Happy New Year...

Tomorrow is the start of a New year and as I reflect on the  passing of this one I can hope 2012 brings happiness to us all.

For my son Paul and his partner Tanya and children I hope that this year Paul makes a commitment to Tanya and they marry. Paul for some reason he feels they don't need the piece of paper to do that...but Tanya would love to have the same name.


For Simon & Tracey...I hope the contentment they have found since marrying continues.

For Shawn and Shaz...I hope that this year he can rid of his demons and find and believe in happiness again. He needs to know again that drugs & drink are not necessary to drown his sorrows in....and that he can find happiness without them. For him and Shaz the road hasn't been easy, this coming year I hope its not as bumpy. He has a bright future if he can kick his bad habits.

For Kylee .... for her to find her feet again and live her dreams.


For me...I have my everything in Ted, he is my everything ... BUT I would love to have a bit more of a social life. We are such homebodies and it has become too much of a habit....we need to get out and about more.


TO EVERYONE I WISH YOU GOOD HEALTH AND HAPPINESS FOR THE COMING NEW YEAR.

Onwards...

Daughter and her Daddy

 Dear daughter arrived safely....on the 23rd, as did Shera the dog. Kylee has spent most of her time in and out catching up with family and friends. Yesterday she did go around to all the Woolworths stores and hand in her resume. Fingers crossed she gets a position, casual, part-time,  full -time she doesn't care!

Santa, the christmas kitten

 This little cutie wandered into our yard on Christmas morning while we were having breakfast on the patio. I looked at Kylee as she has a habit of bringing home stray animals...but she said it had nothing to do with her. Anyways it was friendly, litter trained but starving so we fed it and cuddled it. Would have loved to have kept it but having a cat already, plus Shera,  and another cat arriving when Kylee moves home permanently we decided to give it to our little grandson Matthew. He did ask me for a kitten or a puppy for Christmas.

Shera

And this our Shera, well she will be ours for a month or so from the 2nd January when Kylee flies back to Melbourne and packs up and waits for settlement on the house. 
She loves to walk and I already have got into the habit of putting her harness on and walking her first thing in the morning.

I didn't weigh in on Tuesday after Christmas, but did have a quick peep at the scales...a small gain but hopefully now I have reined myself back in and got back on track after all the Christmas festivities by next weigh I hope to have lost it again.

Merry Christmas

To all my friends, I wish each and everyone of you and yours all the very best wishes for a very MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Take care, be safe.....

A good week ....

Shera

Well despite a week filled with drama's I managed to lose 600grams...very pleased about that!!

A lot of the drama's have been to do with Stephen & Kylee...won't go into them all but Kylee has found out that Stephen had been unfaithful before they split and he is now expecting a child with someone else. Hubby & I are very upset about this as right from the start of this breakup he said there was noone else and it had nothing to do with Kylee being unable to have kids without treatment!! So you can all imagine how my girl feels.

Well acually by all, its very quiet out in bloggerland...I didn't even get a comment last week...

This gorgeous little puppy above is a bit bigger now. She is Kylee's dog Shera (a retrieverdor..part retriever & labrador) and she flies in on Friday with Kylee. Kylee is home for Christmas and New Year then flies back to Melbourne to pack up the house ready to move back home as soon as settlement is sorted. Shera will be staying with us...we are doggy sitting.

Well best get myself ready for work.

On Track.....

Tommy and me

Week one of Simply filling has been done and dusted....weigh in result is 1.3 down. Very happy. Simply Filling is easy, for those that have done weight watchers before its just a modified version of the Core program.  All  I am doing is eating foods with a higher fibre, lower saturated fat and sugar.
Menu today for an example is poached eggs on grainy toast for breakfast, chicken breast and salad for lunch and dinner tonight is fish with wholemeal pasta & vege's. I point the bread out of my allowance.

I still have to track, as with the program now I have 49 pro-points to last me a week. The rest of the time I make my choices from filling & healthy food list (a little green triangle indicates those on the ww site) BUT I am finding it sooooooo easy.

