Thanks....

Just wanted to say thank you to all those that responded to my last post. I didn't expect you all too as I was just getting it off my chest....but I appreciate the kind thoughts, I really do.

Shawn, my son, is when using cannabis a very "self centred", a real "woe is me" person with physcotic tendencies. You never know what he is going to do or say. Been lucky that he has never physically harmed anyone but he has shown that he is more than capable of it thou. Have been lucky he does show his love for his partner Hannah and his little girls, he cares for them...he really does but he needs the cannabis more than them it seems. He knows he hurts all his family and he admits it to us quite freely but will he do something about it......who knows? He has done it once before...and I live in hope he can again.

Went in and helped them move last night.....they have moved in with friend...but apparently they have cleaned up .... gee they would have had to....yuk it was filthy!!! Anyways got a cuddle of little Jaydene....isn't she a cutie...??

Was off to the funny farm today. For those that don't know, I work on a market garden where they grow carrots, potato's and onions...and soon broccolli. Can be a bit of a dirty job at times ..... have a look at the other pic. I had to grade all the rubbish out of the onions that were just harvested...what a "grot" ehhhhhhh? You should see me after a full day....that was just a few hours....Just as well I don't mind getting dirty........

ooohhhhhhhh I weighed in last night....and was very surprised to find I lost 300 grams. I have joined in The At Home Easter Challenge...to see if I can get under my goal weight by Easter. Only 2.6 kilo's to go now....but have yoyo' ed so many times and hoping the challenge will help me to stay focused.

What a day...

Sometimes I wonder how much I should write on here...but I figure heck its my blog, its my feelings and sometimes if I don't write down my feelings I would go absolutely spare!! And today has been one of those days where the day has gone from good to bad, too bloody awful, tearful, end of tether then back again... I need my friend Wendy..the good little witch with her magic wand to work some magic and make things right.

The day started fine with a great sleep in and a cuppa bought to me in bed by hubby. Got up and washed the car, had a lovely chat with Berrie on the phone then went on into town to catch up with my son, to cuddle little Skye and bubby Jaydene. Son is so troubled, stressed out and not in a good mood at all. Silly him is still doing drugs (cannabis) and I just can't make him realise how much more agitated and moody it makes him. That family has enough troubles without him carrying on like this! They were at the Salvation army crisis care house but moved out last night to a friends house. I went there this morning when I found out they had moved and I was in tears....the unit is FILTHY...Its no place for my little girls, but what can I do??? They can't come here, son and hubby don't get on, hubby won't forgive him after a very nasty and unforgiving argument and if I could help them and let them stay they get taken off the Homeswest priotity list. And they are on the bottom of that list because they own a vechile and son has work..so that means he is not in desperate need. They have been trying for months now to get a rental...even a caravan, but the housing shortage here is severe..there are so many homeless people, it is not good at all. I am in turmoil, I feel as thou I have let them down as I can't help them, I know the system has let them down !!

Just wish I could get throu to son, or someone could. Kylee tried while she was here, they used to be so close, but he wouldn't listen to her either. Why can't he remember how happy, relaxed and healthy he was after he rehabilated 18 months or so ago??? Why can't he remember all the lessons he learnt there?? Why did he have to use again...whyyyyyy?? So many whys, and so few answers...don't think son can answer them either.

I wish my Dad or brother were still around...I could talk to them about anything and everything and days like these I wish they were still here. I have other friends I know I can talk too, I know I am not alone, but I don't like to burden them with this.. writing it all down like this does help. Ohhhhhh I wish, I wish...

I know this thou....I HATE DRUGS.....

Welllllllll I have just have come back from a long walk, it felt good to just chill out and let the world go by. Now its dinner time...a tuna bake, a early night where I hope I can get some sleep...then its off out fishing tomorrow...eeeeeeeek better go get out my seasick pills and leave them where I can see them to take with my coffee in the morning...

My girl ....

Flew back to Victoria tonight......I miss her already......

