Merry Christmas

 Merry Christmas 🤶🎅

May it be a happy day filled with blessings to you all.

Mine will be quiet…Kylee is with Micheal family this Christmas, but we will see the Santa joy on their faces when they return.

I am all ready for the big day. Presents all bought, food organised.

Weigh in day but we won’t go there as I haven’t weighed. Last 2 weeks I’ve binged. 

Boxing Day I restart. Why I do this to myself. Lost nearly 7 kilo’s on ww and I’m sure I’ve piled half it back on the last 2 weeks. 

It is what it is.

Be safe. Have the best day.

MERRY CHRISTMAS 🎄🎅 🤶 

Blah blah blah..

 Weigh in last week I managed a sts and I was hoping this week I could maintain that as all the usual Christmas Festivities have begun. Unfortunately I am horribly off track and I can’t seem to stop myself. Each day I try, each day I fail. Hopefully tomorrow, I have to dig deep and find the strength. 

Below a couple of pictures of a fire, 2 blocks away from us. The fire got away after it wasn’t put out properly the night before. Strong winds stirred up a few hot embers and away it went.

It burnt right down to our back boundary. 

We  are on a 2.5 acre bush block and hubby is very fire vigilant and keeps the block clean of debris, has firebreaks and sprinklers set up all around our block and on the house 

I’m back….

 I haven’t been anywhere much….but I did forget to post last week.

So….last week I had a stay the same which I deserved. I had an “off” weekend and there wasn’t a lot weight watching involved. I was left -15 for the beginning of this week so delighted with a 500g loss today. 

It’s been a busy couple of weeks. We’ve had Skye’s 18th birthday, her year 12 graduation and today Williams 1st trampoline comp.  So proud of these grandee’s of mine.

Jaydene was there for Skye’s graduation as was Jahzara with her carer so Grumps and I got to have cuddles 

Work is getting super busy what with Christmas just a few weeks away now.  The new company I’m finding ok. Loved our supervisor so was very surprised and saddened to hear yesterday that she has resigned. Wonder what will happen now. I’m counting down to retirement next year. 

Weigh in again…

 Gee it’s Saturday again, this last week has flown by. Nothing exciting has happened, I lead a very boring life obviously.

Yesterday I went gift shopping. My granddaughter turns 18 tomorrow…..can’t believe how quickly that time has gone. Seems like last week I was giving her cuddles after I watched her mother give birth to her. Skye also graduated from high school yesterday…..though her “official” graduation is on Thursday evening.  She is off with her “besties” getting things ready for her 18th birthday party that her mum is giving her for her 🥳 🎂  🎉  Well I hope her mum is paying for it and not Skye. Her friends were going to give her a 🎊 party but that fell through thus her mum stepping up. We were planning to give her a party but Skye’s friends wanted to do it so we backed down. Guess we’ll have cake on Sunday when she comes home.

She is relying on friends for transport. She did take over her Dads old car but that is off the road and she is looking for a more reliable one. We did warn her that Shawns car was “passed it used by date” but she so wanted it and the independence. Anyways hopefully we’ll find something within our budget for her….something that she can afford to pay us back for. 

Hope tonight is a great night for her. 

Lunch time.

I’m having the laziest of days. Only hubby and I here today and tonight so making the most of it. 

Ohhh the scales were nice, 400g down. Little by little I’m going down.

Saturday again.

Another week has flown by.

Nothing exciting has happened. It’s just been work and home. 

Have William and Summer all weekend, Mum has work today then has taken tomorrow off as she has her partners Christmas Party to go to tonight. She is so excited as it a cocktail party up in Perth. She has bought a dress and some new make up from a beauty specialist who showed her how to “ make herself up”. Kylee is like me and very rarely wears make up or dresses so she has been practicing her makeup daily and wearing her new high heels around the house. 

Micheal, her partner, is not going to know her, he has never seen her “dressed up to the nines”. 

Today of course is weigh in day. Pleased to see a loss of 700grams.

It’s McHappy Day today, so took the kids up to Macca’s for breakfast. Later on going to a few Christmas fairs, hopefully they will find a few little gifts for their parents that I can put away for them.