Had a busy weekend. Simon & Tracey came down with their brood of 4 and bought all their school work for the term down. All 4 have done well. Jessica & Zoe both got honor certificates for their academic results this year, Sheymus got an award for his sport and willinginess to work as a team member and little Tommy got a certificate for trying his best at kindy.  They have done so well this year and I am so proud of them all.

Well best go put my joggers on, nearly time for a jabberwalk, seeing as the rain as stopped. I want to try as hard as I can to lose this week, as I have no real Christmas challenges to overcome this week.  Gonna give it my best shot anyways......

Rejoined again.....

This morning I had my first consult with my ww "At Home" consultant since putting it on hold way back in August. What with all that was happening in my life with Kylee and work it just got too hard.
But looking at my scales yoyo'ing these past few months,  its made me realise I cannot do it on my own, espesially as each time I yoyo the numbers get higher. Last week the numbers showed that I was  MORE than 10 kilo's over my goal weight!
This time I am not counting points, I am doing the  "Simply Filling"  program. This is the first time I have done it....but its seems to be easy. Today I have eaten well and haven't been attempted to snack.
Soooooo lets see what the week brings.

Wedding pics

The gorgeous bride and her dad

The groom and his best man and groomsmen

The lovely bridesmaids

Our bestest friends and parents of the bride

Luke and Jemma with their gorgeous daughter Marlee

Josh Kennedy, one of the groomsmen and West Coast Eagle footy star with his god-daughter Marlee and me

blahhhhhhhhhhhh

I'm back..
Just a quick update before I sort out all the wedding pics, which I'll put up in the next day or so.
Just over a week ago I weighed....then had a bad 3 days.....
Drove to Perth to pick up dear daughter on Thursday then on to Geraldton for wedding, drove home yesterday, dropping daughter off at airport on the way.
Hopped on scales this morning, just checked its been 11 days since last weigh, and I have gained 5 KILO'S !!!
Yikes....I have my work cut out for me again.
I had NO more binges after those few days, and ate quite well while away.
As for the binges Chris asked me why??
Really I am not sure other than I get an urge to eat knowing darn well its going to harm me, knowing too I am going to have trouble stopping BUT I still do it!!! 
But stop it I must...

I've done it again....

I have been binge eating again....
A real bad Friday afternoon.
A real bad Saturday afternoon.
A worse afternoon today.
My buddy will help me out tomorrow and get me back on with the excersise with our walks and zumba....and hopefully kick my "getting fatter arse bum backside"   coz geee I bloody well need it !!!
I had been gearing myself up to relaxing a little while we are away for the wedding knowing I would be "naughty" but why why WHY have I done this to myself now????
Right,  now I have written this down, and had a whinge maybe I can get myself re-motivated to losing again. This yoyo'ing is just NOT doing it,  ehhhh?
Maybe, too this binge will make me make healthy choices with all my food and drink while away.....fingers crossed  xx

Was a busy week....

phewww what a week it has been...so busy with lots of extra shifts for me. One of the girls from the Bunbury shopping centre hurt her shoulder so I have been covering a lot of her shifts.
I have today & tomorrow off, work Saturday morning 6am to 1pm then Ros will be back on Monday so I will go back to my normal 2 days a week here in Australind.  The extra $$'s will sure come in handy thou.  I have organised to have my hair done on Monday and on Wednesday after work I have an appointment to have my nails done as I can't go up to Jem's wedding with my hands looking as they do now!
On Thursday morning we'll be on the road bright & early....have to be at least by 5am, as Kylee's flight gets in at 7am. Depending on the traffic we are a good 90 minute drive from Perth airport.
I so can't wait.  It's a 6 hour drive to Geraldton so we'll be able to have a good catch up with Kylee as we travel, as once we get to Geraldton it will be catch up time with our friends and wedding preparations.  We head back on Monday, drop Kylee at the airport at 4pm to catch her 5pm flight, so we should be home by 7pm ready for work again Tuesday !
Ohhh below is the dress & little belero I am wearing to the wedding. The blue dress I have been working hard to get back into just doesn't "feel" right. I do fit into it....but I am at LEAST 7 kilo's heavier than I was when I wore it last.  Even with the "suck me in knickers" on it doesn't do it for me!

