pffffft a gain...

Bahhhh humbug…all my good intentions flew out the window on Christmas Day when Kylee rang me to say they would be down that day…and not Boxing Day as they had planned. I was beyond excited…couldn't stop smiling and well the eating followed. But I fronted up at my meeting today and faced the numbers…they weren't good, a 2.8  gain. Not a great way to end 2014…but next week is a new week and a New Year. Bring it on I say….only 75 days to go till we go cruising…hopefully with me at goal….

Pics were taken by the photographer I got for Garry and Kylee when William was born. My birthday present for William was having her take pics of William 1 year on…aren't they just great??

Merry Christmas.

A very quiet Christmas for us….
Paul and Tanya came out on Monday as they are going camping with Tanya's family.
Shawn, well who knows what he is doing….
Simon and Tracey are going down to his Dad's and Kylee and Garry will be on the road travelling down here today.
Most of the family will get together on the 27th for Williams birthday. 

Am off to my gorgeous niece's house for lunch, her twin brother and family will be there as well as a Aunt from the maternal side so that should be good. After lunch will be heading out to hubby's brother's for dinner….unless Kylee and Garry show up.

Tuesday's weigh was a stay the same….hoping this week will be the same…but it won't be if I don't hide the chocolate…

MERRY CHRISTMAS 

Day 32

This is a cropped pic of me, taken on my trip to Perth last week. That day feel like eons ago now. Its been go go go…what with work, shopping and trying to keep on top of the housework.  Plus having the stress of mil in hospital in Perth.  She is progressing so so slowly. She had skin grafts today which we didn't want her to have. Specialist/surgeons/doctors all told her it will help with the healing, but now she has had grafts taken off the thighs on both legs to deal with along with the ulcers. Worried much about her, she is after all 89 years old and was struggling with just the pain and discomfort of the ulcers!

Was meant to pick up some new glasses last week. Was called in to see them, but was told they would have to be sent back as they had left a ridge around the outside of the eyepieces. On trying them on you could see it…so hopefully this week I'll have them, be nice to have them for Christmas. 

Weigh was yesterday, a loss of 100g…not a lot but all those little numbers all add up. Its day 32 of my 100 day challenge…I feel good and committed. I have not had a gain since I started the challenge…and thats was part of the challenge to myself. 

Onwards…..

Day 25

 The above pics show me and my best friends Robyn (in green) and Carol on a day out in Perth. Rob lives 40 minutes from me in Mandurah so I drove up there and met her at hers and then we caught the train up to Perth to catch up with Carol and then spent the day shopping, yakking, yakking and more shopping. Gina,  another good friend of ours met up with us lunch. It was the best day. Amazing that we all get on so well together considering we all met on the weight watchers At Home board in 2005. But we do and have done so since we met. We have shared our ups and down with everything, not just our weight and make a point of getting together regularly. Rob and I being closer we meet up a bit more often. at least every 6 weeks.

Mumma Bear (Hubby's mum) in hospital still after yet another op on her leg. A real worry this all is, the ulcers are not getting any better…and mum's getting quite depressed about it. Mum is unsteady on her feet and has been for a while, and with the leg paining her constantly and not being able to put her weight on it she is getting unsteadier…finding it hard to even get herself off to the bathroom even with her walker. 

Now this little man is into everything. Up on the lounges now and climbing all over Daddy. He is walking more and more and even trying to run!!
I am on the countdown to Christmas when I see them again. 

Day 25 today of my challenge to myself and I am happy. Lost 400 grams on Tuesday at weigh in…and reached my 10k milestone. 
Last night I used some of my pro point "slush" fund as we had visitors so used them up with a few drinks and nibbles. A few low point days will balance it out. 
Onwards….

Feeling good.

 Little William has turned 11 months old…where has time gone. He is now finding his feet and toddles more and more each day, has hands on his feet and has learnt to climb. His Mummy and Daddy are very quickly learning that he is quick !!
We are counting down the days to Christmas so we can gather him (and his mummy) into our arms and give them a cuddle. We speak most everyday, I am lucky that Kylee shares just about everything that happens, all Williams little achievements, his like and dislikes. Through this Williams knows who I am, my voice and my picture (on FaceTime) so that bond is strong.

Work has been frantic, lots of extra hours due to extended shopping hours.  Its busy now so I shudder in horror just thinking about the last week before Christmas and the crowds in the shopping centre.