Yesterday

 Was weigh in day……and a 200g loss. Could have been more but I had a couple of days where I wasn’t drinking enough. And last night, even though I had the points to spare I ate way too much.

I took the kids down the park early yesterday, it’s just down the road and very popular. The kids love it and love that I get them down there before everyone else (except a few other early birds) so they can enjoy all swings, flying foxes and climbs to themselves. After a few hours playing it was time for home, get their bags packed ready for when Mum arrived to pick them up and take them to Mandurah and hand them over to their Dad for an overnight visitation.

Then it was work for me….. and that is where I fell off the wagon. Darn self sabotage. Once I started I couldn’t stop BUT today I’m on the wagon, drinking my water and being a good weight watcher. 

Doing ok

I am doing ok, except my knee.

It is really giving me some pain. Doesn’t help that although it is November now and we still still getting winter weather. I am so over the cold, wet and dreary weather. 

I’m just getting ready to go to work, but thought I’d better record Saturday’s weigh in. 400g down.

WW changed their program, not too sure about it it, but I’ll keep to it and believe it’s going to keep working. 

I managed…..

 Another loss…700g down. I’m happy with that, especially as last Saturday I ate as though eating was going out of fashion. 

I’ve had my 1st week of work with the new company that took over. Wonderful friendly people so far, very professional but not over the top. Not a real fan of the uniform…..mainly coz I think I look like a policeman 👮‍♂️….but because I have to have the shirt tucked in (which shows off my belly apron 😳) wear a belt and also because I have to iron the dratted  thing!! I do not iron!! Going to have to dig deep and find the darn thing. I’ll get a pic of me in uniform soonish. My supervisor is a lovely lady and has given me the hours I require. That was made hard for her because centre management has cut down our cleaning time in the centre by over 2 hours. They not too happy about those changes 😚

 

I’m nearly at my first weight loss mini goal, and I do have to admit though sometimes I feel I’m not getting there fast enough BUT I am FEELING  a heck of a lot better within myself. 

A loss, then…….

Weighed in (lost 500g) Friday morning as that afternoon Shawn was hosting his friends and workmates to his birthday BBQ at ours. 

I worked at not over indulging and I didn’t, well not much, but come Saturday I could NOT stop eating, I made short work of the leftovers 😳

 I counted everything and believe me the damage was BIG. I was so peeved off at myself. 

We were so proud of our son. He handled hosting his party with ease and enjoying showing off us and his home to his friends. 

It’s been 5 years of him being drug free and out of trouble. In that 5 years, he has paid off all his fines, bought himself a car and a 4x4. He has had part time work which led him to the permanent position he has now. 

His friends and work mates that came to his bbq spoke very highly of him to us and kept on telling us what a great person he is. So so proud. 

Anyways Sunday I got my act together and I’m very firmly back on track. 

Fingers crossed  I haven’t done too much damage 🤞  

I’ve got till Saturday to rectify the damage. 

And onwards

 This cat of mine….just look at it. A real little lady she is….NOT!!

Actually she is a real menace. Spoilt rotten she is too. Thinks she is a dog and is constantly chewing/ripping up paper. Has a “you beaut” scratching house/poles and what does it do….scratch and claw my near new dining chairs….one is just wrecked 😢 

Another thing she does is sleep in our room, has her own blanket in the corner, but if we move any time after dawn she is “kangaroo hopping” over us to wake us up so she can be fed. Persists till we get up. Last few mornings I have had no work and no grandkids so when she started at 5.45 am I grabbed her and put her in the other bathroom with her cat kibbles and shut the door!!  I made sure she then had to wait till I was up and ready to feed her in my time.

I love her dearly, quirks and all.

Other news. The cleaning company I work for, and have done so for over 10 years has been told. Boss man is retiring due to illness.

So new bosses, new rules coming up. Met the new lady boss Tuesday and signed up to work. Will see how it goes. 

Little ones are with Dad this week. Skye has been out staying with friends and family….all enjoying last week of school holidays. 