The dress

Kylee has officially got the house on the market as of Monday. Before it was advertised she had a private veiwing, and Wednesday she had another one. Yesterday she had a Home Open, and has another one on Saturday....so fingers crossed for her that the house does sell quickly at a good price too.
Her transfer to a store near here has been received by the recruitment office in Perth and they will let her know next week if she has got a job in the new store that is opening up just a 6 minute drive from here...fingers crossed again.

My weight watchers group meets again tonight. The scales there are NOT going to "get" to me tonight as I weighed in yesterday morning and yayyyy had a 400gram loss. Slowlllllllly I am heading onwards and downwards again.

pfffffft !!

Now that above shows my face exactly at weigh in last night !!
When I saw the scales I said FUCK  farkkkkkkkk !!!
How could that have happened ???
I have excersised 30 to 45 minutes every day this last week, I have watched what I have eaten, haven't eaten anything that I shouldn't have so I was very pissed peeved off !!
sheeeeeeeeeeesh I still haven't touched a chocolate or a bikkie for 43 days !!!  ( sshhhh I have eaten a couple of cookies though !!!)

Anyways only 12 more days till we head off to the wedding. We will pick Kylee up from the airport at 7am on the way through....thats if Quantas don't go out on strike again !!!
Don't think I will be wearing the dress I want.....still need to lose a few kilo's before it fits me the way I want it too.......
Anyways it wasn't a mega amount that I gained, BUT hopping on MY scales this morning I was 1.4 down on the reading on the scales last night. So I am going back to weighing myself in the mornings again....I prefer it anyways.

I am

Yesterday I went up to the cabinet makers that  did a quote on my kitchen and had a look at all the plans on his computer in 3D. It looked absolutely AWESOME !!!  I fell soooooo in love.  Later on he emailed me the quote.....hubby took one look and said NO BLOODY WAY am I spending that much money!!!  And not included in the quote was the electrician and plasterer.....

I may go back to him today and say...hey can we cut the costs down somehow so I get what I reallllllllly want in the kitchen and forget a forget the others...

Otherwise I guess its back to the drawing board for me......

Last night was weigh in for me....a 500g loss for me,  remember this was over 2 weeks.....but I'll take it ... I need it.

Will try my dress that I want to wear for the wedding on again today...hopefully these 36 days without choccies & bikkies will show up more that way.

Edit....Emailed the cabinet maker re: my kitchen and told him I couldn't accept his quote at his quoted price. Also sent him a few modifications asking if they would reduce the price. He emailed back and said to leave it with him, asking what my budget was all up including electrician,  plasterer etc .....and he'd get back to me next week.  Fingers crossed for me !!

Forum was a success

Our ww federation forum was a success....it went really well. Didn't manage to get many pics...but have this one above. The empty table is my table...me and the other 10 ladies were still running around doing last minute things.
We had 200 ladies, 2 men, 23 clubs represented and all our entertainment arrived on time and performed to applause. We had singers/guitarists, a personal trainer spoke and had volunteers in the background demonstrating easy fitness and toning excersises, a comedienne and a talk and slide show on the dolphins that come into visit at our Dolphin center in our town, and the facilities in the center (like a touch pool for the kiddies) and the eco boat tours. All these people were volunteers and entertained us at no cost to our club. We did give them a token gift of appreciation.
Our club sponsors one of the dolphins that regularly visits the center.
Our ladies cooked up a storm and supplied a beautiful morning and afternoon tea....and our caterers outdid themselves with a very appetising lunch.
A lot of hard work went into the event and it all payed off. We had nothing but praise and appreciation from everyone. A big sigh of relief now that it is all over....someone elses turn next year.

