Been tagged...

Was tagged by Anne...

I have to list 5 things I am passionate about ....

1) My hubby.....he is my EVERYTHING!

2) My kids, my family, my friends, including my online friends too!

3) My grankids....all 12 of them, love 'em!

4) Saving towards my retirement.

5) Books....I love my books, nothing better than me time and a book! I could read all day!!

Now to tag 5....

1) Sandy

2) Ros

3) Mel

4) Nola

5) Suzy

.....and anyone else who comments on my blog

Also today ..... I have to HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dear hubby.....

Today we have had Paul and Simon and their kids call in to say Happy Birthday Pop....Shawn has rang...and I guess Kylee will later on tonight.

Today has been the first day back on track! I walked this morning with my friend Deb, and have kept on track. It hasn't been easy, BUT I will do it! I haven't weighed myself and I am not going to till the week before I fly to Melbourne.

Tomorrow

I am starting all over again.

I just have to push all these emotions I am feeling with these hot flushes and all the stuff with Shawn and Hannah.....and think about me. These past few weeks every attempt I have made to lose these extra kilo's something has happened and I've "lost the plot''. I have just over 4 weeks to go before I fly to Melbourne...and I need to get myself back on track. Spoke to hubby tonight and told him he has permission to kick me up the backside if he sees me even looking at a choccie....and he also has my permission to kick me out of bed on these cold mornings to make sure I walk before going to work. My clothes are fitting me, just!! My favourite Eagles t-shirt is just a little tight and it just has to fit me properly for the Carlton v West Coast eagles game we are going to.

So there you go....my mind is made up, I JUST HAVE TO DO IT this time. Please let all go smoothly for me, fingers crossed.

Just another pic from Shawn's access visit, Skye loves her new baby brother dearly and Jaydene and Shayden too, but Shawn and I tried to give her as much attention as we could on Saturday to show her that despite being the 1st born she was just as special today as the day she was born.

Things are improving.....

Today Shawn had his access visit with the kids...including Kaleb. He was told he was having all 4 kids, once again DCP stuffed up and only 3 turned up....Jaydene had gone away for the long weekend with her carers. That to me is sux...why couldn't they go away after the visit or work something out and change the times, day or something so Shawn could see her!

Anyways DCP has also done a backflip with Shawn and Hannah and has told them they CAN now be together as long as Hannah drops the vro. Hullooooooooo they told her only last week that they COULDN'T do that, even when they took Kaleb on Wednesday they couldn't be together because the vro had to stay in place. What are they playing at now I wonder? They have another meeting with DCP on Tuesday and we will have to see what can be resolved. And according to DCP if they continue to keep the house clean and resolve all the issues between them they COULD have the 2 little ones back in a month or so. I hope so.....they need to be a family again.

PS ... The vro is a violence restraining order that DCP (Dept of Child Protection) made Hannah take out on Shawn when they separated...due to Shawn's temper/moods. Hannah did not want to do that, as it meant that he could not have have any contact (by phone or text either) for 2 YEARS, but they pursuaded her to do it!

Shawn needs his family but he also needs professional help, drugs (cannabis) are the issue with him.

Not going well....

I am not going real well at the moment...

Last night I had a real shit of a night, I had hot flush after hot flush, tossed and turned and yeahhhh did my usual old trick and looked for and ate unnecessary food!! Was so tired when I woke up this morning and couldn't be bothered walking either. Stupid me, I should have considering the night I had and what I ate but I was just too tired. A walk might have made me get some motivation back. Anyways any motivation I might have got back would have gone soaring out of the window at lunchtime today. I answered a phone call from Shawn in tears....and Hannah in thebackground was sobbing her heart out! DCP had just been to the hospital and taken Kaleb as they were about to leave for home. My heart just broke for them.

I understand that Shawn and Hannah have a lot of problems and issues and have bought the problems of DCP on themselves....but I can tell you I will never ever forget the sound of Hannah's heartbreaking cry and her telling me they have taken my baby, my baby!!!

