Weight…..I’m on 2nd week of watching what I eat instead of eating what I like when I feel like and I’m starting to feel better for it. Not following any program, just eating sensibly and not over indulging. Hopefully reflux will settle down more, I’m still getting some oesophageal spasms but I start a new medication tomorrow. I have rejoined new challenge on my online weight loss group which starts on the 1st of August…hope I don’t self sabotage myself.
I have heard from Centrelink that as of end of August I can retire. But as we don’t travel far in the summer I am going to keep working but only one day a week…or maybe 3 days a fortnight depending on how much I can earn before it affects our pensions payments.
Soooooooooo hopefully I can get my shit together and stop my binge eating that I’m doing atm and lose some weight. I went to my Dr and had a good long talk with her about my health, my weight and aches and pains. She sent me off to the “vampires” where I had a whole heap of blood taken and I now have a follow up appointment scheduled for next week. Hopefully Doc has some answers for me. She has helped out before with my diet and we did have some success. Maybe we can again…let’s see what my blood results show. Maybe I just need thyroid medication changed,,,who knows. I know my attitude does. I know I’m not going to lose weight if I don’t try. I can’t keep up with this “hit and miss” attitude I have and the yo-yoing weight can’t be good either.
I just can’t afford to be fat and uncomfortable, I want to enjoy my life after work. I want to be happy in my skin, I want to be able to climb, hike, and travel in comfort. But nothing will work unless I work at it.
Onwards……
Once upon a time, many years ago now I used to be happy with my weight. After I got to my goal weight in 2005 for 4 or 5 years I managed to keep it off once I settled 6 kilo’s above it…but gradually over the years it has yoyo’ed up and down. More up than down I must say. I’ve tried weight watchers, 5:2, intermittent fasting, keto, shakes …… you name it, I’ve tried it. Yep, they work, but I can’t work with them. I end up crashing and burning, bingeing and hating myself and starting the procedure all over again. It’s me, I sabotage myself. And it’s wearing me down so much as the weight is starting to affect my health. I don’t want that, retirement is close and I want to get out there and enjoy my life, travel with hubby and do things together. We had the best 2 weeks away and I want more of that, but not have to struggle with limitations due to my weight.
Had the best 2 weeks away…we didn’t want to come home. It rained during the last few days but that didn’t dampen our spirits.
These are just a few pics.
I am taking a break from weighing in. I am over dieting, counting points, counting calories, fasting…. I’m sick of the whole merry go round I’ve put myself on. I’m over it….I keep self sabotaging myself, then think what the heck, over eat, hate myself and go back “dieting”
I AM DONE
I’m giving myself a rest.
Today I started packing my bag for our holiday. Found out all my fat comfy clothes, I’m going to enjoy this break. We leave Friday. I work Monday to Thursday so only have Sunday to finish getting myself organised. I work tomorrow morning, go home, get changed, drink a coffee then I have Williams soccer game to go too, and then I’ll do the rest of our shopping.
Got a message from Centrelink the other day, August 20th I start getting the “aged” pension….I can officially retire from work if I want too. I apparently can earn $320.00 a fortnight without my pension being effected so till we organise my retirement holiday next year I will organise to only work 3 shifts a fortnight from that date.
Right….time to go shower and organise myself for my early morning shift.
What a trip it was….5 days there meeting all hubby’s radio friends in person. Then on to LA, then Alaska before cruising the Inside passage to Vancouver, meeting a longtime Facebook friend there before flying to London. Would I do it again…..hell yes!!! So much there we didn’t do that we would like to do….but don’t know if we will get there again. Next in line is New Zealand, done day trips at a few places our cruise ship stopped in, but hopefully next time we’ll hire a camper van and go touring.
Today, weigh in day. Down 400grams. Last few days of WW, I’ve dropped the membership for the time being, was just wasting my money. See what I can do without it. Still have 3 kilo to go to get to my lowest weight I achieved before losing the plot.
Went to Williams soccer game. Played defence and wow he was good!! He reckons it’s his favourite position to play.
Right, I’m out of here. Been a glorious day, calm before the storm I think as tomorrow a big front is coming in and bring thunderstorms. I’ve washed today so better go and get it off the line.
Catch you next time.
A wet and cold miserable day here today.
Was going to go to William’s soccer game today but after a bad night I was tired and not up to it. Was a away game and it being cold and wet I decided against it. Apparently they had an epic game and even managed to score a goal. Not bad for a team of under 9 boys, 95% of them never played the game before!!
I’m disappointed now that I missed it.
Just over 2 weeks to go and I’m off work and on leave. So looking forward to it. Shawn and Skye will be here to feed the cat, chooks and ducks.
Skye is working 3 or 4 shifts a week at my work place doing the night clean. Not over keen about it but looking forward to her first pay 💰 I was very surprised that she even took the job, she is as lazy as but watching her do her work it was good to see her do an amazing job.