Meeting tonight .....

.... turned out to be a fizzer.....got there and there was NO POWER !!!

So tonight I came home and hopped on my scales and had a quick peek....it showed me a loss...not the kilo I was hoping for but enough to make me smile.
Now my scales have been put away, I can't weigh myself during the week, my weight flucuates from day to day,  and to see that does me head in !!!

Now that I have had no weigh in recorded this week my challenge to myself is to don those joggers daily and make sure I walk 30 minutes plus a day.
Ohhhh and I have STILL had no choccies or bikkies....thats 28 days now.....
I have started Zumba Fitness & Toning once a week as well....though this week coming there will be none....so might have to get my pilates dvd out of hiding and do that,  need to do something to help out my core.
Tomorrow is going to be a busy day. Our ww club is hosting a ww forum, we have over 200 ladies from all over the south west and we have to cater morning tea, lunch & afternoon tea plus entertain them as well.  Ths is happening Saturday, so tomorrow we have the hall we have hired to set up for a early morning start on Saturday.
Sunday, I have Shawn and his 4 kids for his access visit.  Ohhhh and talking of Shawn, he starts a new job on Monday...he is so happy about that.
Kylee has the house up for sale. Stephen is hiring storage space so Kylee can de-clutter the house....all looks promising.  She has stepped down from night supervisor so she can have all day shifts....gives her more time at home with her animals.

Now here is hoping for a good week......

Am getting there...

Last night my good friend and I went to our little weight loss group we go to, we both weighed in, she lost 500grams, I stayed the same !!! She is now 300grams of her goal weight again. I am sooooooooo proud of her BUT at the same time I am so green with envy.

It could have been me to, but I eat my emotions...thus I am right back where I am now. I have been working so hard this week and was disappointed when the scales didn't move down BUT I will hang in there...I know I am losing inches as a lot of my clothes tell me so. We'll see what the scales say next week.
Next week I will cheering along with Deb as she reaches her goal weight....and she will be walking right along side me every day till I get to my goal again.

Weekend already and no.....

.......energy!!

My week has been bought to you by headaches, runny nose and coughs!
Could I PLEASE get some new sponsers...I am over these ones!!
I spent most of last weekend either in bed, or sitting here in my chair playing on here, or reading. I was feeling so yuk! As the week has gone on I have got better, thou I still have a headful of cold and a persistent cough.

I am still waiting to hear from the guy that came and did my last kitchen quote, was hoping to this week...will have to give him a ring on Monday if nothing heard. I really liked him, his idea's and hopefully his cost as I so want this new kitchen to be happening soon !

Kylee is ok, has her moments still. Has this weekend off and hopes to get a few more things packed up ready to move across. The house is yet to be put on the market...still waiting for Stephen to get that organised. The way things are going it looks as though she won't be here for awhile.

Mr troublesome one is having a birthday today....he is 29.
I thought with him losing his job and the mood he was in when he was out here with his kids a few weeks back that he might revert back to some of his old ways.....but so far he hasn't !!
Hubby and I bought him some tobacco & cigarettes for him as a birthday gift...as he hasn't been able to get his centerlink organised yet!

I have gone off the ww pro-points for the moment, and trying to just plan and track my food and NOT count points. So far it has been working....I am more relaxed, am eating well and the last 2 weighs in have shown a loss.
I also made a pledge NOT to eat chocolates or bikkies until the day we leave for the wedding....not ONE piece of chocolate OR a biscuit has passed my lips now for 16 days now...

I WILL fit into that dress for the wedding and wear it with a big smile on my face. I have only worn it once before ...and have not had the chance or been able to wear it since....