Looks like I'll have to start saving my "pennies" again for another trip to see her as she won't be back home again until April 2008.....

See you when I see ya sweets....

Happy Birthday Jessica

My eldest grandaughter Jessica turned 5 yesterday....wowwwwww isn't she growing up fast. She is sooooooo excited as she can now start pre-school this year!! Sometimes I wonder where the time goes...it goes by so quickly.

Happy Birthday my darling girl......

We weighed in ...

I weighed in tonight and had a loss of 500g....am happy with that !! Kylee had a gain...her first since starting ww, but she has been here on holidays and hasn't been good this past week.. lots of catching up with friends, and no excersise. My girl flies back to Victoria on Wednesday...ohhhh gonna miss her..."sob sob"

Well and truly over the dreaded lurgy...and back into the walking and practising the hula hoop. Try the hula hoop..it is sooooo good for the tummy. Ohhhhh and if you get a hula hoop, get the water weighted one...a heaps better work out !!

Had the lurgy....

Have had a dose of the lurgy....thanks Rae, must have got it when I visited your blog and gave you a get well hug !!! Didn't want it thou....but seem to be over the worst of it all now. Today for the first time this week...I walked, yayyyyyy... it felt good to be out again. If nothing else the lurgy has kept me really focused and on track .... who feels like eating when your're sick and can't keep anything down anyways?? But since recovering I seem to have found my wagon and climbed back on ready to roll onwards and downwards yet again!!! Want to see if somehow I can get over this fear of goal that I seem to have and get down there and stay there.....

To everyone that has visited my blog and left comments since Jaydene's birth.....I would like to say thanks to each and everyone of you for the best wishes. Jaydene is coming along fine now...much to our relief. She is feeding well and gaining weight...will keep you all updated on her progress, along with "Jenna's" other little 8 darling's.

Update....

Tonight I weighed in for the first time since 11/12/06 and it was as I expected ... a gain !! My first weigh in for the New Year sees me starting at 71.4....a gain of 2.2 !! I was expecting it, more actually, but it's my own fault...I should be ashamed of myself!!! Even though I have excersised most days and drank water by the gallons my food choices have not at all been the best. But now I know what my bad choices have done I can kick my butt into gear and move onwards and downwards again.....

By the way Kylee weighed in with me tonight too....and she had a LOSS of 300 grams....yayyyyyyy !!!

Went to the hospital tonight and took Skye to see her mummy and little sister. Jaydene is coming along fine now after our scare with her last night. She is a gorgeous little bub ... she has sure captured her Jenna's heart, just like the other 8 grandies before her have.

Pics were taken tonight ....

Bub has arrived....

Sheezeeeeeeeee I was wrong again.....It's a girl.....

Jaydene Rose Marie was born 9.30am this morning. She weighed in at 8lb 8.5 ozs, 50cm long. Mum, Dad, and big sister Skye all great.

Sitting here pondering.....

yeaa, yeaa I know that could be dangerous......hehehe

But honestly....am sitting here thinking/pondering about the past year. It bought menopause (its sux!!) my 50th and my daughters 21st birthdays (wooohooo what a party we had) another grandchild (Thomas) a Eagles grandfinal win (yeehaaaa!!!) a tornado go through just missing my house by a few hundred metres (eeekkkkk very scary)....just to name a few things.

But I will remember 2006 mostly for the friendships I made through ww meetings and the forums online. I have more friends now than I have ever had. Some I have even travelled to meet and can't wait too meet again...

These friends mean the world to me and have been so supportive and encouraging as I struggle my way to goal. I could not have got as far as I have without them.

ohhhhh yeaaaa no bub yet.....lost another bet ......sheeeeeeeeeeeeez !!!

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to one and all...may your 2007 be filled with happiness.

No bub born as yet.....still waiting.....

Christmas is over.....

boyyyyyyyy did I have fun.......

I had just as much as the grandies (only had 5 of them here)... I even played on toys I gave 'em !!!