I thankfully have nearly finished my christmas present shopping. Am going to Perth on Friday with a girlfriend and meeting up with another close friend there….so hopefully I can get the last of what I need. Then next fortnight I can do my food shopping for Christmas and Williams 1st birthday party. 

Tuesday was weigh in…a whole kilo gone!! The week just flew bye and the 100 day challenge to myself seems to be working. I ate within my points allowance 4 out of the 7 days and between work and a few walks I managed to get heaps of steps in and lots of active minutes show up on my fitbit. 
I received my 10% and next week all I have to do is lose 400g and I will have lost 10 kilo's.  My goal to be near or at my goal weight by the end of the 100 days is looking good, yay!! 
I went well over points yesterday, I was craving a spinach, feta and sun dried muffin for my breakfast after weigh in…so I bought one. They are gi-normous but ohh so nice.  Usually I can't eat it all in one meal….but I did yesterday. Counting that has my oink oink moment for the week. 

Today is day 11

Today is day 11 of my challenge to myself….and I am going well.
Tuesday was weigh in day, lost 600g and was happy with that. Would have loved more of course, a kilo would have been nice then I would have reached my 10% but that means this week I will be doing my best to get that dratted 10%. Heck knows for the last month I have been so close yet so far from it!!

I had my granddaughter over for the weekend, such a delight to have. Took her out with her Daddy on Saturday morning after I picked her up so as she could spend her money that her Daddy and I both gave her for her birthday which was the day before…..then when her choices were made we went out for lunch. 

The only thing that took the edge of the weekend was son losing the plot and getting a 72 hour restraining order against him from his partner. Sometimes I wonder will that son of mine ever grow up!!!  He has his moments thats for sure. 

Anyways Skye had the best time and really didn't want to go home. 
On the way home we called in and saw her great-nanna (hubby's mum) who was delighted to see her. Mum is now in hospital up in Perth, we took her up yesterday afternoon as this morning she had to have a stent put in her leg to help her circulation and hopefully which will help her ulcerated leg heal. It was a very challenging day food wise but I made some great choices but maybe the portion sizes could have been smaller. 

This is our Skye after a shower and in the onsie that I bought for her. I had it in her Christmas stocking…but thought she could be a bit more spoilt while she was here. She loved it…I thought it was pretty funky myself. 

Challenging myself

100g's to go to get my 10% and what do I I? 
I stuff it up…by stuffing myself, thats what.
Had a few real bad days, and then couldn't get myself back on track….found excuses not too.  Why?? I don't know..there is a little devil in my mind that wants to indulge my appetite. Have it, go on its says…I have realised that I am back in a lifestyle and self confidence rut and taking some kind of solace in food.    Frustration much !!
Then we went to my nieces engagement party on last night and saw a pic of myself…OMG!!!
What a wake up call!! I saw what I really looked like, and it wasn't what I see in a mirror. Strange isn't it, I could see the weight I had lost and thought I was looking ok? Even though I have lost nearly 10k and quite a few centimetres I realise I have a long way to go before I am anywhere near what I want to look like again. Can kick myself for letting myself get like this again.
So I have given myself a 100 day challenge, a challenge to myself to do the best I can everyday, to be honest with myself, and to eat only what I need to eat.  Today is Day 1.
Tuesday is weigh in day…and yes I was going to weigh in so I knew what damage I have done to myself, but I have Fire Warden training at work that morning so will miss it.

Anyways will leave you with a few pics of the engagement party. 

Andrew and Serena.

Jim, Serena and Ted. Jim and my hubby Ted have been friends for 45 plus years. Serena is Ted's late brother's daughter. Was great to catch up with Jim and his wife Izzy.

The engagement cake which was designed by Serena's sister Mandy. 

The photo…me with hubbys brother Ben.

Another busy week...

My girl and her precious little William….just love this pic. 


Well another week has flown by….4 days of work, grocery shopping, organising the last of holiday in March (flights to Sydney and accommodation organised and payed for…and excursions in New Zealand booked and paid for too)
Visits to mil in hospital, washing, mending, cooking and freezing meals for quick meals and housework…..plus preserving peaches off our overloaded peach tree. No wonder I am tired.

This week have my nieces engagement party to go to and another 5 days of shifts to get through. 

Weigh in today…100grams lost.  Think lack of exercise and a few extra treats this week didn't help.  Next week maybe….hope so, only need a 10% to reach my 10%

Onwards….

Just a bit to go…..

And I will reach my 10%….
Weigh in today and with a loss of 700g I was delighted to see I am 200g from my 10%…its an awesome feeling.