My online weight loss group does “rounds” every 3 months. Last one was 1st February to end of May. I lost 1.6 kilo’s. New round started on 1st May and will end end of July. I weighed in Saturday with a nearly 2 kilo gain 🐖😞 I’m so over myself. I’ve cancelled WW, I’m paying monthly for nothing, I’m sabotaging myself time and time again. I need to get my head in the right space and for the millionth time start again.
I WILL NOT QUIT.
So….after I wrote post last week I continued on being a real 🐖 🐷 for a few days before I finally got my act together. OMG those scales of mine weren’t happy with me at all. But I did keep it together and got most of the weight off….then can you believe it ate myself silly over the weekend. 😞🤷♀️
Sunday was the local fair so we took the kids, more food, more yummies….but I woke up this morning all ready for a day on track and as writing this tonight…stayed on track.
Nope, I ain’t a quitter, one day I will succeed again…..
Easter means chocolate. Chocolate = big gain.
Big gain = throw the scales away and eat more chocolate.
I’m disgusted with myself and yet I still eat.
To be continued next week…
First up….weighed in Saturday morning, a 100g down. Since weigh in I’ve eaten everything I shouldn’t have. Hot cross buns and chocolate galore….I’ve made a real pig of myself. Why can’t I just have a taste of something and be happy? Nahhhh not me, I’m not happy till I scoffed the damn lot!!! Then go….why did I do that??? Stupid that’s what it is. Holiday coming up in June, remember the goal I made for myself in June, well that isn’t going to happen now is it?
Holiday in June, yep that’s still happening, though the goal I set for it isn’t! It was very doable but I keep eating and haven’t achieved much yet 😙😚But Easter is done, and there is still the rest of this month and all of May to go yet soooooo let’s see what happens.
Now my cough/cold/reflux….. The cough is still happening, not as frequent but I’m coughing. Still have slight sniffles….but they only seem to happen when I wear my mask. I’m booking another appointment to see or talk to my Doctor.
Yesterday I got to see my gorgeous little great granddaughter….isn’t she just the cutest?
Brrrrr cold front has come through today and it’s been wet and cold all day. If this keeps up the fire will soon be lit. I love sitting by a lovely warm wood fire on a cold night.
Luckily the rain stayed away last night. It was my nieces (by marriage as she married my nephew) 40th birthday party last night….her birthday was a few weeks ago but due to Covid restrictions was unable to have party till last night. And that enabled her to celebrate with her eldest child, her son Thomas who was celebrating his 16th 🥳
It was a lovely night catching up with family and friends. Yummy snacks, yummy dinner and even yummier cake. Yep, I indulged 🐖🐖. Actually yesterday I was a real little piggy all day. 🐷 I never intended it to happen, but hubby and I had a real relaxing day at home by ourselves so we ended up eating and drinking whatever whenever.
Anyways I tracked all yesterdays treats and I’m big time minus on my ww app, but today I’m back on track and hopefully I can say thataway.
I’ve been remembering my brother today. He was tragically killed in a accident in 1979. He was only 27. I am the 3rd child born, he was the 2nd, the 2 in the middle of 4. We were close and even after all this time I miss him. Actually the party last night was his family, Crystal would have been his daughter in law, and Thomas his grandson.
Ohh lost 500 grams. How I don’t know, I’m still not recovered. Antibiotics did nothing, though in saying that my cough is not as frequent.
It’s been a very long week. I worked Monday to Thursday and I really struggled through all 4 shifts. They are only 4 hours but believe me when you feeling crappy those 4 hours go forever.
I’m still struggling. I had a phone consult with my Dr and was prescribed some antibiotics but I’m still coughing and snuffly. Even though I’m better than what I have been I’m still not feeling good at all. I’m tired, grumpy and emotional and yep eating all those feels.
So this mornings weigh in, which I seriously debated with myself about doing, showed a 1.1 gain……I suppose it could have been worse 😒😟☹️😫
The rate at which I’m going I’ll never loose this dratted weight.
And I’m beginning to wonder if I’m ever going to feel better 😏
Right, this week I’m still battling the flu, a bad cough and stiffly snuffly nose. And no….it’s not Covid. I’ve tested and I’m negative. So this past week I’ve either felt like not eating, or I’ve been over eating 😏😑
The scales….a stay the same.
I was hoping to catch up with another old school friend on Thursday. Anne flew over from Melbourne to catch up with family and friends. We tried, but by the time she passed through here I was only a few minutes off starting work. Told her to go through and spend the extra time with her niece who unfortunately is terminally ill.
Next time Anne.
