Had 4 of the grandies

Had Simon and Tracey's kids on Saturday arvo throu to Sunday arvo and what a delightful time we had. We went shopping for ingredients to make little english muffin pizza's for tea Saturday night, swimming, to the park....and just had a great time. The girls bought down their little tents and sleeping bags and they all "camped" in my lounge room with the boys sleeping on the sofa bed.

They are growing up so fast...little Thomas turns 3 this year and the favourite word at the moment is NO!! He was really so good considering he had never had a night away from mummy and daddy. The other 3 have stayed over many times and know how to wrap their Jenna around their little fingers. Sheymus celebrated his 4th birthday the day after mine...so of course for dinner Saturday night we had the big birthday cake.

I am just doing a quick post, leaving to head off up to Perth airport in 10 minutes to pick up darling daughter and her fiancee...Kylee is home for a week this time, she has a heap of things to organise for her wedding next yearbut the main reason for being here this week is that on Saturday she will do bridesmaid duties to her best friend.

ohhhh weigh in was last night, officially a 60's girl again and in the allowed 2 kilo's allowed over goal weight....woohooooooooo!!!

Happy Birthday to me

Today I was able to finish work early, so decided it was time to go and visit with Hannah. We had a bit of a catch up and were able to sort out a few things. Not happy to hear from her that she has seen Shawn a couple of times...they will lose the kids all together if this persists, the silly buggers!! She too is very worried about him...but what can we do, he won't listen!! Anyways I am going to have the kids in a few weeks time for a weekend just to give Hannah a break, she looks great but is very tired. Was delighted to have mega cuddles with little Shayden, he is really growing fast, at 9months old he is standing on his own....no steps yet thou. Isn't he a cutie? Skye was at pre-school and Jaydene was at kindy so I missed out on seeing them.

I have had a great day....lots of phone calls, lots of messages on Facebook, some lovely gifts....and some time for me.

Even Shawn came out tonight to gather up some gear, reminded him he is getting no help from us anymore...he is on his own now. Will feed him but no more money lending, not letting him go poison himself more with dope and booze. He had a face a mile long, but I have to be strong...tough love they say!

Tomorrow I am having Simon and Tracey's 4 kids overnight...aged from 7 years down to 2.5 years....its going to be awesome. Sheymus turns 4 tomorrow so we'll be able to have a little party for him.

It's Monday again...

And the weekend is over....

Actually it wasn't a bad weekend....I achieved a fair bit. But the biggest achievement was making the FINAL morgage payment on this house, what an awesome feeling that was! Now we are debt free, just have to start stacking up a few dollars in the bank account so we can retire.

Shawn was his usual charming self when I saw him on Sunday.....got himself in more trouble with the law and got a work order put on his vechile. So we are taking his vechile off him, he owes us nearly $2,000, some that he did borrow to buy his 4x4, and the rest he borrowed to tide him over when he and Hannah split. But since the split his behaviour and his attitude has got worse, and since he is going to lose his licience in a few weeks for that drunk driving episode a few weeks back he won't need it. So going to repossess it and see if we can sell it! He hasn't looked after it very well, so don't know how we'll go. But he has made no attempt to try and repay us, or look for a job...seems to think we are going to keep on getting him out of his little bothers.....but nahhhh not any more.

Anyways went in to weight watchers tonight for weigh in....nearly a 60's girl again....another kilo gone !!!!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!

This little piggy went to market.
This little piggy stayed at home.
This little piggy had roast beef,
This little piggy had none.
And this little piggy went "Wee! Wee! Wee!" all the way home

That poor little piggy that had none.....well thats my fault coz I the piggy thats had the roast beef and everything else in sight. The cravings came with ttom and no matter how much I tried to resist I just couldn't and before I knew it I was going to bed with a tummy full of CRAP!!!

TTOM is crap too...I thought they had gone....but nahhhhhh they back, thou very light but enough to cause me those darn cravings. Menopause is sux, thou I guess I should be happy that the hot flushes have gone...haven't had them in awhile.....but then again I shouldn't say thet either coz I said that about ttom too ehhh?

Went to ww on Monday evening for my weigh in.....tad disappointed that I stayed the same but really on thinking about it no one to blame but myself....I didn't track and when I don't do that those little extra's do find themselves into my mouth.