 So this week with some patience, some planning, 100% tracking and some exercise I will face those "demon" scales next Tuesday confident that I have lost the 200g and made that 10%

Now these 3 are Caitlyn, Ashlee and Matthew all ready to go trick and treating. These are Paul's 3 munchkins and aren't they are growing up so darn quickly.  They live just down the road about 3 k's away and I think I see more of William who lives 1700k's ago than I do of them, I had to pinch these pics of Facebook.  No major conflict with us…sometimes life just get to darn busy for us all I think. 

Not much happening...

nom nom, I like yogourt

banana and watermelon

Mummy…I don't think I like watermelon

I am 10 months old now


Not much is happening in the world of Jen. Its work, work and more work….relief shifts are happening again while someone else goes on leave. But I need the $'s so its all good.
Tuesday was weigh in day….lost 400g so lost half of what I gained last week. Why is that its so easy to gain and yet so hard to lose? Think if I remember how hard it to lose weight I would remember not to do anything to gain???

Anyways…on to my most favourite subject at the moment….my sweet William. he turned 10 months old the other day. Pics are all I will have of him till Christmas and thats when he turns 1 year old. 

A few bad days...

I saw this today and just had to take a deep breath and soldier on .
The weather has just been so miserable, its gone from beautiful cheery sunny days to cold, wet and miserable. The colder days have seen me go from yummy filling salads with fresh fish to slow cooked curries and lamb shanks with potato's…and bread. I just have had a couple of "bad" days where I have had binges…looking for food just for warmth and comfort. I was even thinking of not going to my weigh in on Tuesday knowing I haven't had a good week and could get a gain. BUT I will go and take it on the chin…because I HAVE NOT given up!!

And to keep me from going down the road to a 3rd bad day is this pic of my happy little man. Mummy moved the couch to clean and look Mummy I found a blue m & m ….thanks mummy it was yummy …...

I faced some challenges….

My dad.

 But I sucked them up and moved on. One of them challenges was not to eat my emotions. Last Friday Kylee, Garry, twins and William came down and spent the night. Kylee, Garry and William had a marvellous holiday and weren't looking forward to the long drive back home on Saturday. They made the most of their last few days by spending time with the twins and us. 
I am not a fan of cooking, but entertaining people, even family, I enjoy. Making weight watcher friendly meals and desserts for others I enjoy especially when the plates are emptied and complimented on. 
Saturday was hard saying bye to them all as they headed off. It was also the anniversary of my Dads death, always a hard day for me. 
I found the strength to occupy myself and keep right out the way of food. 

And the scales rewarded me today for challenging myself. weigh in today showed a 900 gram loss. I feel as though I am getting somewhere now. Hopefully with another good week next week Icould reach my 10% …. but I will see what this week brings.

And to finish up…here's my cute lil man….roll on Christmas when I hope to see him again. I am lucky Kylee keeps me updated very frequently with new pics of him and his achievements. 

A little gain...

Tuesday again…and that means weigh in day.

Was hoping for a loss…but it was not to be…a 300gram gain.

I had prop-points left over for the week, did over my 12,000 steps everyday bar one day so guess it means I will have to work a little harder. I made Boston Beans with chorizo sausages for dinner for us last night…very very yummy, very high in pro points too…..mmmmm maybe I can blame that for my little gain..

Definitely going to make Boston Beans again, but think will make it with bacon instead, be a heap lower in points. 

Kylee, Garry and William are having the best time at the Gold Coast. Above are a few pics of them and my little man over there.  They have had a blast of a time at the the theme parks. And today they went to the Australian Zoo. Tomorrow is their last day there, they fly home Thursday. So looking forward to seeing them again before they have to head home.

Was hoping at Christmas time to go see them and of course celebrate Williams 1st birthday..but I was too late in requesting time off. I can get 4 days off…but its a days drive there and back so it will be too much. Kylee and Garry have requested time off, so lets hope they can get it and they can come down, Fingers crossed.

Early start in the morning so its off to bed for me..

Moving on...

This little fella was 9 months old a few days ago. On Sunday  they overnighted here and I got the pleasure of watching all his new achievements since I saw him last. He crawls and climbs and just loves checking himself out into every shiny little thing….like my stainless steel bin to my glass sliding door. I have lots of drool and dribble to clean up.
Mummy and Daddy have taken the little man on a holiday to the Gold Coast for 9 days….so I'll see him on their return before they head off back to their home and work….