Just a update........Shawn and Hannah are hanging in there tonight. Shawn is at Hannah's even thou is not allowed there. The courts lifted the vro only for hospital visitation, so as soon as bub was taken Shawn was told he was not to see Hannah or go near her address. So he is taking a huge risk of getting caught there as Hannah said the police may call around and check that he does stay away as DCP were going to request that!! Reason baby was taken is due to Hannah's bad housekeeping/unhygienic ways...they still are being addressed, she is getting better but still a lot of work to be done there. And there is Shawn and his ''dope'' ... he has anger issues and his ''rages'' are something the children don't need to see. Just wish he would learn to love himself and rid himself of these demons.

Despite all the above I can honestly say these two love their kids so much. They do love one another too but really need a lot of help.

I still feel DCP is going about this the wrong way, they say they are protecting the kids.....I don't think so, I feel they are hurting them more!

ww weigh in....

Went to the ww meeting tonight for my monthly weigh in (I lost but not a huge loss like last week)....and am not within the 2 kilo's of my goal weight yet...but I am getting there. Spoilt myself tonight and had a free night....but tomorrow will be back on track. Just over 5 weeks now till I fly to Melbourne so want to be at goal by then...determined this time to do it....so lets hope I can keep the motivation up!

Just another pic of Mathew and his birthday cake.....yeahhhh Griffin it is really blue ehhhh??? Just spoken to his mum on the phone and the little fella was sick that night...wonder why??

Happy Birthday Mathew

Yesterday was Mathew's 1st birthday.....do you think he had fun? They had a little party down the local park. Shawn had his access visit with his 3 little ones so they were able to join in the fun for an hour which I think they enjoyed. So I managed to catch up with all my grandies except for Luke the eldest one....was wonderful.

I have also had my mum up for the weekend and she was able to meet her newest great-granchild and have a cuddle. My mum might be nearly 80 but I can tell you I have to run to keep up with her when you go shopping...phewwwwwwww.

Think with all that has been happening this weekend I have managed to stay in control of my eating. Been hard has Shawn has been a little difficult, he has had a little trouble with Hannah's family.....but think managed to keep him calm, thou that was after about a dozen phone calls from him !!

Welcome....

Welcome to the family Kaleb Desmond Wright....born at 5pm this afternoon, isn't he just beautiful. The labour was very quick...mum and bub both well. Dad and Jenna just happy to see him.

Hope all goes well for them now and dcp stay out of their hair and let them enjoy their little bub.

Happy Birthday

To my grandaughter Cailtlin Rose.....she turned 7 today....

Hope you had a fantastic day.

I went down to see Caity and give her her present this evening, only managed to spend 10 minutes there as they had been to Mcdonalds for dinner and were just having cake before bed.....

Had a great week this week...stuck to my ww's plan and wooohoooo the scales showed it tonight...I lost 2 kilo's !!!! Now bring on next week. Relaxed a bit tonight and had a takeaway for dinner but tomorrow it is back to the journal and my tracking....my goal of being at goal for my Melbourne trip is looking good at this stage. Next week I will go to my ww meeting for a weigh in, being a lifer I have to weigh in monthly, or pay! More than likely will have to pay anyways ... if I 2 kilo's over goal and thats on the cards, can't expect another loss like this week. I have to go next week as the following Monday is the Anzac day holiday....so fingers crossed for another great week. I am totally focused....

Happy Easter...

Jaydene Rose-marie, Easter 08

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE

So far been an ok Easter....only blimp is that on Thursday Shawn was told NO access visit with his kids this weekend, so he went camping yesterday. Guess what?? DCP stuffed up big time, the kids arrived here yesterday for their visit with Daddy didn't they? I was so not expecting them and they, the poor little mites were so upset coz Daddy wasn't here. So NOT right!! Shawn arrived back today and when I told him he was so pissed off and thats putting it mildly !! So was the carer that bought them out as she was intially told the visit was off then received paper work to say it was on...so a big stuff up somewhere ehhh? I have rang DCP and left a message to say I am NOT HAPPY at all...was not fair on Shawn and espesially not fair on the kids!!

Anyways I am so on track for a great week this week....have excersised daily, tracked and eaten well, and being very good with all the Easter chocolate...bring on Tuesday!!

Memory lane

Today is the 30th anniversary of my brothers death, he was just 27 when he was killed in a freak accident at work. It was his daughters 3rd birthday and the day before his partner had told him he was to be father to twins, a little boy and girl were born 2 1/2 months later. His little boy Stephen was 5 when he was killed and even today I don't think he ever got over it..........