I ate way too much, and having troubles still controlling the nibblies.... feel as thou I have put on heaps of weight, I feel bloated, but have kept the water and excersise up at least....

I don't weigh myself at home, only use the ww meetings ones...so have no idea what damage I may have done.

Am now waiting for granbaby #9 to make its appearance.....due this weekend sometime hopefully.....all of us waiting for the phonecall....any bets on a after midnight call on New Years Eve?? I lost my bet...I really thought it would be born yesterday or today....could have got out of work then too...hehehehe

ohhhh I betting on a boy....eeeeeeeeeeeeeekkk could I be wrong there too???

Just wanted to wish one and and all

a Very Merry Christmas....

I am nearly ready....been running around most of the day cleaning house and getting food organised, wrapping the last of the pressies as first thing in the morning I am off to Perth to pick daughter Kylee up for her first Christmas at home with her family since she left 3 years ago.....yayyyyyyy. It is going to be a surprise...I only just told hubby today she was coming home...but none of the other family members do...

Everyone have a great day, be happy, take care and be safe .....

Tired......

Work has been so busy of late...the weather has been hot and humid ... and I have been so tired. Been a few nights where I have had very little sleep...even one night found me out sitting at the kitchen bench with cuppa and the bikkies reading...
I have forgotten to take medication a few mornings before going to work and I guess that hasn't helped ..... and lack of sleep and the humidity has made me cranky......but it is the eating I am worried about. Am great during the day, everything is planned but in the evenings I am falling into real bad habits again and I know it and not stopping myself. Even my walking has been slack because I am tired....
Roll on Friday and the last day of work for 4 whole days.....yayyyyyyyyy

I got seasick.....

Went out fishing on Sunday with hubby and boy did I suffer......Ted reckoned I was soooooooooo green!!! I love my fishing espesially out in the boat but unfortunately 9 times out of 10 if the ocean has a bit of a swell on it and the boat starts rocking my tummy starts churning and thats it for me......

I have now bought some "Travacalm" tabs to see if they are going to help me....will try them out over the chrissy break. I love my boat and my fishing..more so when the fish are biting of course....so I'll be out there again..

Didn't weigh in tonight....and the next 2 Mondays are public hols (Xmas day and New Years Day) so think maybe I will have to go to a meeting in Bunbury on another evening,,,,just to keep me on track.

My daughter Kylee weighed in tonight in Doncaster.....yayyyyyyy she lost 900grams....thats 3 kilo's in 3 weeks....good on ya girl....

Smiling again ....

I am feeling better.....sort of got myself together again, walked for 50 minutes this morning and have been trying to make wise food choices, not always with success but I feel heaps better. Last night we had drinks after work and the choices were very easy to make as my boss and his wife and my workmates have watched me "shrink" before their eyes this year... they (my boss and his wife) have converted to the WW lifestyle. ...so all food and drinks were diet, low cal or healthy. They all helped me realise what an awesome effort I have achieved this year....it was the shakeup I needed, they sounded so proud of me. My friends online have been sooooo supportive of me too these last few days and have been helping me try to stay positive....but the boost from my peers put things in a different perspective...and made me smile again. ohhhhhhh by the way my boss has lost 9 kilo's and his wife has lost 13......and they thank me for making them realise how easy it is to change their lifestyle habits.

Christmas is just around the corner.....now my goal is to keep on smiling, stay positive ..... and to keep on maintaining my weight till the New Year .....then goal will be mine. Despite the emotional rollercoaster rides my son sends me on I will succeed...eventually I will...I have promised myself that and I am stubborn so I WILL succeed.

Can't help myself.....

....I can't stop eating.....I am binging at night....eeekkkkkkkkkk!!!! Talk about self sabotage....It's my good friend comfort food...CHOCOLATE!!!

Bad Jen !!!!