They bought these gorgeous little ones down for the overnight visit too. Jaz and Alex turned 5 on the 22nd September. What cuties they are….and they love their little brother, spoil him rotten they do.

We went and picked up hubby's 89 year old mum and bought her out for dinner that night so she could see Kylee, Garry, Jaz, Alex and William. William just loved his great-nanna…and Mum thought he was just adorable. William seemed to realise that mum was frail and just sat on her and didn't jump up and down. It was just beautiful to watch.

Anyways…after my downer of a week last week, I managed to regroup and get myself on track. Weigh in today showed a 100g loss. My leader showed me a graph on her computer today when I told her how I was exasperated with how slow the weight was coming off. Its 5 months exactly since I rejoined weight watchers and in that time I have lost 8 kilo's. That roughly works out at 300grams loss a week. 
So, its just over 5 months to our cruise so if I can loose another 8 kilo's in that time I will sitting on my goal weight. How could is my leader? She sure bought a smile to my face…..soooooo its onwards and downwards...

A Down Day

Its been one of those days today. It started okay…up and off to work early, cleaning before 6am this morning. Bad weather was predicted, and that came rolling in by 9am keeping me busy keeping floors clean and dry.

Home at 12 lunchtime…a coffee and a chat with hubby. Had some lunch….and then it started. I just couldn't stop eating….cravings big time. I have eaten everything and everything, just couldn't seem to satisfy my hunger.

So today has been wiped…going to pull myself together, and have a good nights sleep and remember tomorrow is another day.

There will be no way in on Tuesday…going to have a no weigh. 

Growing…..

Look who is growing like a weed…
William has just turned 8 months and already he is climbing up on everything and standing up and pushing everything and anything around the house…
Thankfully Kylee sends pics/video's of every little achievement so I don't miss out on anything. Can't wait to see them all again. Hopefully at the end of this month, they are heading down and spending a few days with the twins before flying to the Gold Coast for a weeks holiday. If we don't see them then, will see them on their return.
Then it will be Christmas before we see them..and Christmas means William turns 1 year old. Unfortunately not knowing what we were doing for Christmas this year, I didn't ask for any time off. Few other people have so I now can't get time off other than the days I don't work. And it may mean I will have to do a few extra shifts. Luckily Kylee thinks she and Garry will be able to come down here…..fingers crossed they can.

Been having some beautiful weather here, some gorgeous spring days. All the wildflowers are coming out on our block

Heaps of orchids this year, even have found a few new ones, ones I have not seen before, can't wait for them to open up so I can take some pics.

Off to go start some dinner now, just finished a couple of loads of washing so my day off tomorrow can be exactly that…a day off.

Weigh in on Tuesday, a very pleasing 1 kilo loss…onwards and hopefully this week I can have another good loss. 

Another stay the same….

I upped the exercise, I counted pro points honestly…was totally on track for 6 of 7 days and hopped on the scales at my meeting this morning….and darn it saw another stay the same.
I know I shouldn't be disappointed BUT I am!! Was ready to go buy a block of chocolate, or a big serve of fish and chips but what is that going to achieve but more disappointment next week. And I am not a quitter…I have to keep going. I didn't put this weight on overnight..so I guess I not going to lose it overnight either. Just feeling mighty frustrated that its its not coming off just a little quicker than what it is.
Patience Jen….just have to remember last weeks post and all those little bits add up to a lot.
So….onwards to next week. 

This little man always brings a smile to my face.
So happy Kylee keeps these pics coming, it feels as though we not missing out. He is 8 months old now…geeeee where has time gone. Little imp is pulling himself up on everything and standing on his feet….won't be long and he'll be up and running. 

Little by little

Ashlee, Caitlin, Matthew with William.

 Our eldest Paul, his partner Tanya and their kids have been on holidays for the last 7 weeks, They left here and headed off to Central Australia, stopping at Ayres Rock, Alice Springs, katherine, Darwin and every other little place in between. They met up with Tanya's mum and her partner at Kununnura and travelled the Gibb River Road stopping and exploring the sights. It is a trip we did a few years back so know how much they have enjoyed it. The kids have had a blast.
The other day they stopped off for a few hours and spent time with Kylee and their little nephew/cousin.

Yesterday was weigh in day….and another loss for me. Only 200grams off but I'll take it. Was of course hoping for more,  but all those little bits add up to a lot. 
I think its just over 25 weeks before we head off on our cruise and if I lose 200g every week till then I will be very close to where I want to be.  
Onwards onto another week….