Weigh in this morning…..I hopped on the scales, read it, read it again…..moved them and read it and read it again, must have done that about 10 times. I lost 1.6. Yep 1.6!!!

I was over the moon. 

After our trip away I came back with swollen ankles…a lot of water retention so I’m thinking that was a lot of my gain.

Anyways…ww is working for me. I’m happy, I’m not denying myself anything, I just make sure if I eat it, I track it 😊. The day before yesterday I craved bread. I ate way more than I usually eat, but I tracked it…and then made sure the next day I had none. Balance ehhh.. 

I’m back….

 We had the best 6 nights away. So relaxing, so quiet and peaceful. Just me and hubby enjoying the great outdoors. 

My weight was down 700g before I left and I hoped to be able to maintain that loss whilst away. BUT, even though I did beach walk almost every day and eat fresh fish I did indulge. Came home to a 1.4 gain and fluid retention. My ankles for some reason were 3 sizes bigger than normal 😳  Anyways I got straight back on the wagon, followed all my ww rules and have been planning and tracking.    Shhhhhh…a sneak look at my scales has shown I am quickly losing the gain. 

Some pics…

Before we left Skye my foster daughter (and my granddaughter) passed her driving test on her first attempt, so proud of her 😍

Our first night camp was with our best friends who live 7 hours away from us, great to catch up with them. We stayed there on way back too 

Our destination…rugged but beautiful coastline

Some mighty big blowholes. Too calm for any big “blows”

Most beautiful sunsets and sunrises 

Our camp on wheels. So easy to unpack, set up and boil the kettle and cook a meal. 

Busy week..

 Spring has sprung.

All the wild ducks are hatching out their babies. Miss Bobby below 👇 has hatched hers and is heading off to the river with them. Bob and Bobby Duck have been coming here to our place and hatching out their babies for a lot of years now.  

The weather has been glorious for a few days, but today it turned and we had rain again.

It’s been busy, I have the little grandkids for the 5 night stint, onto #4 tonight. Summer has decided that anytime between 4.20 and 5.20am is a good time to wake up 🙇‍♀️, that what we’ve had the past 3 nights. 

Meant to be daycare tomorrow but it’s back up to Drs tomorrow, think she has yet another bout of foot and mouth. That’s about the 6th or 7th time this year. Received a email from them last week to say that they had a case confirmed and to keep our eyes on Summer as they know she is susceptible to it. Not impressed with the daycare, lovely educators and great set up and Summer loves the place BUT something is not right. Why is there so many bouts of these foot and mouth and school sores happening there? Is it the daycare or the parents not following health guidelines.

I’m off to work tomorrow and the next day. Before work I’m taking Summer to Drs for a check up to be 100% sure she has foot and mouth. If she has Kylee will have to leave work early to care for her. 

Friday we are heading off for 6 nights to go camping. I’m going to do my best to keep as much to WW as I can. Have already precooked a few things and froze them ready to pack to keep me focused. I don’t want to fall off the wagon while I’m doing well. Plan to do some beach walking, some fishing…so fresh fish on the bbq is on the menu. 

400grams lost on my weigh in Saturday. 👏👌

Go me 😊

Weigh in day ...

A month in with WW.

I changed my weigh in day with them to coincide with my online group so I wasn’t weighing in twice. Really didn’t want to weigh Saturday’s  as I didn’t want to fall into the trap of “giving myself a free day”. 

With WW that’s hard to do if you track everything which I am doing.

Right…..after my bad Saturday last week,  and changing weigh in I had a week to right my wrong.

Result….300g loss 😚😙

I was so excited to weigh in, I was 100% on track and was expecting a good result. I was a little disappointed with the small loss but hey a loss is a loss and all these little numbers will add up to bigger ones….right??

I didn’t know how I would go yesterday, was nearly tempted to weigh in then instead of today. It was the 6th anniversary of our Paul’s passing. Boy, we miss him so, our hearts are still all broken 💔💔

Paul was a devoted partner, the best Dad, a loving son. He had the biggest wicked laugh, a cheeky nature and other than his family he loved the big outdoors. 

 

3weeks in…

 Yesterday was my online weight loss group weigh in. 