Have had major problems with son going off the rails and been all churned up inside but I thought I had been handling my emotions quite well.....obviously not!! A lot of the problems with son have been resolved but there is STILL a long way to go there yet...a long way!!!! I am sitting here this morning feeling absolutely drained...I cannot find the energy to walk...

Going to try to be like my friend Bugs here and eat healthy....at least I work in the right place.....

Good news, Bad news...

Well the good news is my daughter joined ww when I was over there and she is going soooooooo well. She sms'ed me tonight with the news of a 1.6 k loss....awesome my girl.

Now me.......shucks...I gained 500 g at my weigh in tonight but I expected to see a difference in between my ww scales and Victorian ones...so wasn't disappointed. Was happy though that in the 2 weeks I was away I lost a kilo on my weigh in scales....so gotta be happy with that!! Still a 60's girl.....

Sooooo what do you think of the pic of me and my girl....I love it!! Berrie took it when I took Kylee out to meet her and to say cyaaaa before I left. Carol and Berrie says she looks like me....I can only see the smiles the same...but whatever, I love her to bits.

Met TinyDonna

TinaDonna drove down to Geelong after her ww meeting last Saturday, picked me up in her gorgeous little yellow car and we drove out to Berrie's. Wowwwwwwww it was so good meeting her too, and yep she is Tiny. She has the biggest gorgeous smile....and is a real supermodel ... Go Donna...and thank you ....

Meeting Berrie....

One of my main highlights of the trip has been meeting my good friend, my support, my encouragement, my rock ... Berrie. She has followed my journey, been there through my tears, my cries and all the highs and lows and helped keep me going. And she has also offered the same support to my daughter Kylee has she begins her journey....
Thank you darl......

Meeting Maria

Maria and I have been in contact for nearly all my ww journey and has been a great friend and support to me.....so it was great to finally meet my friend in person. Maria is also going to be a support for daughter Kylee if needed. Thanks Maria...

Pics of holiday

These pics were taken on the Friday when I picked up my little red hire car. One of our first trips was to the Botanical Gardens where we walked for over 3 hours.....It was so worth seeing, absolutely beautiful. Kylee and her boyfriend enjoyed it too even though they both had been there before.

Getting there......

Wooooohoooooooo went to meeting here in Doncaster again....and yay lost 300g, so only 700 grams to go!!! How close is that ehhhhh? Will now be able to get to goal at my own meetings, hopefully in the next week or so if I stay focused. My daughter joined up last week and this week lost 700 grams, yayyyy go girl. Her boyfriend joined up last night, so it will be great that they will be doing ww together. Tammi, the leader, is great too, so enthusiasic and upbeat.

I have had a great week....to start off I met the lovely miamaria from the forums, was lovely Maria, I enjoyed meeting you, as did Kylee. And Kylee will keep in touch Maria....

Then I went off down the coast to Geelong...where I drove out from to meet my lovely friend Berrie.......wowwwwwww it was lovely to finally meet someone who has helped, supported, encouraged and offered unbelievable friendship to me. We chatted and chatted, and took pics...and chatted some more. Berrie is looking really great and is so small. And yes Carol, gave her lots of hugs, enough hugs for both of us.

Then on Saturday TinyDonna drove down, picked me up and we went out to Berri's again....what a lovely lovely day we had. Donna is absolutely gorgeous and is looking so good, and tiny ... and her smile is sooooo beautiful!!

Today Kylee came down to Geelong on the train and we went out and Kylee met Berrie, and I was able to say byessssss to her before we drove back to Melbourne.

Girls it was awesome meeting you all...

And everyone...I fly home on Wednesday, I will update blog with all the great pics I took...

Holiday weigh in .....

Went to a meeting here near where my daughter lives as I wanted to keep everything the same as I would be if I was home. I have been watching what I eat, been drinking plenty and excersing heaps....plenty of walking involved in shopping !!!! hehehe

Anyways so glad I did....I lost 1.2 and now have only 1 kilo to go to goal..... In a way I hope I don't lose the kilo this week as I want to get to goal at home....but nothing, nothing can wipe the grin off my face at the moment. I'm glad I have relaxed and just done whats had to be done....yeaaaaaaaa Jen's version of no count has been my salavation...wooooohoooooooo !!!!!