On the Shawn front, court went well he said, copped himself a fine is all. He is trying to straighten himself out BUT not hard enough. He gets with his so called "mates" and starts the drinking, and that leads to the dope and usually that combination leads him to trouble.

He has court again in 2 weeks....thats for him and Hannah and settling the matter with DCP and the kids. ohhh and talking about kids...I am to be a "Jenna" again, Hannah is expecting another little boy in April. Shawn will be a dad of 4...sheeeez and he still acting like a kid himself.

Had the ultasound....

I had a couple of hours of work yesterday and rushed off into town and had the ultrasound. Was very fasinating actually....and no it didn't hurt, well not much anyways!!! The lady using the transducer pressed it that hard into my chest it darn well hurt....I actually have a bruise. Anyways its all done and I go to my Doctor on the 17th, by then he'll have the results from the mammogram and echocardiograph....

NO work today so I have had a day at home catching up on a few chores.....other than those done not much at all. Was nice to have a bit of a lay in bed this morning....and I actually walked in sunlight and did an hour instead of the 30 minutes I do as the sun is just coming up!!

Shawn came out knowing I had the day off....nothing much changed there...he's not getting any better, worse if anything. Drinking too much alcohol and still using the drugs. He goes to court tomorrow for a disorderly contact charge, thou if you ask him its not his fault, the trouble is he reckons it never is, always someone else started it!! Anyways he took off with a change of clothes for court, hope he goes, if he doesn't he is up for a $10,000 fine or a 3 month jail sentence. Mmmmm ..... maybe a stint inside will dry him out !!

I weighed in

Last night I went in to weight watchers and did my weigh in. Was pleased to note that despite my blow out last week over the last 2 weeks I have lost a kilo......yayyyy me!! Am getting there ehhhh?

Welllllll I had a marvellous surprise on Saturday. I was in town to doing my usual shopping when I received a phone call from my DIL asking me how long I was going to be as she was at home waiting for me to come home and have a cup of coffee with her. Told her I was on my way, be there in 15 minutes.....and I was. When I got home I walked out the back and into the garden where DIL was sitting with Shawn AND my daughter Kylee!!!!!!!

Kylee had flown home that morning and wowwwwww what a surprise. She had come home to surprise her best friend Jess who was having her hens night that evening....as Kylee said you can't have a hens night without the bridesmaid ehhhhh?? And boy did Jess get a surprise....she was soooooo happy to see Kylee.

Kylee flew home today...but will be back for the wedding in 3 weeks.

Tomorrow I am off for the next test....I have my heart ultrasound.....here's hoping its painless and nothing untoward gets found.

One test done...

......one more to go.

Finished work early yesterday arvo and went in and had the mammogram....at the best they are uncomfortable but sheeeeeeeeeeeez when they squashed my sore one I nearly went through the bloody roof!!! My boob was feeling a lot better, the nipple soreness was nearly gone, that was until the big squash!! Since then its been darn sore......

Alls been going well on the satisfaction ww plan.....I am still enjoying it. Hopefully this weekend I won't lose the plot and wreck my weigh in on Monday evening. Other than that one blow out last week all has been going well so I should have a reasonable loss.

My girlfriend and I have started walking together again, plus we are going to a water running class that has just started up every Wednesday evening. Deb is a ww life member too and is the one that got me into weight watchers and dragged me to my goal with lots of encouragement and support. Now the tide has turned and its me that is offering her that encouragement and support plus more as due to some very emotional times these past few years Deb has put all her weight back on plus more.

mmmmm no change on the Shawn front....he still the same, this past week we have hardly seen him, he has been hanging out with some "mates" we would rather he stayed away from, but as he says he is a big boy now!! His behaviour really is going to get him into a heap of trouble, he has already received papers to say he is going to lose his licience due to drunk driving, a breathaliser recorded .08 so looks like he'll be walking for awhile!

Public Holiday

Being a public holiday today there will be no weigh in for me tonight. Maybe thats just as well because I had a "blow out" on Saturday night. Got a craving for chocoalte so I ate it, then ate some more...and then more.....

But Sunday was back on track and today as well.....I want to see those numbers on those demon scales go down when I stand on them next Monday evening.

Have had a great long weekend so far, done nothing and been nowhere...have just pottered around here doing nothing much at all....been very relaxing. Managed to read a few books, play on the pc and read some blogs.....and still have a few more hours yet to continue doing nothing. Even managed to get outside and do a bit of sunbathing, after spending most of my time in the shed at work it was lovely to feel the sun on my skin.