A stay the same this week…..not 100% sure why, I followed the plan, tracked and only used 6 bonus points. Maybe too much bread…💁 

Anyway, after weigh in and breakfast I took the kids down the park. They got to burn some energy and I managed a few thousand steps keeping up with them. Summer is a real little dare devil and has no fear.  I got them home for lunch and their mum got home from work and I took off for my afternoon shift, it was a busy one.

Got home and realised I hadn’t taken anything out for dinner. Only hubby and son to cook for and they requested a steak sandwich….easy peasy 😋

But I fell in a hole. Instead of having what I planned I hit a roadblock and indulged big time. I used up 52 points…left 6 bonus ones for the week. 

I got onto my ww app this morning and changed my weigh in to Saturday as well….that way I’m not weighing in twice a week.  Plus it gives me a chance to get over my “blow out”

Today, taken the kids down the park again, managed 6000 steps running around after them, well the little dare devil anyway.  Food has been good. Been online and researched recipes for 0 and low point meals for me for the rest of the week. Not going to blow this, not when I’m enjoying it so much. 

Another week down

 Another week down, 100% on track (after I sorted out 2 glitches in app…and adjusted my points) But hey I got there, and enjoyed the feeling of seeing the numbers on my scales move on down. 600g down this week. I’m loving the program. 

All well on home front. Had my first COVID jab last week and for a couple of days my arm hurt right down to the bone. But after day 2 I had a shower as hot as I could take it and let it run on my arm for a good 10 minutes. Pain disappeared thankfully. Being the AstraZeneca, next jab is not till November. Ted had his first jab a few days before me with no side effects at all. 

Update

I had a foster’s carer’s meeting the other day and I met the lovely couple that are looking after Jahzara. I asked her if there was any chance we could pop in on Sunday when Jaydene had her 2 hour visit with her. Told her I was still waiting to hear back from DCP regards visits. Anyway she invited us around, she only lives just down the road and round the corner, just on a kilometre away.

So lovely to get cuddles and see Jaydene interactive with her bubba. The love and pride shines out of her. 

Shawn was able to have his first ever cuddles, he never got to have cuddles before she was taken into care.

We only stayed long enough for cuddles and a quick chat as we didn’t want to take time away from Jaydene.

WW is going well, a kilo down on Saturdays weigh in. 

 W

Where am I?

 

I’m still here. 

Been floundering big time since last post. My weight was going up and up and getting very close to a three figured number. A number I promised myself many years ago I would NEVER reach again. I tried calorie counting, I tried pre packaged meals, even 5.2 and intermittent fasting…but it never lasted more than a day or so. 

I then saw a promotional ad on the net about ww and I was seriously thinking about it and thought just do it !!  A friend saw it the same day as me and said she was looking into it too. Snap I told her…me too. 

Anyways both of us did sign up and we will be a week in tomorrow. I am doing digital, Robyn is doing meetings. I would like to do meetings but no coaches down in my location. Ironically my friend Robyn and I met in 2004/5 on a online ww forum when we both joined. We had a meet up get together and have been best friends since. Actually from that forum way back then I am still very close friends with most of them. 

So here I go again….

I’m still here….

 But only just ……

When I’m good I’m very very good, and when I’m bad I’m very very bad. 

Last week I lost a 100g, but I’ve been off track since, so badly I didn’t even weigh this week. 

Damn reflux. I had another bad attack last Saturday, just when I thought keto was working for me. Since then I’ve been floundering and I don’t know what to do. 

I soooooo badly need to lose weight…but I can’t get it together enough to get into a plan. 

I’m lost, don’t know which way to go now..and the more I think about it the more I eat and gain. 

Ooops nearly forgot

 After weigh in last week  with my small loss I was ready to head straight into a new week staying on track. 

Mmmmmmm did that happen?

NO it did NOT😩🥺

No real excuses, just me being me and “oh one small treat will be ok” mentality attitude.  That sometimes is ok….but Saturdays treat lead into Sunday and it was Monday before I knew it and I was battling to get back on track.