Tom and I were the middle kids and even thou he was 5 years older than me we spent a lot of time together. Actually there is a lot of Tom in my Shawn, getting into trouble very easy for the pair of them! They say there is one in every family ehhhh? Tom was my mum's, maybe thats why she and Shawn are very close.

Our childhood wasn't easy but the 4 of us were all close (despite having 10 years between the youngest and eldest) and Rod, sis and I still are, thou we don't see one and another as often as we would like.

Anyways today just sitting here taking a lovely little walk down memory lane.

Yet again....

I am still suffering menopausal hot flushes, sleepless nights and over-eating!! I am so over it!! But with just 7 weeks till I fly out to Melbourne and my jeans getting very tight...decided enough was enough. It's time for me to stop the ''woe is me'' attitude and just do what has to be done and stop the whinging!! So today I got my ass into gear and got my tracker out and planned my day and ate what I should. And tonight as I wander the floor I WILL NOT raid the fridge or the pantry...

So Mel.....its you and me this week....lets see what we can do...

I weighed last night, am 5 kilo's over goal AGAIN....so lets lee if I can get rid of most of it before I fly.....

Here I go again...keep me motivated peoples!!

Here we go again

Menopause is REALLY sux!!!! I am so over these hot flushes, they are driving me nuts!! Needless to say I lost the plot the other night in one of my nightly wanders trying to cool down and make myself tired again so I could sleep and once again raided the darn pantry!! I know I shouldn't have any goodies hidden in there but I do have a hubby with a sweet tooth and who has no weight problems and lots of grandies who know where to look for their treats....and any other time I am usually fine, having them in there doesn't bother me. Anyways I am now trying to get myself back on the darn wagon AGAIN. It seems to be a never ending circle of late but I guess I can say at least I am persistent. Matter of having to be coz I do have an awful fear of putting on all the weight on again and looking and feeling darn horrible! Anyways there will be NO weigh in tomorrow night, don't want to see the scales at all. Just want to see if I can sorta stabilise myself and get me on an even keel again...if this menopause shit will give me a break!

This weekend has been pretty full on with looking after grandies....first of all had Shawn out on Saturday arvo for his access visit. Since he and Hannah have been seeing one and another again he seems to have calmed down and actually even seems to have eased off on the drugs/alchohol and has stayed out of trouble. The avo against Shawn is being heard again this Tuesday, the magristrate agreed with Hannah but to keep DCP happy suggested she see her lawyer and get it changed to a variable order. Don't know how it is going to work, but anything is better than the way it is, espesially with Hannah due to have bubs #4 soon.

Then Saturday arvo Tanya bought Caitlin, Ashlee and mathew for an overnight stay so she and Paul could have a night out....ohhhhh it was great. Its been the first time they have stayed over as they live just a few k's down the road ... we all had a fantastic time.

Getting there

I think....

Have got myself on track again, and going well despite a few things happening. The scales are going down, but I won't hop on them again till next Monday. A little peek told me all was good
I went to a step class on Saturday morning, it was great, I loved it. I am not the most co-ordinated person but for a first timer I thought I did darn good!! And boy, I think its a workout, Sunday morning I woke up with aches where I haven't ached in a long time, but a 30 minute walk helped ease the poor muscles. Still a bit sore this morning but after another 30 minute walk the aches are easing. I will be back to another class next Saturday. In the meantime I'll try and walk most mornings before work.

Dear daughter is really stressing out, poor love. Her and her fiancee have just signed papers to buy a block of land and also signed papers to have a house built on it. Her fiancee is now requesting that with all the money that they have had to borrow (and all their savings now non-existent after paying deposits on land and house plans) that Kylee downsize her dream wedding plans! Just hope its only stress that is bringing this request on as my girl is in tears. Ohh just heard their loan has been approved, so here's hoping the stressing will have eased and calm has been found again!