Even Shawn has been reasonably well behaved....but heyyyy I won't say anything too much as we still have this evening to get throu. Just wish someone would come grab him and take him away and lock him up in a rehab centre somewhere and dry him out...the dope is really starting to effect him more than ever ....

Long weekend....

.....and I am sooo looking forward to it, it's been a long and busy week espesially at work. The amount of carrots I have graded and that have been packed this week has been up over 28 tons a day, thats over a 140 tons that have gone out of this farm this week, our truck driver has been busy!! Geeeeeee it makes you wonder how many carrots people eat ehhhh, cos the pre-packing machine (where carrots go into 1/2 and 1 kilo bags) has been busy all week too!!

We are not going anywhere, just staying at home and relaxing. I have a few books to read, some gardening to do and thats about it....any other chores can wait.....

After work today I had a Drs appointment, the last few weeks I have had a sore nipple on one of my boobs, plus on and off have been having a few chest pains. I have had no pain when exercising, only when I am resting...so thought I better get it checked out. Anyways I off to have a mammogram which I thought I would have to have and also have to have a heart ultrasound as my Dr heard a heart murmur.....geeeeeeeeeee I am falling apart!! Will be heading off to those as soon as I can get appointments.

All else is going well. Food wise, I am doing well...excersise too. I started doing water running on Wednesday with a friend and will be doing that every week now, we had a real good workout. Also looking into doing another class of cardio of some sort on Saturdays as well....just to help us keep on track.

Still Satisfied....

Weighed in tonight and another kilo gone....

Just loving this program.....thou must admit I haven't followed it properly tonight, sorted treated myself just a little....haven't gone overboard. Know I shouldn't have but got weak and gave into to my craving. I wouldn't have been craving if I followed the menu I had set for myself today.....but after I got home from work and found the power off, I had to change plans....and that changed everything......tell ya I was weak!!



All else is going well...Shawn is back in court on January 29th, by then he should, if he gets off his arse, have legal aide. He has been swinging between good and bad, he has been running amok with his mates, been in some trouble with the law....but seems to have settled down the last few days. Moods are not always the best but I guess things will get better....hope so!



Yesterday we went to a family reunion on hubby's mothers side....was very interesting following the family tree. Hubby had a great time catching up with family, some he hadn't seen since they were kids. This pic was taken by by neice there....was a hot day and I think I must have consumed a gallon of water.

Satisfied

I am satisfied....

The new weight watchers SATISFACTION program is working for me.

I am eating more, and foods that are filling me and keeping my hunger levels on a even keel so that most of my snacking has stopped. I am not craving any sweets and not tempted to eat any....I just can't believe how well it is working for me. And I think eating the more filling foods are helping me cope with any emotional eating. Fruit and vege's, pasta, rice, potato's and grains, dairy products and fish and eggs and soups have all been in my menu's. By focusing on these filling foods I am making my points allowance go further and it ensures that I am not going hunngry,,yayyyyyy!! We'll see on Monday evening when I go in for my weigh in but I am confident that those scales will be down again.

It's my eldest grandaughters 7th birthday today. Rang her up to wish her all the best and got all the news...our Jessica is just like her Dad ... loves to talk!!

Its a busy birthday week

A busy week for birthdays in this household it has been and still one more to come yet

First up my darling little sister ( who by the way is 6 inches taller and 10 kilo's lighter than me !!! ) turned 49 on the 6th January....the big 5o next year sis!!!


Then little Jaydene turned 2 on the 7th...but unfortunately due to the strife with Shawn and Hannah she was in the refuge with Hannah so didn't get to see her.

On the 10th middle son turned 35, he shared that day with a very good friend of mine....then yesterday the eldest son turned 39.

Then on the 16th my eldest grandaughter turns 7....geeeeeee time surely scoots by doesn't it?

This week has been my first week of the new weight watchers satisfaction program....I love it. I call it "coits" and find it mainly core foods with points. Its working for me....I lost 1.8 at weigh in tonight...yayyyyyyyyy!!

Shawn and Hannah go back to court this week....maybe a decision will then be made about Shawn and the kids. Its all to complicated to go into on here....but its a BLOODY mess!!! But I am trying my hardest to let my emotions rule my eating and have been winning.

