two nights in a row free to have them. They had the best time, as did I with them. These pics were taken on walk along the old pipe jetty from a factory over the road….they love this walk as do I. 

And to finish off, here is Master William, rusk, dribbles and all.

ooops before I go…a stay the same on those demon scales.