I did better on Monday but it was Tuesday before I was totally back on track. 

So weigh in Saturday I expected my stupidity to show up on the scales. To my surprise I recorded a 100g loss 🥲

Just think what I could have done if I had stayed true to myself. 

Weigh in day.

 Weigh in day….lost 400g.

Have had the grandies this morning, they have just gone off with mum, William has a birthday party to go to, then Dad is picking them up.

Dad is being a right Dick again. Trying to ignore court orders…..that he had set in place. Kylee agreed as they suited her too…..but he has changed shifts at work and expects Kylee to change all her plans to suit him. Who goes to court to fight for more time with kids, saying he would drive down and pick them up every second Saturday morning at 9am ( as Kylee works till 11.30) then moves house which is a further 45 minutes drive away. Then changes workplaces and work shifts so he can’t do the early pickup and then expects Kylee to change her Saturday plans to suit him. Ain’t gonna happen Bozo. 

Been so lazy…..thinking it’s time to get some walking in. The only exercise I do is at work and chasing after kids. Motivation come find me…..

All going ok…

 

This has been my goal the past week or so….just slowly does it.

I was rewarded on Saturday at my weigh in with a 300 gram loss.

Stayed on track till last night when I over indulged with crumbed chicken….not keto crumbed, and twice the amount I should have eaten. Little piggy I was. 

BUT this morning, I got up and carried on and put last night behind me. This is a major thing for me as usually after a indulge I get up, weigh and if scales tell me I have gained I go “blown it, may as well forget this week”.  

I know I’m not going to stay 100% perfect and keep on track but if I can climb straight back on the wagon after a lapse then I reckon I’m winning 🤩

This is Australia atm….COVID is definitely not going away. 

I am located in the south west corner of WA and fortunately not in lockdown, and hopefully we don’t. 

School holidays start after school Friday. It’s the little grandies weekend with their Dad, but if more COVID cases show up then I can lockdown see continuing and no visitation as Dad is in Perth.

Our new Mum Jaydene has got herself in strife and seriously jeopardised her chance of keeping her baby. Silly girl saw the baby’s father breaking the vro that is in place. They argued and he became violent (which is why the vro is in place) then when Mum tried to break the argument up Jaydene hit her which was seen by the police as Jaydene’s brother had rang them when the arguments started ….. and they turned up as she was hitting mum. Silly, silly girl. I was so hoping that the baby would change her. 

My last day of working in Bunbury tomorrow, no more travel into town for work. It’s back to the shopping centre just 3 k’s from home. I could have transferred over to the new company that has the cleaning contract but my boss asked me to stay with them.

Right….new book to read, catch you later. 

A better week.

After my post last Saturday I indulged a little bit more in self pity, eating more junk food but also thinking of a way to get myself out the “funk” I was in. By the end of the weekend I decided that I was going to go back to doing Lazy Keto. I enjoyed it last time I did it, the only reason I stopped was I was getting real bad reflux. My meds have been changed since then so fingers crossed that all will go well this time.  

So far all has been good. I started Monday morning and at weigh in this morning I’m already a kilo down 😊👏                                                                       I enjoy eating this way, I love the food I can eat and don’t seem to miss what I can’t have. Anyways it’s onwards and fingers crossed I can keep it up and keep the losses happening. 

Today being weigh in day I usually have a cheat day. More so when I have the 2 little grandies like I did this morning. But this morning I weighed in, had my coffee,  fed the kids and carried on. Maybe it was because Miss Summer was feeling poorly and running a bit of a temp I didn’t have time…but I think it’s more because I’ve settled into the keto way. Long may that last too. 

What else….

Jaydene’s baby is getting cuter by the day. Her time with Bub has been cut back by DCP as there excuse was “ she needed to grow up and sort out her life”   Wrong thing to say to her…a big “shit fight” is happening now between them all now. It’s so wrong 😑  Jaydene deserves to have that baby despite her past. She deserves at least that chance to prove she can be a mother.  