Friday the kids went to their Dads after school/daycare. Kylee usually goes up to Mandurah after her work Saturday and picks them up after their overnight visit and then spends the night and next day with Micheal and his daughters. This weekend she couldn’t as one of the daughters got put into isolation due to being a close contact during the week. She so far no symptoms but Micheal tested positive Saturday. So I went up to Mandurah with Kylee and picked up the kids. Miss Summer turned 4 today so whilst with Dad they had a early party. OMG 😳😳😳 what did they feed her, must have been a huge sugar overload 😮😳🎂All the way home that little girls sang, laughed, wriggled and giggled 🤭 Kylee took nearly 2 hours to get her to settle after dinner and bath before she would finally sleep😴 …. But then she was up at crack of dawn. And today….the excitement was still there, she was bouncing off the walls all day.
Thankfully….she was soooooo tired tonight I had her in bed, tucked in, storybook read and asleep by 7pm.
Now it’s my turn, it’s been a long day.
Night night.
And just like that it’s the weekend again.
That means Saturday weigh in. A loss of 400g to record today. Yay, the scales are still moving down. Finally I think my reflux has gone. Today for the first time in what seems like forever I haven’t got that horrible taste in my mouth but I still have a bit of a cough still.
Daughter is on her 5 nights straight, so have the kids. This morning took them to the bookstore where William cashed in his literacy book award he got at the end of last year, then we went shopping. Because the kids were well behaved they were rewarded with a treat of a milkshake while I had coffee and a bacon and egg sandwich for brunch.
Looks like a busy weekend with kids. Doesn’t give me much of a weekend off. But…it is what it is…
The reflux has still been giving me grief. The cough is still annoying, I’m not as lethargic thankfully. Dr said I just have to let it take it’s course so hopefully that will be soon, can’t come soon enough.
My appetite is returning so maybe the end can’t be too far away. My fingers are crossed, I’m tired of being tired.
I weighed in yesterday instead of today as I’d made plans to drive down to a coastal town an hour away to catch up with a girlfriend of many years. Actually we met in year 1. We lost contact for many years but thanks to Facebook we caught up again and have since had a few catch ups over the years.
So I weighed in yesterday and saw to my delight a 1.4K loss. I couldn’t leave for our lunch date till 12 due to 2 other appointments.
I’m usually a jeans and t-shirt girl but this summer I’m loving dresses. For lunch with Linda I decided to “pretty” myself up and wear my favourite dress. Losing weight does make me feel good….here’s hoping this week I can keep this feeling happening.
Finally the scales went down. 300g loss.
It’s been a hard week, I was and still am suffering from a bout of reflux. The cough, the lack of sleep because of the cough, the lethargy…… and thankfully no heartburn. But ohhh the cough, it’s killing me!! I hadn’t been taking my tablets for a awhile so now I suffer. Actually it’s been more than a week, I though I had a cold a few weeks ago but I think it’s been reflux all along.
Long weekend here, but I have a work shift today. Wasn’t doing anything anyways, too tired to get of my own way at the moment.
No weigh in this week. Out Friday for birthday lunch, then I carried onto Saturday. Sunday was my birthday, so there was cake, cheesecake and and and…
Monday and Tuesday were more celebrations, mine and a friends but Wednesday I called it quits. I was feeling quite yuk and bloated and wasn’t enjoying scoffing down whatever. I was actually looking forward to some heathy choices.
I started off by mixing myself up some shakes to start the days off and then salads for lunch. I’ve made tuna bake, chicken hot pot and a breakfast slice (and froze a few meals) so long may this continue.
A holiday in June to look forward to. Made no plans as yet, Covid will no doubt constrict as to where we can go.
But if it’s out in the bush, or by water away from everything I’ll be happy.
But no gain either, I had a stay the same. I weighed in yesterday as my bestie was taking me out for lunch for a early birthday celebration 🥳 🎉 🎂
Don’t think I’ll be having a sts next weigh….what celebrating yesterday, today been indulging as well and tomorrow my birthday….omg I’m being a real Miss Piggy. Ohh well, it’s a once a year celebration….and this birthday means in 6 months time I can retire 😘
In June hubby and I plus some friends were heading off for a months holiday up in the top end of WA. Just found out that it will have to put on hold. Where we want to go goes through Aboriginal owned and managed land and due to Covid they are keeping the area closed to tourists 🥴 Friends are undecided as to what to do now, as are we. BUT I said to hubby we are going somewhere, and if Grant and Tina don’t want to travel we can go on our own.
I’m going to use this holiday as a goal to losing weight. I’d love to 8 to 10 kilo’s lighter by then. It’s doable, and I’m looking forward to the challenge.
I will keep you updated on our decision on as to where we go. Western Australia’s borders come down on Monday so hopefully we can stay Covid free and healthy.
A small loss on scales yesterday, 300g’s.
Might only be small but I’ll take it.
Busy day after weigh in with meals out plus a “high tea”
OMG….felt like a little Miss Piggy. I estimated that I used all my weeklies plus more maybe. I’ve had a reasonably good day today, but have planned the rest of the week around 0 pp’s meals. It’s my birthday next weekend, celebrating starts on Friday with breakfast out with my bestie….
Not much else happening so short and sweet from me.