Things are happening in the Shawn and Hannah camp.....don't know whats going to go on there. Hannah has started proceedings to drop the avo that DCP made her put on Shawn....but now DCP are saying if she does that they will make it will it a lot harder for her in getting the kids back. Drama's, drama's and more drama's...wonder if it is ever going to end? Right I know its their (Shawn and Hannah's) fault that they are in this posistion, what with Shawn and his drugs and his aggresive mood swings and Hannah and her dirty/unhealthy and non existent housecleaning ways. BUT dcp are just so unemotional and uncaring to anyones feelings. And I am not totally happy in the way the kids appear to be cared for. Shawn and hannah are asking questions about these issues.
Ohhh well despite all this I have stayed on track somehow.

Did I say

Did I say I had sorta found my mojo again?

Well I thought I had, I did get myself back on track for a few days then those darn menopause hot flushes started up again...right when I am trying to sleep!! My nights have been pure hell for most of this week, I am hot, then I am cold, I am tossing and turning and making hubby miss sleep too. And with all this I have been getting "restless legs" at night too...no matter where I put my legs they would ache and I'd have to move. So in all I have been having one shit of a week. And what happens when that happens, yep ya got it...."oink oink" It would be alright if I just overate...but nahhhh not me, I have to shovel it in as thou it was my last meal, I mean it I do, I gorge myself.

Anyways just been looking at my calendar....and its ONLY 9 weeks from today till I fly over to Melbourne....and if I don't get myself sorted out I won't be able to fit into any of my darn jeans!! So as of tomorrow morning I am going to try, and I mean really try to get myself back on track, can I do it....wish me luck !!

He really missed them

......and so did I !!!

Shawn had an access visit today, he had one last week too but I had to miss it due to our Americian friends coming in on the cruise ship, but today between 1pm and 3pm we entertained Shawn and his little cuties.

They were a little timid when they first arrived, but within 10 minutes or so they were into the toyboxes and found their favourite toys. Took Skye, the eldest girl, she is 5 now, a little longer to find the rapport we used to have. More little mite I really feel for her as she does understand a lot of what is going on !!

Jaydene the little girl, she is 2, and she is a real Daddy's girl and was really taking advantage of the 2 year old tanties!!

Shayden the baby (10 months) is still the same happy little chappy....glad he was old enough to bond with his daddy before all this happened as as you can see in the pics is devoted to Shawn.

Was a wonderful couple of hours.


Anyways everything else has been going well. Shawn has settled down a little, welllllll no more trouble from him. He received notification that he lost his licience for 5 months for his drink driving and a $800 fine....!! But today he was a lot happier within himself.

Me....well I have sorta found my mojo again...I am back into my walking and eating healthily. I have stopped the water running, too darn cold in the pool now, but have decided to do a pump or step class on a Saturday morning instead. I'm not going back to weight watchers till next month....but I will check what my scales say on Monday night.

Weekend....

.....has been a busy one so far.

We had some friends sail into Bunbury on Saturday on this cruise ship....

My hubby is a amateur radio operator and talks the world over on his radio...and had been talking to Will in Americia for a few years now. When Will and his wife Eileen said they were coming out to Australia and were going on this cruise they asked us and our friends and near by neighbours Neville (he is a radio operator too) and Margie if we would like to catch up with them when they docked in Bunbury for the day. We gladly said yes, and on Saturday we all went in to meet them off the ship.....then drove around to show them a few sights of Bunbury and surrounding areas before we had lunch at Neville and Margies. Margie made a beautiful pavlova for them to try, it being one of our traditional Aussie desserts....mmmmmmmm very yummy it was too.

Their stop in Bunbury was only from 8am to 3pm but we really enjoyed the visit.

After we dropped Wes and Eileen off at the wharf, we came home as we had a cousin and his wife visiting....I hadn't seen my cousin in years and had never met his wife. I found Helen on Facebook and arranged the meet up so we could have a catch up.

Shawn dropped in too.....darn DCP changed his access visit and he had it between 1 and 3pm but because I was busy with our americian friends he couldn't have them here....so he had to go down to the local park. Pretty pissed off about that I was, was so looking forward to catching up with the kids today!!! Anyways Shawn said he had a great couple of hours with them and next week the visit will be here on the Saturday. They better not change that one!!

I am feeling a lot better within myself today, the aches are slowly going, and tomorrow hopefully I can get my ass into gear and go walking again. I am missing it and the healthy eating....have really lost the plot this last week feeling like I have. ahhhhh well onwards I guess!!