Not too much happening at the moment. Slowly working around the house getting a few things up-dated. My kitchen is next on the list...I had a quote from a guy last week and yesterday I had a second guy come in and measure up.  I really liked him and his idea's .... so kind of hoping his quote come in on my budget.  But just the same today I am looking around for another company and hoping to get a 3rd quote.  Once the kitchen is done it will saving up towards replacing the tiles on the floor with something different and then the whole house needs painting. The list goes on.....

Kylee is coping well...she sent me the little "life goes on"  verse and tells me she is going okay.  Says she gets lonely but the cat and dog help her out, espesially in the evenings. The dog sure does, its a puppy (a retreiverdor) and gets into all sorts of mischief. Its latest is chewing a hole through one of her walls...NOT IMPRESSED was Kylee!! The house is going up on the market very shortly so a quick repair will be done. Puppy only chews coz she is fretting Kylee seems to think as its only done when Kylee  is on night shift...and that will be changed soon as a request went in a few weeks ago to change her roster to all day shifts, at the moment she does 3 days, 2 nights...

I was hoping Kylee would be home by Christmas but it sure doesn't look like that will happen. She will be home though for one of her friends wedding in late November...counting down the days till then.

I am again getting my weight back on track...set  myself a target of getting back into a dress I love for the wedding. Go me !!!

Nature walk with grandies

On Saturday I had Shawn here for an access visit with 3 of his 4 kids...little Jaydene couldn't make the visit as she had gone on holidays with her carers. A bit peeved about that as school only finished on the Friday, they could have left on the Sunday surely knowing that Shawn only gets to see his kids once a month!!  Shawn was in a grump too..not just about Jaydene, but because he lost his job on Friday. He had obviously "used" as well as had a few drinks on the Friday as he was going on and on about the situation and was getting agitated. Geeeee hope he doesn'ty slide back into bad old habits....he has had things pretty much under control for close on a year now.
Saturday arvo, the grandies increased to 6 when Tanya bought out her and Paul's kids. Paul had gone out for his annual get together with the boys for the footy grandfinal and Tanya had to work so I had them.  The kids all played together very well and really though very noisy, very messy, were very well behaved.
Shawn packed up his very tired 3 kids at 5pm and they all left, which left me with the others. They wanted to go for a walk. What could I do but grab the camera and go for a walk.....
I can tell you I was one very weary "Jenna" at 6.15 when Tanya arrived to take the kids home.

Kylee is going okay. Her and Stephen had a very long chat on Saturday and Stephen told her the truth about why his feelings changed. It made sense to her (and me) but in hindsight (and he realises this) if he spoken to Kylee a few months back MAYBE it could have been resolved and none of this would have been happening.
Anyways she has applied to be transfered to a store close to home, hopefully that will happen....and she is also looking for a truck "backload" to get her furniture and belongings back here. Where I am going to store them yet, I am not sure. Will work that out when the time comes. 
mmmmmm she will also comes home with puppy...not a small one either....and one cat with mega attitude!!!

Its over....

Kylee and Stephen are over. Kylee asked Stephen if he could give an her a answer as to what his feelings towards her and their marriage was and he said he needed more time. Kylee said no, no more time and told him it was over and took off her wedding ring. Has asked him to sort out their finances, has requested a work transfer from Victoria to West Australia...she is coming home, as soon as its possible too.

Now, we wait and see.....

Kylee & Simone Louise...her (& Stephen's) god-daughter.

Yesterday I took Kylee back to the airport...
Stephen rang before we left home to say he would be home....and asleep in the spare bedroom when she arrived....she would not get home till after midnight.
Heck knows what the outcome of all this will be....it is very worrying to us...and Stephen's family too. Stephen has been going to councelling whilst Kylee has been here....lets hope it has done some good...
Kylee and I had a lovely day together yesterday, we drove up to Mandurah...had the bestest fish & chips I have eaten since forever...they were deeeeeeeevine.....then onto Perth where we caught up with a girfriend and had coffee & cake at Miss Maud's before taking her out to the airport for her flight home.
There is nothing more I can do now but be here for my girl when needed....and I am sure I am going to be.