No more sleeps

Taking off in the next hour or so....ohhhhhhh I am so excited. Tonight I will be cuddling my darling daughter Kylee.

Had coffee this morning with my friend Rach (Rachie06 on the forum) We used to go to the same WW meeting when we had the Saturday mornings. Rach is doing so well, has lost of over 10 kilo's and is looking good.

Will be going to WW meetings in Doncaster just to keep me on track...now I am down to my lowest weight again I want to enjoy my holiday but to stay focused too and too try and maintain this weight.

Two sleeps to go.....

Yep....only two sleeps to go and I off to Melbourne and my darling daughter....

Weighed in tonight....and yep Jen's version of "no count" is still working...I lost .5 Now to maintain while on holidays, eeeeeeeeeekkk!!!

Carol, (vegemite) did these pics of me up and emailed me the results.....wowwwwwwwww have I changed that much??? The christmas one was taken in 2004 when I must have been at my heaviest ( 105kg) I started WW in September last year at 95 kg and Carol took the other when we met during my lunch break last week....

Still Counting Down

One less sleep.....3 sleeps to go now till I fly to Melbourne.

Today we had a family gathering to have an early birthday for Skye who turns 3 years old on Tuesday...
We face painted, and played games...and generally just had a couple of hours of fun with everyone.
Tomorrow it's back to work...last day until I get back from Melbourne.....

Counting down..........

Had my hair done today as I heading off to Melbourne on Wednesday arvo to spend some time with my darling daughter......
and I going to meet my wonderful friend Berrie......
and the delightful Donna.......
and hopefully catch up with Maria and Janinne too....


COUNTING DOWN........................

Jen's week.....

Tuesday.....I went off to work at the "funny farm" and found myself out in the paddock on the potato harvester. Hard yakka out there....made me wonder why I made the effort to to do a 45 minute walk ..... no wonder at the end of the day I was soooooooo tired.

Wednesday...on the harvester again. Found a new walk track...a good 50 minute one. Very interesting, lots of wild geese with their little goslings...very cute!

Thursday...Yayyyyyyy the highlight of my week....I met Vegemite in my lunch break as she and her hubby travelled past on there way further down south on a few days holiday. We met up at the roadhouse over the road from my work and had a cuppa and had a chat. Loved it Vege....mwahhhhh thanks.

Friday....The end of my working week.....phewwwwwwwwww thank heavens. My son 'went of the rails" that evening and had me very distressed. For the first time in forever I shared my emotions with a friend. I rang Berrie and even though the call was brief I was able use the comfort in her kind words and find strength. Thanks darl for being my friend and being there for me.

Saturday....My mum come up for the day to do some chrissy shopping. Ohhhhh boy, I'd rather take all 8 of my grandies than her......she kept disappearing. Quite often I found myself talking to myself and mum nowhere in sight !! Ohhhhh but it was great catching up again....

Sunday....ahhhhhhh son Simon and his partner bring their 4 kids around for a play and catch up with Pop and Jenna.. Little Thomas is just growing so fast, love cuddling him...

Monday....weigh in night...and Jens version of "no count" maintaining is working...lost 1.6

Yoyo......

Yup....thats me...a darn yoyo. Up, down, up, down up !!! A gain this week of.9 so am back in the 72's again. My leader and I went throu my journals and passport and I have not done anything but yoyo between 72.9 and 70.2 since July.
I know I have problems with menopause, thyroid and family stress....but hey can't blame it all on that!

Plateau says my leader....
Perserverence says my leader...

Now the plan is not to lose...not to gain .....but MAINTAIN !!!


So I will perservere and keep on going....I will not give in, I want goal and I will get there eventually.