A me day

Had a day off work today, an unexpected one but one I took gladly. Been suffering with aches and pains and feeling quite blahhhhhh. Can't be bothered doing much at all, its just all seems like its too hard and too much of a chore. Went to water running last night, the water helped the aches and pains for a bit, but I couldn't do the full hour, so after cool down I languished in the spa, ahhhhhh bliss!!!

This morning the aches and pains were still there after a restless tossing and turning night, so no walking for me. And the eating...well the "oink oink" factor is back again. I rang my ww leader today for advise and she said just let it happen, don't stress about it and as soon as I feel up to it I'll get back on track and because I am a life time member and have weighed in this month she'll see me next month.....so thats what I am going to do, just go with the flow. Hope this feeling like I do doesn't last too long, I hate feeling blah and out of control.

Knowing late yesterday I was going to get today off I quickly rang my hairdresser and booked in for a much needed cut and colour. I am not sure now if I made the right decision now thou....I went for a burgundy colour base as I wanted a darker colour than I usually have with the gold and blonde foils. Just got to get used to it I think.

On the Shawn front all is quiet. Will see him on Sunday as he has an access visit with the kids here. I spoke to his DCP case worker today and he said he had a visit with him the other day and has agreed to go throu some rehab and councelling....so we'll see, with Shawn things change so quickly.

Will post again after the access visit, can't wait to see the kids again, I saw Shayden back on my birthday in February but it seems like forever since I have seen the girls.

mmmmm

Its just as I expected I had a gain at my weigh in tonight......BUT what else can I expect, my bad week was very bad and apparently my good week wasn't good enough to counteract it....one day I might learn mmmmmmmmm !!!

Not much has been happening....no added stress from Shawn....

And its a very happy birthday to my little munchkin Zoe...she turned 6 yesterday. Rang her up to wish her the happiest of birthdays and little miss haveachat filled me in on all that was happening. She got rollerblades for her present but she says she spends more time on her bum than she does on her wheels. My little babies are all growing up so quickly!

Getting myself under control

Well have got myself back on my track......told that little devil on my shoulder to rack off....and placed the halo back on my head. Since I dropped Kylee and Stephen off at the airport in the early hours of Tuesday morning I have been back on track so we'll see what my weigh in on Monday night will be...that will be very interesting.

Not much being happening here, Shawn has been reasonably quiet and staying out of trouble. This morning I have spent with Hannah doing some op shopping....just to get her out and about. She has been really depressed missing the kids (no, she still hasn't heard when she'll get them back, next week she has a meeting with DCP) and to top it off while she was out last night babysitting her house was broken in to .....

Will update on Monday night....

P.S. 9.oopm ..... mmmm did I say all was reasonably quiet on the Shawn front......welllllllll not no more. Big trouble in the making methinks!!!!! Hope not....I DO NOT NEED THIS STRESS!!!!!!

Done it again....

Don't know why I do it BUT I seem to do it all the time. I get to goal, or very close to it and I lose the plot and turn into a real little "oink" and eat everything in sight!!! Hasn't helped that I have had dear daughter (and her fiancee) home for her best friends wedding....Kylee was maid of honor and I was so proud of her, she was Jess's tower of strength from the time she landed here in WA and on the day she looked absolutely stunning, as of course did the bride.

In between all her bridesmaid duties her and Stephen have been able to organise a lot of plans and make bookings for their own wedding next year.

And while Kylee has been with Jess, Stephen and I managed to go out and buy me a new desktop computer.....mmmmm thankfully he was able to set it all up for me too and transfer all my files and folders that I needed over too....ahhhhh he is the best!!

On the Shawn and Hannah front, things aren't too good. They got reported to DCP for seeing one another and on Friday Hannah had the kids taken off her and put into foster care....we will find out on Tuesday if or when Hannah will get them back.

Anyways I take Kylee and Stephen up to the airport tonight, so things here can go back to normal, and hopefully I can rein my piggy self back in and get back to eating healthily and sensibly again and get back into the excersise too, I have only walked once in the last 4 days...SLACK ehhh? It being a public holiday today I have no weigh in so I have a week to get back to where I was...!!!!!