My work company has lost the contract in the shopping centre where I work.  My boss rang to let me know his small company cannot compete with the companies that have tendered BUT he has asked that I stay with him and work at the small shopping village just 3 k’s from where I live. Ironically that’s where I started working for him over 10 years ago. Anyways the Centre Manager in where I am working atm has said that the new company will keep them on….but under what conditions and hours no one knows yet. 

My boss has given 15 hours a week which is what I am doing now so I am very happy.  I’m happy that he thought enough of me to make the offer. Don’t know where he is going to fit me in on the roster, guess I will find out come July 1st when I start. I get on well with them all but still I’m not sure how that will go down with them.  

I know two are on the pension and just working to supplement their pension. Anyways, will wait and see.

UPDATE…. Miss Summer …. who was taken by Mummy up to Mandurah for Daddy pick up for his weekend access at lunchtime after she finished work …. has just been taken to hospital as she has got worse. Fingers crossed it’s nothing too serious.

Will leave you with little Miss Smudge….did I tell you about her? She was bought home by my son and granddaughter a few months ago, but somehow or other she has attached herself to me and Hubby.  She is growing up but still too full of kitten mischief.  Has wrecked a few of my good dining chairs by using them as scratching posts…even though she has one of her own. 

Hating me.

Last week I had it all together..well nearly anyways. Then I lost the plot, heck knows why?

Weigh in this morning resulted in a 1.5 gain. Really go figure 😨 

Totally all me. No one to blame but myself. I knew what I was doing to myself. A little voice inside said it will be alright, next week you’ll lose it. So I ate some more. Felt sick, clothes were getting tighter. Little voice says it’s alright Jen you know what to do to lose it, you’ve done it before, next week will see it gone.

Really, I must be sick in the head 😱. 

Why do I do this to myself? 

It’s a nasty vicious circle in my head and somehow I just have to stop it. 

I just have too. My weight is going up, and up and I don’t like it.

Actually I hate myself. 

I just have to regroup and stop myself before it goes any further.

It’s starting to effect me, everything seems to be an effort. I ache. I am bloated. 

I need to find the mindset to get myself out of this funk. This yo-yo’ing just has to stop. 

I have to find me again.

Saturday

Jaydene’s visits with Jahzara seem to be going well . Baby is growing every time I see a pic of her. She appears to be very alert.  I’m hoping to get to see her on one of the daily visits Jaydene has but I will have to go through all the rigmarole with DCP for that to happen. 

Hours have been lowered at work. And if rumours are to be believed I may even be out of work soon. The shopping centre has called for tenders for the cleaning contract as the one we have ends this month. I’m not sure our company will get it again. The centre manager is new taking over from Russell who has had us contracted there for the last 10 years. Brett has taken over, he’s young, he’s brash and he is not a fan of our bosses. So if we don’t get the contract I will unemployed unless the new contractors take me on. I was hoping to keep the job till next year when I can officially retire.

Weigh in day today. A loss. It’s been a not too bad week and was happy to see that reflected on the scales. 

 

Time flies....

 

The days seem to just fly by lately. On the days I have the little ones more so. By the time breakfast is had, Williams lunch packed and him dressed in uniform, Summer’s day care bag organised and yell at Skye we leaving in 10 minutes ready or not. We out the door no later than 8am, drop William off, then onto daycare and drop Summer off, then town to drop off Skye. If I have a 10am start at work I stay in town, find a quiet nook to have a coffee and read and relax before work....otherwise it’s turnaround and head home. The round trip takes me near on a hour. 

Jahzara is thriving.

She seems to be a very aware and alert little girl. Mum sees her for 5 hours every week day, and 2 hours on Saturday and Sunday...which is something I guess. 

Don’t know when DCP go to court to apply for her full time care, but I know Jaydene hasn’t got a lawyer yet. There is no way they will allow Mum and baby live at home with her mum and brother. Her best bet is to ask to be put in a home with other young mums and a carer. 

There has to be a way to at LEAST give Mum a chance to be a Mum, Jahzara deserves that. 

Now me....I’m battling on. Weight up and down, but I seem to be settling down and working more on loosing it. Lost 300g last week and gained it back this week. I can deal with that.

Right off to stir the pot of vegetable soup I have cooking.