Tomorrow night

mmmmm I just wish I could be.....BUT I have tasted goal, I felt awesome and I was able to stay there for months AND now I want that feeling back again. Since the 27th I have been back on track (except for a few bad moments yesterday) and tomorrow night I am planning to keep myself there by heading back off to weight watchers meetings. I have my friend, who is also my sister in law joining me.....

Even with all this crap going on with Shawn and Hannah and the possibility of them having the kids put into foster care has not sent me off track, or maybe I have just realised no matter how much I worry and stress what will be will be.

So here I go again...will add my stats tomorrow night......

Its Monday night and I am just back from weight watchers.....the new program looks great..will be reading it all up later tonight and trying it for sure. Now my weight, wasn't happy with that at all.....but it will be all down from here.

Start weight...and going by ww scales (mine are lighter) .... 75.0 !!!

Happy New Year....

Wellllllllllllll I hope it will be anyways......






Yesterday things with Shawn and Hannah came to a head with an almighty EXPLOSION!!!!! Won't go into details but Shawn spent the night in jail. He had to go to court this morning and get his rap over the knuckles. But HOPEFULLY now.....I am not counting any chickens yet as I have been disappointed with Shawns promises so many times before....but it looks like it might work out for the best for him this time.

He says it is definetly ALL OVER with him and Hannah this time....he is now single....and he is going to smarten his act up and get off the dope. As I said before...we'll wait and see....

He also has to face Department of Child Protection for a breach of the AVO in the next few days. The kids are at the moment been taken into their care and Hannah is in a refuge. I just hope he doesn't lose any access to his kids because of this because no matter how bad that his behaviour is no-one can say he doesn't love his kids....



On the tracking front since the 27th I have been as good as gold.....not once have I gone over my point allowance....I am determined to get back into the 60's again and damn well stay there....


Been as hot as hot these past few days....thank heavens the packing shed I work in has a huge industrial pedastal fan right next to where I work...certainly would not have survived without it!!


New Years Eve....and we are home. I will be sleeping in the new year I guess...usually do, we are not the party type though sometimes I just wish we could go out and do something....maybe next year ehhh....



All the very best for a happy healthy New Year

Tomorrow is the day .....

IS THE DAY I START TRACKING AGAIN........

I hopped on the scales tonight after looking down and seeing a huge muffin roll over the top of my jeans and I just thought enough is enough! I need to control myself, get my shit together. I can't blame my hormones and thyroid running amok for just generally making a pig of myself like I have this week !!

AND talking about jeans there are not many pairs that I own that do fit me comfortably anymore AND I am not buying myself anymore because that would mean buying a bigger size and I REFUSE to do that!!!

Hubby and I have had a very quiet Christmas. Christmas eve we went and visited #2 son and family as they were heading down the coast for their christmas break and gave them their chrissy presents.
Christmas day the other 2 sons and families came out and we played santa.....the kids enjoyed their presents and their stockings. Later on in the day we picked up hubby's mum and drove out to Teds youngest brothers place and had a family gathering and a huge christmas lunch.

#1 son has his eldest son coming tomorrow for his access visit so they will come out again tomorrow. When he bought his other 3 kids out on christmas day I just gave them their presents and held back their chrissy stockings so they could open them up with Luke visited.

Just gathered up all the naughty nibblies...and put them away, whoever visits and wants them can take them. I do not want to see anymore chips, nuts, lollies or anything that I can nibble on.....I am going to be so good and want no added temptations.

Update....

Well I got my blood results ..... as I expected results showed hormones are "scattered", thyroid seriously under-active.....and I have way too much protein in my system. So nothing serious, but geeee who would think a few hormones and a thyroid could cause so much havoc to my body. The protein is nothing much too worry about, apparently its my body's way of trying to fight the upheaval of my hormones and thyroid running amok!! Anyways medication has all been adjusted and I will see how I go. Late February I have to go back and let the "vampires" take some more blood and see what is happening.

Our weekend away in Geraldton was great. My girlfriend Tina had NO idea at all we were coming for her 50th and just screamed when she saw us.....she was so excited. We all had a blast and had a great catch up over the weekend. We all ate too much, drank too much and talked and talked...it was magic !!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL

Weigh in

Well the picture says it all....I have been a real "Miss Piggy" and the scales tell me so !! I hopped on this morning and the numbers went up and up and up right up to the highest they have been for a long time! No-one to blame but myself....I have been out of control with my eating. Emotions swinging this way and that way and all good intentions went swinging along with them. So this morning I have trying to get me shit together and plan out a week of healthy eating. I have a real hard week coming up workwise....a week of very long hours, 2 nights where we will be doing 3 hours overtime making 12 hour days.....so need to be organised.

Anyways one day at a time is how I am gonna do it....this time of the year is hard enough so I will do the best I can but I have promised myself as soon as Christmas is over I am back to the ww meetings, its seems to be the only thing that keeps me honest. A girl at work, well she actually only comes in to help out when we are very busy, asked me if she could start ww with me in the new year .... so I might take her up on that.

ohhhh went to the "vampires" on Thursday and they took a whole heap of vials of blood, go see my Dr on the 18th and get my results....mmmm be interesting!

We are off to Geraldton next weekend for 3 whole days...I am taking the Monday off work so we can travel back (a 6 hour trip) and also so I can do my food chrissy shopping before work again Tuesday and Wednesday. Presents are done, managed to find something for all 11 grandies.... my mum and hubby's mum to buy for today and thats it. Parcels are going to wrapped today and will be posted...so I am very nearly arganised.

Anyways out of here...time for some fruit and yogurt.

Just a update

I have just received the best news...and what a relief it was too.

Hubby went to see his specialist about his prostate PSI levels and all is okay...he was told all was well, nothing to worry about, come back in 12 months for a checkup....woooooooohoooooooooo I can stop stressing about that !!!!

I also went to see my Dr...was really concerned about these 2 car accidents and need to be assured there is nothing wrong with me. I have been tired, bloody menopausal hot flushes are still causing sleepless nights and I think thyroid medication needs adjusting again. Anyways going to have a heap of blood tests so we'll see what happens.
I dropped and smashed a good plate last night when doing the dishes....hubby came and said thank god for that...thats the 3rd smash.....geeeeeee I hope so !!!

On the weight front......welllllll been mostly good, but haven't been totally evil so will keep on trying. Will see what the scales say on Sunday....

I don't believe it !!!

I just can't believe it.....I am so over myself !!!!

Today I went into town in my little work car....and somehow I have rear ended another car....thats TWO accidents in TWO weeks..WHAT IS UP WITH ME !!!!!!

There of course was lots and lots of tears...and stunned disbelief that it could happen!!!! Stupid man did take off, so I did too...but then he must have realised he had stopped at a stop sign and not a giveway sign and stopped and soooooo did I !!!! Damn, damn and double damn !!!!! Hubby has fixed the damage.....nothing major at all. Nothing major to the other car either and he is going to get in contact with me next week, thinks he'll get away with just getting a new back bumper.

SHEEEEEZZZZZZZZZZZZ !!!!! Beginning to wonder if there is something wrong with me.....I am going to go and see if I can see my Dr....maybe my concentration is being affected by my thyroid imbalance...worth checking out I guess.

Anyways this of course has affected my emotions today. Luckily I did weigh myself this morning as we are going away tonight and wouldn't be able to weigh tomorrow morning.....happy to report down 600 grams....sitting on 72.0. A bit high....know I not going to get it down to where I want it to be until the silly season is over....but heyyyyy I am trying!!!

A day early

After a very restless night last night, I woke up this morning and weighed myself......mmmmm was not good, up ANOTHER bloody kilo. But what else do I expect after all the darn "evil" things I have been eating. Too darn lazy to excersise... so haven't walked for the past 3 days.

But I will tomorrow...and tomorrow I will be back on track. Looking at that comparison photo I have decided I prefer where I am right now...not what I was!! Right .... its okay to indulge now and then, but to eat as thou there is no tomorrow like I am at the moment has just gotta stop!! These darn hot flushes don't help either !! Its been nice to relax and not worry about what food is going into the mouth ....but I DO need to keep myself focused before I totally lose control.

Anyways I have shopped....bought myself a lot of fruit and vege's and plan to make myself lots of salads, frittata's and soups... these will be a change from the same ole things I usually eat. Also want to get away from the bread at lunch time and replace it with some protein to help me get throu the afternoon.

We had a invation to a friends 50th birthday up in Geraldton on the 20th December...so my goal is to get myself back on track by then and fitting comfortably into my skinny jeans.....

Here I go yet again...but with some changes......